Howl With Me

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Anna's POV continued:

Opening the door I walked in my home. The lights were off which clearly stated that dad would be gone for tonight. Slamming my bag on my bed I walked to the washroom. Half was my dress was soaked. I had a craving that could be fulfilled today. I stripped down and got under the shower.

Stepping on the cold hard cement down my foot I shivered. My warm hands touched the cold tap. Pulling it up a stream of cold water trailed down the shower. I moved the tap on the red side hoping the water would be be warm. I stood there away from the water. After waiting for a minute I let my left hand out. A warm trail of water heated my cold hands.

Satisfied with the water I stood below the shower. My cold body relaxed when it collided with the warm droplets. I bought my hands to my head and pulled my hair back, my hair flattened it self to surface of my head. I was relived, my mind wasn't working. I stood there enjoying couple minutes of my life. I knew any minute they would end. I grabbed my strawberry shampoo and gently applied it to my hair. Slowing massaging my scalp I felt my brain clearing out. I hoped that this would never end.

Washing my hair and body I pulled out a white towel from the rack. I stepped out and wrapped it around my small figure. Walking out of my warm bathroom, A wave of cold air passed down to my exposed parts of my body. I shivered and walked to the heater placed next to my table. As the heater on I felt relief from the cold air. I glanced at the clock with stated 6:00. I had to do my job before dad comes. I ran to my closet and grabbed a pair of skinny jeans and a loose green shirt. I seized my jacket from the table. I took my wallet from the table and walked down stairs. I kept the lights off so no one knew I was here.

I went to dads room and searched for the thing. I started it when I was 13 years old. I knew I was too young to do this but nothing else would comfort me. Back when I was 13 I used to do it everyday. I knew it was dangerous but I felt peace when I took it. I stopped when I was 15 but the worst thing was I carved for it. I would scream in the woods. I did everything to get it. I stopped for couple months but when I couldn't take it anymore so I swore that I would take a dose in a week. No more no less.

I found the box were my dad kept it. I grabbed it in a moment and shoved it in my jacket. I shut the box and slipped it under the bed. I walked out and switched off the light. Locking the door a cold air hit my body. The place was freezing I pulled the hood up and firmly clutched my jacket.

The house was far away from the town. Which I really didn't mind. I ran through the woods and stopped when I noticed the town light. I walked towards a supermarket. I went in and grabbed a box of cigarette. Paying it I noticed the cashier staring at me like I was doing something illegal. I walked out of the supermarket and ran towards the woods. The only place which kept me in peace. Away from the world.

I stopped to look around that no one was there. I was standing in the middle of the woods. I sat in Indian style next to a tree. My back rested on the tree I could feel the tree branches poking my back. I really didn't care because I was used to this.

"Okay Anna just one dose nothing much" I said calming myself. I grabbed a long clothing from my jacket. I tied a tight knot to my elbows using my teeth's I sealed it. I could feel my blood flowing. I grabbed a dose of heroin from my jacket. The bottle was round in shape and tagged with 'Heroin'. Removing a sryinge I plugged it in the bottle and let the heroin flow through the sryinge. Filling it up I moved it away. I threw the bottle as far as I could.

I regretted doing this every time. But there wasn't anything else that could help me the same way cocaine and heroin did. I shut my eyes tight and let a few tears escape. I injected the drug in my veins. I could feel a way of pleasure going through every vain in my arm. Seconds after I felt my mind in peace. Like there wasn't anything left this world. A warm tingly feeling ran down my spine. I loved this feeling I couldn't feel any kind of pain. All my negative thought were locked one side on my head.

I grabbed the cigarette from the smoke. Placing it between my lips I bought the lighter up my mouth. Snapping it couple of time it worked. I inhaled sharply in and out. My whole body feel deep in pleasure not wanting to get out. I blew the cigarette again, noticing the smoke I played it with my finger. After finishing 4 cigarette I reached forward to grab another one for the past hour I was sitting in the same position.

Smoking was a good relief from my life. I knew I had to get back. I blew another smoke. I started drawing patterns around the smoke. I heard a snap, I gasped and turned my head to the direction. Digging the smoke on the ground, I got up from my position. I heard a growl from the left side, I places a hand on my heart and looked back. I saw a brown wolf with black eyes. He started walking to me, I took a step back. He looked like he was going to kill me, no voice utter from my dried throat. I stood there ready from him to attack.

I am dead