Miguel POV
I watched her ran away from the office. I didn’t want her to know that it was a suicide attempt kasi alam kong ganito siya magrereact. I know she fears a lot and lalo asa estado namin. Hinarap ko si Andrew and he was looking mad as looked at me.
“Andrew, I respect you a lot, you know I do. Hindi ko siya gustong saktan, I am trying to protect her—“
“By not telling her the truth? Miguel, she’s not just an ordinary girl. Bunsong anak yan ng Montecillo, you think palalampasin nila ang ginawa mo? I am trying to understand you, dude. Kasi ako pa naman nagrekomemda sayo. Her sister is here, nakikinig at nakikita lahat nang nangyayari.” I looked at Therese at akmang lalapitam sana but she raised her hand at me for me to stop.
“I-I’m sorry, hindi ito yung plano namin..” pero umiling lang siya
“I don’t care kung ano o paano mo gagawin to, just keep my sister’s name clear, a few more weeks and she’s gonna graduate. Ayoko may makasagabal sa kapatid ko!” then she walked out the door.
Napahilamos ng mukha si Andrew then he sat on his chair, akmang lalabas na ako ng office niya nang tawagin niya ulit ang pansin ko.
“Hey, san ka pupunta?”
“She needs me.”
“Not now, Miguel. Give her space.”
“She’s out there tapos anjan pa yan na post, what do you think will happen?”
“The post has been taken down a while ago, ilang minutes lang ito pinakita and it got deleted. A dummy account was used. Which is pinagtataka ko, the group is private and walang sino man makapasok unless involve sa school na to.”
“What about Kisses, or Tristan’s account?”
“I checked and nandoon pa din ang account nila. Someone has allowed that person to enter the group.”
“I will have to investigate this further, ikaw naman, stay put. Dun kalang muna sa condo mo. I’ll talk to you later.”
“But—“
“Dude, ako na nagsasabi sayo, ayaw mo namang makabangga mga kapatid niya, lalo na ang daddy nya. Give her time and space.”
I didn’t like the sound of it, pero wala din naman akong magagawa but to nod and just go home. Nadaanan ko ang best friend ni Tiffany sa hallway. Nilapitan koi to.
She was smiling to me pero agad din namang nawala nung tinanong ko kung nasaan si Tiff, she just made a face and told me hindi niya alam.
I tried calling her pero off ang phone niya. I sighed, napailing nalang ako saka ako umalis na nang school. Pagdating ko ng condo, I just slump my body on my bed.
Nakakailang libot na ako sa kama when my phone dinged. I immediately got up and grabbed my phone. I smiled upon seeing her name.
“Where are you? –Babe”
“My condo. Where are you?”
“Can we meet? –Babe”
“Sure. Where you want?”
“Your place. –Babe”
Nanlaki mga mata ko, agad akong napatakbo upang tignan ang itsura ng condo ko. I haven’t cleaned for the past 2 days dahil nabusy ako.
I quickly typed in the address of my condo saka itinapon ang phone ko sa couch. Niligpit ko ang mga gamit ko, at nilinis ang kalat habang nag aantay sa kanya.
I even sprayed a freshener para di amoy kulog sa condo, I also opened the windows para may pumasok na sariwang hangin.
Since wala pa siya, inayos ko lang muna yung mga gamit ko sa kwarto. I even made my bed and was about to go to the kitchen nung ng doorbell na sa may pintuan.
I opened it and smiled when I looked at her. She stared at me, wondering kung papapasukin ko ba siya. I moved on the side and let her in. naglakad ito papasok ng condo and into my living, nakasunod naman ako.
“Want some juice, water, coffee or tea?” she just took off her jacket revealing her crop top while looking around then sat down sa couch.
“No, thanks. I just want to talk to you.” I sat opposite her.
“About what?”
“Why did you not tell me?” I see her eye staring at me, not even blinking. I sighed.
“I know you were gonna react that way and possibly do something just like getting with Tristan.”
“I have the right to know, I am involved in this.” She insisted.
“Tiff, ayokong masali ka at may magawa ka na naman. Ayokong ikaw lang ang nagsasakripsyo ng ganyan para satin, I want to save what we have. Ito ang gusto ko, ikaw ang gusto ko kaya wala akong pakialam kahit mawalan ako ng trabaho sa school, that way I can be with you.”
Bigla naman siyang natahimik, I didn’t expect to shout at her. Gusto ko lang naman iparating na kaya kong tiisin ang ilang weeks bago ko siya makasama. I know it was a risk, but I was willing to hold on to it.
Lumapit ako sa kanya and held her waist and head. Niyakap ko siya, hindi naman siya tumutol. I closed my eyes, savouring this time that I can freely hold her.
“Please, I want to do something for us.”
“Bakit siya nagsuicide?” she asked. Nanigas naman ako.
“Tell me the truth.” She insisted yet again.
“Tiff—“
“Please, I want to know.”
I sighed saka ko siya giniyang maupo sa couch, at tumabi ako. Hinawakan ko ang mga kamay niya, gently caressing it. I looked into her eyes that were staring into mine.
“Whatever you are about to find out, it was never your fault. Its mine. So don’t feel guilty okay?”
She stared at me for a few seconds before she nodded. Nakwento ko sa kanya ang nangyari mula sa simula hanggang sa nagyayari sa amin ngayon.
She let go of her hands in mine and stood up covering her mouth. I know she would have that reaction, I just hope matanggap niya ang nagyayari.
She stood outside my balcony. She was breathing so hard, nakahawak pa sa dibdib nya ang kanyang kamay. Lumapit ako sa kanyang likod, ngunit humarap naman siya sakin.
Eyes were blank and its as if she will listen to no reason. I tried to hold her hand but she backed away. Nakaramdam ako ng kislot sa damdamin ko.
“T-tiff—“ she raised her hand to stop me from saying nor holder her.
“I-I guess I n0need to go h-home.” Nakikita ko ang mga namumuong luha sa mga mata niya.
She backed away once more then almost instantly pushed through me. Hindi ko nasundan ang paglabas niya sa condo ko.
Naka ilang minute muna ako bago ko narealize ang nangyari. I ran back to follow her. Nakapasok na sya sa elevator maing me use the stairs para mas madali.
Naka abot na ako ng lobby nang matanaw ko na itong papalabas. Malapit na ako sa kany nang may biglang tumawag at yumakap sakin sa likod.
“Miguel, sinabihan ka na pala na andito ako naghihintay.” I knew that voice.
But my eyes were on her, and I didn’t miss the hurt and pain and the tears that was in her eyes. I forced myself to let go of her para sundan si Tiff.
But she moved ahead and went inside her car. Ni hindi ko nasabi ang totoo. I never expected her here. Lumapit naman sakin si Kisses asking how I was.
I did not listen to her but instead went back to my condo. Aakyat na sana ako ng elevator but she insisted to come with me.
I got out instead and used the stairs. I needed to tire myself. Naabot ko ang floor ko and immediatelt went in. Hnanap ko ang phone ko and tried calling her.
Countless times she dropped the call or declined it. So I sent a message instead and was hoping and praying that she got it.
Napapikit at napahilamos ako sa aking mukha. I heard knocks on my door and her calling for me. I let er, she was already invading my privacy.
Nawala din ito matapos ang ilang minutong pagkakatok. I was about to just lock the doors and go to sleep when my phone ringed.
The front desk was calling. Telling me Kisses was found lying lifeless outside my flat.
“Shit.”