Waiting For You (A Forbidden Love)

Chapter 8 Failed relationship

As what the doctor advise me to do, to find a woman that i can fall in love and develop connection with. I tried doing that, in my line of business i openly meet some beautiful girls. A lot of them showed interest in me but i just choose the one that strike my interest because i wanted it for long term.

I have found someone, i meet in one of my business conferences; she's a CEO in some beauty products business. I tried dating her, she is the opposite of the usual, she's a strong lady and she knows what she wants. At first we clash because we have different ideas on things, but I admire her dedication in her work. We do well, we hang out. I tried to attach myself to her. Her name is Rica.

"Arthur can you accompany me this Saturday night at this gala event? I need your company; one day she asks me that, like its nothing for her if i also have an engagement in that time.

Okay babe, will do"; saad ko kahit busy ako but i give her my time. I attended that event. As i observe her, she wants attention from everyone and wants to be appreciated. Those moments keep on happening, she always wants me to be in her side and keep talking about me to other people.

In the duration of our relationship, i feel like she had me for the show. To float to some people that she had me. Sometimes i feel it's not a request anymore kundi isang utos that i need to comply. Until i get tired of her attitude, she is so bossy; she tends to boss me around like i am a puppet to her.

"Rica, i think it's time for us to break up; it's not working anymore in my side"; she is shock on what i say coz the usual i said nothing in every word she said or every time she ask me to do things.

"Why, what's wrong?" She reacted after recovering from my blow.

"Because i am not your puppet, find some that you can boss around. I had enough, goodbye"; saad ko sabay alis. I don't care what she feels.

Then i got another girlfriend, a model. I tried myself to be tied with her, to see what will happen. She is pretty, good looking but materialistic. She always wants to dress up well and with all those accessory in her body and using branded materials.

"Babe, can you buy me this one, it's so pretty"; saad niya while we are in a jewelry shop. I even didn't like to be here but she drags me into this place. Para walang masabi, i bought her one.

"Oh my God, this is the latest edition of Dior"; exaggerated niyang sigaw na parang may accident na nagaganap.

"Babe this is so cool, buy me this one please, i have to have this"; saad niya na para bang her life depend on it; kaya napapalingo lang ako.

She wants me to buy everything she likes, like i am her sugar daddy. We are just same age, she thinks of me as her atm machine just because i own a business. I quit, can't handle her attitude.

"Find an older man to be your DOM, i am not old yet to be your sugar daddy and we're done"; sabi sa kanya at nilayasan siya agad. I really hate that kind of attitude. I can buy anything for a girl but it should be my own accord and not being force. I want to pamper a girl because I feel it and not being ask.

After sometimes i meet another woman who is a teacher. I meet her during the school building inauguration, as i am a guest speaker there. My company constructed the building.

I can say she is the most ideal woman of all the girls i have dated. She is soft spoken, old fashion, gentle, and sympathetic. I can tell that most of the attitude and character i look at in a woman ay nasa kanya na.

We dated for some time but why i feel there's still lacking. I am not as energetic as i can be while with her, there was a day na di ko man lang siya naisip, we're lacking in deeper connection.

"Arthur, you are a good man but i think it's time for us to fall apart. I think it's not me that you need or you want. I can't be just a spare. I need someone that will fully commit himself to me. I am sorry but i had to let you go."

I can't complain coz it's me who's the reason. I can't bring myself to fall in love with her, the feeling wasn't enough. I'm looking for a strong connection that can bring out the best in me.

So i stop searching, coz I felt it's useless, i just keeping doing my business. I focus my mind into my business, making it big. After few years I finally establish myself as a well-known business in the country. I able to bring my name up and be recognize in the business world.

One day i saw her picture out of the blue when i open my box; i forgot that I put it there. I suddenly miss her, my excitement come back again.

"Why is it that i can't bring myself to fall in love with them? Why i can't have same feeling i have in you, were you are just a picture? Why with you that has no life but it seems i was talking to a real person, full of life? Why do i keep having a failed relationship and can't build a connection with anyone? Why did it have to be with you that I fell in love with? Why can't you show up yourself?"

Please i am begging, give the peace that i need and grant my desire of wanting to be with you.