Waiting For You (A Forbidden Love)

Chapter 1 Secretly watching

I watch her while walking with her friends, smiling widely. She looks so beautiful even she is just so young, an epitome of beauty and class. Her face looks so delicate that screams of innocence but alluring and tempting at the same time.

She develops a good body posture and shows elegance in her movement. She has this youthful glow at the same time a young woman in her is trying to show. How could a 12 years old young girl exudes such unique quality?

Every time i look into her eyes I’m lost in it, it’s like our souls are connected. I feel alive and energetic every time I glimpse her.

She grows so fast that i lost count for how long it is. It’s just like yesterday when i first held her in my arms. I feel an incredible connection and electricity that wrap around me.

When she first touched my face with her little hands and i laid my eyes on her, in that moment i knew she is the one i am waiting for and will change my life forever. I can't explain why but I just felt it. She renewed my dying heart.

"Ninong Arthur"; she calls me and that stop me from my reverie. I see her waving her hands at me and I do the same while smiling. I am like a creep watching her from the distance and admiring her secretly.

"Watching you grow is my solace; that fills the emptiness of my heart. Looking at you from afar is what i could only do, but i promise one day it will not be forever that way."

"Thinking of you is what keeps me through the night and hope that one day it will be true. Dreaming of you is what i can only do and hope one day it will not be just a dream but a reality of my dream."

"Holding you in my arm is a moment to remember, willing to give anything just for this moment to last. Loving you is the hardest thing to do, but it is the happiest feeling I've ever felt."

Being with you it's like i am forever stuck in time. A glimpse of you is enough for me to keep going. A simple gesture of yours put a smile on my face. Your frown takes away my bad day. Your laugh is my laughter for a day."

These are my thoughts while looking at her. Di binitawan ng aking mga mata ang kanyang bawat galaw.

"Ninong Arthur andito ka, sinusundo mo ba ako?" Saad niya na sobrang saya ng makalapit na sa akin. It’s like i give her some present. Her smile is captivating and her eyes twinkles with happiness, nakakahawa tingnan.

"Yes, kasi matagal na kitang di nakasama, I have been busy these days." Wika ko sa kanya, without her knowing na palagi ko itong ginagawa ang tingnan siya sa malayo na di niya alam.

"Really!! Can we go to the park? Can we eat ice cream as well?" Excited niyang saad na para bang bihira lang makakain ng ice cream at makapunta ng park.

Well Adric doesn’t allow them to go anywhere without them or some bodyguards toying around. Well except for me, every time gusto ko silang isama okay lang, Adric trusted me with his children. They knew i will take good care of them.

Paparazzi are everywhere kaya di sila basta basta makagala kahit saan, he is very protective of his children. Whatever their actions are caught in camera. The media always follow them or monitor their movement.

Adric and Rabi still hold the title of being the power couple in the entertainment industry around the globe.

"Okay park it is, tell me where else you want to go and what do you want to do para masamahan kita." Nakangiti kong saad habang ginugulo ang buhok niya.

She has a shiny long curly hair na nagpapacute lalo sa kanya at binabagayan ng maliit at maamong mukha. Para siyang buhay na manika kung tingnan.

"Yehey, the best ka talaga Ninong"; sabay hug sa akin at bigay ng maliit na kiss sa aking pisnge. Para na akong nasa alapaap kahit simple kiss lang galing sa kanya.

Dinala ko siya sa favorite park na pinupuntahan namin. I know she would love it here. I let her do whatever she wants, bihira lang niya ito maranasan.

"Come here Ninong, play with me"; kaway niya sa akin. Yeah why not, it’s nice to be back to my younger self, just be free and enjoy the moment with her. She makes me alive.

Nang mapagud at magawa ang lahat ng gusto, umuwi na kami. Rabi knows that she is with me.

Habang pauwi, nakatulog na siya sa passenger seat, dahil sa pagud siguro. I look at her while caressing her face. Sa ganito lang na sandali ko maipapakita ang hilim ko na pagmamahal sa kanya. I look at her closely and let myself indulge in the moment.

"Why it had to be you that my heart’s desire? When loving you means killing me slowly, breaking the friendship i had built for years."

"Why it had to be you? When it’s against the usual, some people may doubt my intention towards you. Why i can’t love anyone else aside from you? When loving you, means hurting myself once more."

"Should i just forget you and move on, but it means living this life with regrets? Should i blame myself for having this feeling, but i didn’t ask for it?"

You are not what i had expected to come or even dreaming of your kind. I have tried killing these feelings i had, thinking it’s not right."

"Pursuing my love for you means asking my death but i am willing to cross hell just for you."

"I wish i can hold you forever, without holding myself back. I wish i could talk to you freely without reservation and anxiety. I wish i could stop the time and stood still at this exact moment."

"I wish i could show my love openly like anyone else. I wish we could be together without the doubts and question from everyone’s mind. I wish our life would be fair and no judgment from prying eyes."

"I hope one day everything will come into place. I hope one day when our hearts reunites as one and together we will fight. I hope that the God above will hear my plea and that he will grant my wish."

"To be with you is what i am asking for. To be with you is what i am craving for. To be with you is the happiest feeling that i long for."

My heart is longing to be free, but i had to wait.

"I am waiting for you even the uncertainty of time. I am waiting even time is against me. I am waiting even though i am crossing life and death. I am waiting even scrutiny awaits for me. I am waiting even it’s against morality."

I will never get tired of waiting coz true love never weary. I will never lose hope that one day this dream will be in reality coz true love never loses hope I will never get tired of waiting coz you are my destiny.

These are my thoughts while waiting on you but i know my wait will be worth it.