I was staring at the TV while eating ice cream. I'm just staring at it as I don't understand anything... I was trying to focus on the movie but my mind was flying elsewhere.
"This ice cream tastes bitter," I muttered and stared at my vanilla ice cream.
I don't know why my ice cream suddenly tastes bitter. I don't know why my heart suddenly feels heavy... This is a feeling that isn't familiar to me and its unfamiliarity is what scares me the most. Natatakot ako kapag hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili kong nararamdaman. Natatakot ako kapag dumadating ako sa punto na hindi ko nakokontrol ang sarili ko at ang gusto kong mangyari... Natatakot ako kapag nagsisimula akong makaramdam ng mga bagay na hindi ko alam kung paano ko panghahawakan.
Napailing na lang ako at napatingin sa paper bags na
