A final decision then? What does that even mean? Doesn't Lydia want me now?
"I-I don't trust you," she said in a low voice.
I understand that. I should be okay with what Lydia said. This is at least an opportunity to prove to her that I'm serious. But I don't like the thought of Lydia considering leaving me.
Leaving me... Rejecting me...
Those thoughts just... they just... make me so fu.cking angry! I don't even have the right after what I did. Which makes me even angrier!
I've always had this obsession with Lydia. This deep desire to make her mine. It was always a dark and controlling desire. One that scared me sometimes, but now...
It only feels more intense.
I used to tell Lydia that even if I wasn't her mate, I would kill whoever was. That I would make her mine no matter what i
