Ava “Lucas wanted to give you this for Christmas…but I think now is the right time for this. Hopefully this will show you everything, how we both feel about you because Ava, we both love you so much. More than you will ever know. There are no words to describe how much we love you and not only want, but need you in our lives. There's still so much we need to talk about, so many good things but that can wait. But first, I want you to open the box.” He said gently while I held the little red box in my hand. “Well, he’s a few months too early for that.” I laughed until he grabbed one of my hands in his, linking our fingers and giving me a light squeeze, "Shouldn't we do this with him? I don't want him to be upset that he's not here." The idea of upsetting Lucas hurts and it's the last thing