BloodLust Book One

Blooming Roses

The roses are in full bloom and they are beautiful they remind me of a life I wish I would have never left, Nessie will soon know the sad truth of the life I had before I took over my fathers pack and I'm afraid that I may lose her because of this. Lucifer Island  was my home before I was called back to take over I wish everyday that I would have stayed away from this place, life is falling  fast from what I know and want. 

Nessie pov 

Something is troubling Jacob but I don't know what it is because he wont open up to me and i'm not sure how I feel about that lately he's been distant and cold but I just wanna know. As i'm walking out of the manor I just start walking down the stone path with no real place in mind, I end up at the lake the first place that I seen when I got into town and I knew that this place was gonna be special to me and to us but how do I get him to mate with me before the full moon. 

Jacob is my person and I have to show him that I will always be with him but its hard when hes so unsure of his feelings and how he feels about the pack part of me knows that he doesnt wanna be here in this town where he grew up, where his parents died and where his first love killed herself so I know its hard. My first love he died too during the last war and it was so hard on me that I wanted to die but I knew I had to be strong for my sister an the coven and all the people who counted on me its those same people who helped keep my mind clear when all I wanted to do was shut down and fade away I couldn't let them down. 

This has been the longest couple of weeks of my life and I cant believe all that is going on. This war is bringing out the worst in everyone  I can't really concentrate because it's all beginning to be why too much for me to handle.    

jacobs pov 

I have way to much on my plate and I just wanna tell Nessie everything that is on my mind but I think it might scare her off an I really don't wanna scare my mate off because I need her more then anything right now, Life isn't what I expected after my parents died and now i'm all alone sometimes it gets so hard to breathe that i feel like i'm suffocating. 

Nessie has been so beautiful and amazing through everything that is going on that I wish she would tell me what's on her mind because I really need to know since its stressing me out but one thing that I know is that i'm gonna make this women mine when the full moon comes she just doesn't know it, I love her and I think its time to make us official im going to pop the question tomorrow at dinner. 

The next day I wake up and get all my stuff done for the day then prepare for dinner for tonight, on my way to town this morning I need to drop the rings off to be cleaned and then off to the suit shop to get my suit fitted and cleaned, On my way home I got to thinking about all the things I love about her and honestly the one thing that drives me nuts is her smile its gorgeous another thing that I love about her is the fact she never backs down from a challenge she has strong opinions and she doesn't take s**t from anyone. 

Teddy pov 

I'm going crazy as hell thinking that time has been going so slow that I just wanna sleep and spend time with Alex but dad has me at home doing clan stuff and I just wanna be in the void with my person. I am so happy that we found each other, I just hope that my dad doesn't find out that I have met my mate because I really hope that when the time comes to introduce him that he will approve but after hearing about his past and how my dad turned him away I don't think that it's gonna go over well. 

I want my dad to see what I see every time that we are together then maybe he would see what I love about him, honestly I don't know what to say if he finds out about Alex except that we have decided to move forward in our relationship and if he doesn't approve then i'm gonna have to turn down being the queen of the clan. Alex I know that he loves me but i'm scared that when he finds out about my past and how i was a hunter who killed off most of the hybrids I don't think he's gonna be so unhappy he might leave me. 

My love for him has grown in the last few weeks and now that everything is starting to come together I think that maybe it's time to come clean about my past and hopefully he takes it well because if he doesn't that could be the end of our perfect relationship, Alex is gonna be hurt and just confused and I know its all my fault. 

Alex's pov

Teddy has been acting so weird lately and I don't know how to take, I cant believe that she won't talk to me or tell me how she is feeling but she doesn't and it hurts know that she won't talk to me. She has been so distant and moody I think it might be the full moon but I don't know, I feel super stressed myself and need someone to talk to as well and I dont if she will sit down and listen to me or not because of how she's been im really hoping that she will because i need her by my side I want her to move here to the badlands with me but i'm not sure she wants that right now.

The badlands aren't that bad and I hope that she wants to be here with me but if she doesn't then maybe ill make the change and move into the city because I would do anything to make her happy, she's special to me and that will never change even if she doesn't want to continue this relationship with me. Teddy needs to see that I will always be there for her even when the times are rough she probably just needs the person she loves the most which isn't me but close its her mother. 

Her mother was her best friend and the person she trusted more than anyone in the world and I hope that one day I can be that for her because she needs that in her life and like I said before I would do anything to keep her happy when she's feeling down and I just want her to be so happy and feel loved like she did when her mother was alive.  That girls happiness depends on me now and thats all i wanna do is make her happy. 

Do to the witches magic the roses that are blooming here in the garden they will continue to bloom for the rest of eternity thats just one thing i can do for her right now till she decides if she wants to stay here with me or if she is gonna run back to her normal life. She needs to make the decision before the next full moon because this is the change for her to finally shift an see that she is a hybrid Teddys father has kept that secret for long enough and its time that she finds out who she really is and that everything he has told her is a lie.