Silent Shot

Prologue “Are you insane?!” Tears threatened to run down my cheeks, but I held it. As hard as I can. Hindi ako agad agad maniniwala sa sinasabi ng lalaking nasa harapan ko ngayon. Oo, masarap pakinggan pero imposible. He just had me! He just took my virginity and maybe he feel responsible for it kaya niya sinasabi ito! Baka iyon lang iyon! Iyon lang ang dahilan kung bakit niya nasasabi ito, diba? Pero bakit iba ang gustong paniwalaan ng puso ko? “Listen to me, Selira. I may be just confessing now, but these feelings were born years ago.” His voice crooked a bit on the edge of the sentence. His voice sounds the same after all these years. Deep and husky. The voice that can make my knees tremble, the voice that I always longed to hear. “Viggo, I…How can I believe you? Ang tagal na nating magkakilala and you are confessing your feelings just a day after you took my virginity!” “Because!” pumikit ito, tila nagpipigil bago bumuntong-hininga. “Because I never intend to confess to you at all!” His voice rises a little bit and my eyes shut wider. “Making love to you was my ‘silent shot.’ I was slapped hard by the fact that I still have a chance with you. I need to confess it to you, or I’ll… I’ll lose you.” Nanatiling malaki ang mga mata ko. Hindi tinatanggal ang tingin sa mga mata niya. The Viggo I know does not know what emotion is. But now, his eyes are full of emotions and being vocal about his feelings. I don’t know if I’ll believe him BUT it’s not the right time. This is wrong. I can’t. “Viggo, you know I can’t.” Tumungo ako. Pumatak na ang luha sa aking mga mata at pasimple kong pinunasan iyon. Parang tinutusok ng milyon-milyong karayom ang puso ko. Pinaghalong sakit at tuwa ang nararamdaman ko. But there’s a barrier between us now. I’m not sure if I could return the feelings even though I do love him, too. “You know that you can.” There is certainty in his every word like it's final and not open for argument. “I’m marrying your brother. Damn it!” sabi ko dahil tila nakakalimutan niya ang bagay na iyon para sabihin ito sakin lahat ngayon. “So?” His tone went back to being emotionless, like he’s not giving a damn at all. Halos malaglag ang panga ko sa sagot niya.