Art I haven’t seen her in four days. Our schedules are so opposite it’s ridiculous. With me trying to fix everything between us and explain things, it’s like the world is now suddenly against this, against us. I need her help in more than one way. I need to tell her the things I have been holding in. I need her. Lucas has been going crazy asking for Ava. He spent one day with and he said it was the best day he's ever had and I totally wish I was there with them instead of at the wedding, no offense to Olivia and Celeste. It took him a couple of days to come up with the courage to talk to me about what happened at school with Steph, Felix and Ava. When I asked him about it after I brought him home, he was scared I was going to get mad. He was actually afraid that I was mad because he ran