"But, I learned a long time ago……. I was just the extra kid! The BURDEN!! Not the bonus kid…not the youngest little darling! I was the MF THROWAWAY…..the ONE NO F*** BODY NEEDED OR WANTED! While I did all the WORK and everyone else got the GLORY off of MY HARD WORK!!! So, IF I was called IN HERE to be REJECTED BY A DAMN COWARD…… who fails to see my worth…..I will NEVER BEG ANYONE to SEE OR APPRECIATE what I bring to the TABLE….HELL!!! I’M THE MF TABLE…...SO LET’S DO THIS!! REJECT ME, COWARD!!!"
Montego coughed….and stuttered, refusing to look in my direction, “I’m not rejecting you….. Shadow would weaken. I can’t afford to have a weak wolf as Alpha of this Pack. But I love Faith…. I need you, both.”
Isiah growled, jumping up out of his seat, “What the f***, Montego?! No! That’s not how this works! You don’t get to do this to my baby sister!”
My Uncle Aaron snarled, standing up protectively in front of Montego and Faith, “STAND DOWN, ISIAH! THIS DOESN’T CONCERN YOU!! THIS IS BETWEEN MONTEGO AND THE GIRLS!!!"
Isiah growled back, “You’re okay with this bullshit! You are okay with the Alpha f*****g one niece…. While causing excruciating pain to the other? He would shorten her life span or kill her altogether with all that pain. I will not stand by and allow that to happen on my watch. What kind of parent/guardian/uncle are you?! My Goddess!! To think I told Grace you were a man of honor and that my best friend was a good man. I have never been so ashamed to be a member of this family or this pack as I am at this moment! Chastity, I expected more and better from you!!"
Alpha Anderson roared, “Enough! This is Montego’s decision! He will mate and mark Faith at the ceremony tonight……Grace will do her duty to the pack!!"
I gasped….and Isiah was already shaking his head to say something else.
I stood up with my head held high and said,” THE HELL, I WILL!!! MONTEGO…..by only accepting Faith as your mate……you are REJECTING LUNA AND ME!! Therefore, I Grace Aubrey Moonsong Howland, reject you Alpha Montego Enoch Crystal of Crystal Wolf Lake Reserve Pack, as my mate……NOW AND FOREVER!!!”
Montego grabbed his chest and fell to his knees…. He moaned “Noooo!” as Luna sent him all the pain and I just looked at him laughing my A----OFF.
And my Aunt slapped me screaming,” YOU UNGRATEFUL CHILD!!! EVERYTHING HAS TO BE YOUR WAY…. ALL THE TIME!!!”
Even though my cheek stung, I firmly told her with a smile on my face,” NEVER LAY HANDS-ON ME AGAIN OR I WILL ALLOW LUNA TO SHOW YOU .....JUST WHO THE F*** WE ARE!!! YOU f****d up your own mate bond with OUR father and OUR uncle and now your misery wants company. I will not be joining you, Aunty Sarah!"
After taking a deep breath, I finished with,” I intend to go live my best MF LIFE, BITCHES!!! “
“Why is he the only one in pain?” asked Chastity, looking around at everyone.
Knowing that was my clue to exit, I bravely stated, “I, Grace Aubrey Moonsong Howland, reject the Crystal Wolf Lake Reserve Pack as my Pack.” As soon as the words left my mouth, I heard a chilling howl from Montego, then he passed out from the pain.
As I turned to go, Alpha Anderson stated, “I want you off my land, now…… this is no longer your home! You have an hour to vacate my territory!”
I shouted “So be it!” and walked out with my pride and dignity still intact. I refuse to let ignorant people break me.
I immediately went to my room to change clothes and grabbed my luggage. I would simply drive home as planned to pack up my apartment all next week. I needed to be in Capitol City living on the university campus in two weeks, anyway. I kept telling Luna how sorry I was….. But she assured me it was our only option. She was whining but whispered, “We will be fine! We are strong…. And the Goddess is on our side!! We will not be the ones with regrets! Plus, maybe we can get the Dragon King as our second chance mate! I hear Dragons have even bigger c***s and s*x drives than wolves!”
I just shook my head at her, laughed and smiled….” Okay! Luna, you are a mess, but thank you for always having my back!!”
Thirty minutes later, I changed into my dark denim jumpsuit and all my stuff in my Black on Black fully loaded Jeep Wrangler with the personalized license plate “Real BadA***”. Plus, I have taken out those damn contact lenses. Hugging my brother Isiah, goodbye, I told him,” I planned to legally change my name to our mother’s maiden name. Our mother, Lynn Moonsong……of the Alaskan Mombasa Pack. She was the only person, beside Isiah, who knew my struggles……and knew my pain…. That really truly saw me….. From now on, I will put myself first. And I will become the person I was meant to be.