Chapter 12

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KENDRICK'S POV "Can we talk?" I saw Duke entering in my room with his dark and cold expression. Ibinaba ko sa bedside table ko ang hawak kong glass ng wine at hinarap siya. "What are you doing here?" tanong ko. He smiled like he's very irritated by me. "You're with Haya again. I told you to stay away from her, right?" kalmado niyang sabi. "Haya is like my little sister, Duke. I took her out to that party last night because I need to protect her from that jackass." "It's not your business, anyway. Dapat tinawagan mo ako at ako sana ang nagsundo sa kanya sa bahay ng pinsan mo." I shook my head. "You're being paranoid, Duke. Why are you hitting on her? She's 1 decade younger than you!" tumawa akong bigla marahil na rin dahil sa kalasingan ko. I don't know what should I do or to think anymore. Haya already occupied my mind and system right now. Hindi naman ako nagkakaganito sa isang babae noon. Holy s**t! How can she do this to me? Hindi ito iyong Kendrick na kilala ko noon! Duke looks offended on what I said at sumama ang tingin sa akin. "And who's good for her? You?" siya naman ang tumawa at binigyan ako ng ngiting mapang-insulto. I can't answer him. I'm not good for Haya, too. In many many ways. Kung may nararapat man sa kanya ay hindi rin si Duke iyon o iyong lalakeng kasama ni Haya kagabi. Hindi ko na makilala si Duke ngayon. He never talk this way to me before. He is always being my understanding and caring bestfriend but when it comes to Haya, nag-iiba siya, he looks threatened to me that I can get Haya away from him. Ngumisi si Duke nang hindi pa rin ako sumasagot. Lumapit siya sa akin while I'm seriously looking at him. His smirk meant for everything. I see the eagerness in his eyes that he can get the girl that he wanted. "You f****d up so many times, Kendrick. I'm glad because you treasured our friendship way back in high school. Hindi mo ako nagawang ahasin kahit ubod ka ng gago at pagiging babaero noon. Ngayon? It's a cycle again. You need to stay away from my property." he declared. Hindi ako makapaniwala sa sinabi niya. He think that Haya is his property. Hindi ko na talaga makilala si Duke ngayon. He changed a lot. "Pinagbabantaan mo ba ako?" "Hindi ba halata? Akala mo ba hindi ko alam na naging f**k buddy mo rin noon si Tricia?" nakangiti niyang sabi na ikinahinto ko. "You can't hit two birds in one stone, Kendrick. You are never always be number one ever since I became friends with you. I hate you to death, and wanna know why?" he said and already blowing up his big revelation na ikinagulat ko. Tinignan niya ako ng mariin. "You've always get girl's attention. Lahat ng nakarelasyon ko noong high school palang tayo ay nagkagusto sa'yo. They always talking about you in front of our steamy intercourse at ang iba sa kanila ay nakipaghiwalay sa akin dahil inamin nilang kaya lang nila ako nagawang gawing boyfriend ay dahil nagpapapansin sila sa'yo at ikaw talaga ang pakay nila!" I see the hatred in his eyes at ngayon ko lang nalaman iyon. Duke is being quite during that time at ang akala ko ay normal lang ang lahat sa amin. He hold grudge to me since then and I understand why is he acting this. He is always been a good friend to me kahit marami na akong ginagawang kalokohan noon. "I didn't know that, Duke. I'm sorry," I apologized. Umiling siya. "I'm always being left out and defeated when it comes to you. Inaamin ko namang mas lamang ka sa akin but can you blame me for being jealous and insecure to you? Seryoso ako sa lahat ng nakarelasyon ko and it hurts me that some of them broke up with me because they want you." he sighed and close his eyes and open after. "Hindi ko talaga alam kung anong nagugustuhan ng mga babae sa'yo. You're one of a heck womanizer and arrogant before while I'm the good and loyal one!" he insult me and chuckled after. "Are you done?" I coldly said. "Oh meron pa, you're a drug addict, spoiled brat kid, causing a lot of troubles to other people, want to lay his brother's wife-" I snapped when he said the final line. Tumayo ako at sinuntok siya sa panga dahilan para magulat siya at mapaatras sa akin. "Yes, I'm one of a heck jerk and stupid before but don't bring it back to me! I'm now changing for my better self, Duke and I'm sorry for what happened to you na wala naman akong ideya but you're too much!" sigaw ko at pinipigilan na 'wag ulit siyang sugurin at tuluyang bugbugin. I master myself to control my temper sa tulong na rin ng grandparents ko at rehabilitation center sa Amerika. I will not going back here in the Philippines kung hindi dahil kila Kenneth at Allison. I want to show them that I'd already changed and regrets everything I've done before. He laugh sarcastically sapo ang panga niyang sinuntok ko. "Nagbago ka na pala e, bakit hindi pa rin nawala sa'yo ang pagiging attention seeker? Gusto mo si Haya, 'di ba? I can see it, Kendrick and I'm not dumb like what you were thinking!" I stopped again for what he said. He is right and I can't deny it kaya nga hindi ko na magawang layuan si Haya para kay Duke dahil hindi ko kakayanin iyon. I tried to stay away from her but I failed. "Imagine? We are now whipped to a young girl but of course, I still have a biggest advantage to you because I'm her brother's friend and I didn't do anything s**t in my past before." he mocked me. The regrets and jealousy pangs in my chest. Hyacinth really means to me. She's very different and she is my best little girl. I'm lusting over her and at the same time, I feel something special for her. I like her innocence, beautiful face, pretty voice, gorgeous body, soul and all. I don't want to avoid her, I can be her good older brother and maybe.. a lover. It's fun to think that I'm now hoping for more than friendship thing to her. She's too young for me but I really like her and I want her by my side. I admitted that I'm jealous when men around her have an interest in her including Duke. I want her to be mine. "I like her, Duke." pag-amin ko. Mas lalong sumama ang tingin ni Duke. "I know and you have no chance on her. Sa akin si Haya. Sa akin lang..." He repeated the same claim na ibinulong niya sa akin noon. "Nobody owns her, Duke. She has a freedom to like who is she'll going to love and I will say this to you, gagawin ko ang lahat para lang magustuhan niya ako at maging sa akin siya." seryoso kong sabi. Nilabanan ko ang nag-aalab sa galit na mga mata ni Duke. I didn't know that we're getting at this point na magiging magkaaaway kami nang dahil sa isang babae but the hell I care! "You have guts to say that, Kendrick? You're useless and all! Wala nang magkakagusto sa'yong babae at hinding-hindi mo makukuha si Haya sa akin." he insults me again at but I smirk and cross my arms. "You already said na lahat ng mga naging karelasyon mo ay nagkagusto sa akin noon. Pwede rin'g mangyari 'yon ngayon because I'm always better than you." "You traitor!" Doon na siya tuluyang nagalit at sinuntok ako sa mukha dahilan para mapaupo ako sa sahig. Akmang susugod pa sana siya nang biglang dumating sina Kenneth at Allison. Napigilan ni Kenneth si Duke na sobrang sama ng tingin sa akin habang inalalayan naman akong makatayo ni Allison. I felt nothing when Allison hold me. Parang bula na rin na nawala ang matagal ko nang atraksyon sa kanya. Nadivert na iyon lahat kay Haya simula nang dumating siya sa buhay ko. "Why did you hit my brother, Duke?" tanong ni Kenneth kay Duke na inalis ang pagkakahawak sa kanya. "He's a f*****g asshole!" galit na sigaw ni Duke at padabog na itong umalis sa loob ng kwarto ko. Kenneth look at me. "What happened, Kendrick? Duke is your bestfriend-" "I don't have a bestfriend anymore." sagot ko at lumabas na sa loob ng kwarto ko leaving Kenneth and Allison. I went to the gym in our house at ibinuhos ko sa punching bag ang lahat ng galit, inis at insecurities na nararamdaman ko. "f**k!" Sigaw ko habang patuloy pa rin sa pagsuntok sa punching bag. I'm dumb and numb right now. Duke confessed his jealousy to me before, insults me, humilates me, reminding me that I can't get Haya and threats me for everything. Mas masakit na sa huli ay gagaguhin ka ng itinuring mo na rin'g parang isang kapatid. Na kahit si Haya nalang ang magandang nangyari sa buhay ko ay hindi siya magpapaubaya at kukunin pa rin iyon sa akin. Natutunan ko na ngayon na pwede ka rin palang traydurin ng taong pinagkakatiwalaan mo. I didn't betrayed Duke because our friendship means to me but when it comes to Haya, I can't promise that anymore. I want to fight Haya kahit ganito ako. Kahit barumbado, dating adik sa droga, babaero, hindi mapagmahal na kapatid at isang sakit sa ulo ng pamilya ko noon. Papatunayan ko sa kanya na tuluyan na akong nagbago at kahit malayo man ang agwat ng edad namin ay gusto ko siyang mahalin at protektahan sa abot ng makakaya ko. For the past 28 years in my life, mahuhulog at magkakagusto lang rin pala ako sa isang 18 years old na babae na para ko na rin'g nakababatang kapatid. Si Haya na lang ang kaligayahan ko at hindi ko sasayangin ang pagkakataong mas lalong mapalapit sa kanya at maipakita na nagbago na ako at hindi ko na uulitin ang mga pagkakamali noon. This lust that I feel for her is a total s**t. Simula ngayon, aalisin ko na ito sa sistema ko at igagalang at irerespeto ko siya bilang isang babae. She's young for my s**t. She doesn't deserve being sexualized to an adult guy like me. She deserves my respect. I will wait for her at doon ko lang siya aangkinin at ipaparamdam sa kanya kung gaano ko siya kagusto at pahahalagahan. Nang mapagod na akong ilabas ang lahat ng sama ng loob ko ay naupo ako sa ring at inalis ang boxing gloves ko kasama ang pawisan kong puting t-shirt revealing my tattooed arm and chest. Someone is calling in my phone at tinignan ko kung sino ito. Napangiti ako nang makita ang 'little girl' na name sa contacts ko. "Hey, little girl." [H-Hi po, Kuya Kendrick. Gusto ko lang po sanang mag goodnight sa inyo. Kakatapos ko lang po gumawa ng assignments at sana po ay maayos lang ang araw n'yo.] Her sweet and angelic voice rmelts my heart. Wala pang taong naging ganito kaconcern sa akin. Only Haya. "Its fine, little girl. You need to rest. Gabi na at maaga ka pa para sa school mo bukas." I look like an idiot while smiling behind my phone. Lahat ng galit ko kay Duke at inis na nararamdaman ko ay nawala na parang bula dahil sa boses ni Haya. [Sige po. I'll check you lang po kung maayos kayo dahil kagabi ay na-beastmode po kayo kay Paolo.] I feel that she's pouting on the other line. She's such an adorable girl. "I'm fine like what I said. Thank you for calling me, Haya. It means so much to me," mariin kong sabi. [W-Wala po 'yon, Kuya Kendrick. Sige na po, matutulog na po ako. Goodnight and sweet dreams!] nauutal niyang sabi at kaagad na nitong binaba ang tawag dahilan para mapangiti pa ako nang todo. Doon ko lang napansin na nagdudugo na pala ang mga kamao ko pero hindi ko ito ininda dahil mas lamang pa rin sa akin ang saya nang tumawag si Haya at marinig ang boses niya. "Binabaliw mo talaga ako, little girl but you're my best craziness and destruction ever..."
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