The Cam Shot

Shot 02

The first night of him and Neil’s sensual encounter was all that runs in Shawn’s mind. How his hot kisses, the ember fuming traces of his lust guided by Neil’s hands, and his expletive and melodic moans that lingered in his ears. All of these were like replaying in his mind… or literally replaying in his eyes? He couldn’t tell. All the sensations, it all felt so real to him that he couldn’t stop his moaning. It made him release his inner spirit, his wild spirit that waited for this day to happen to him. The very thing that he wanted to do with someone like Neil.

If this is the dream that kept on replaying in his sleep, then he’d be glad to accept all of this pleasure he’s feeling. He would be a bastard if he denies it. He wanted Neil all for himself. He wanted him to be beside him and is the one to give him all the pleasure. Just this day… maybe he should be selfish and claim Neil as his. Just maybe… he will be forgiven to still desire him.

Shawn felt that over-pouring sensation. His climax of ecstasy is going on his tip. He moaned and felt the desire coming to an end. That was the most sensual thing that has happened to him. It was too powerful to forget. It was a lot different from when he and Neil spent that lustful night in the building. It was a lot different from all that he felt before.

And just as the last scene at the bar went black, so as Shawn’s mind as the night became stagnant in his sleep…

Sexy. That’s the repeated word in the lyrics that Shawn was continuously hearing after he has woken up. The scent of an unfamiliar perfume lingered in his nose. He cringed his nose and sniffed again. He held his temple and mouthed his protest in pain.

His hair fell on his eyelashes and tried to shake his head to move them at the side. He protested again in pain and closed his eyes. His head is pounding in pain. Did he drink too much beer again last night?

The memory of Dan inviting and dragging him inside the VIP room was recalled in his mind. It was followed by the images of Neil and Russel happily cuddling each other in the room while he was there to bolt at them and make a scene.

Shawn deliberately shook his head at the memories. Did he really lose his sanity last night? What the hell happened afterwards?

Shawn automatically looked around him from his right. He woke up with his chest lying flat on the bed. His arms became his pillow. When he turned and twisted his waist a little, something hard between his thighs gave him quite a goosebump. Damn it! I’m having white dreams again, he told himself.

As he looked around, it occurred to him that he’s inside his bedroom. He raised his eyebrow. So, he did survive driving all the way home? Or did someone take him home safely?

He shook his head. Those questions added pounds on his head. He should get back to sleep. When he was about to lay down on his left, the thick white blanket was covering a hump with the shape of a human body on his bed as he turned to the other side. Shawn widened his eyes. It was unmoving. He slowly moved the blanket at the end and saw a pair of legs.

Shawn gasped at the sight. It was followed by a moan under the sheets. The hump suddenly moved and rolled out of the blanket.

Shawn’s eyes were still widened at that moment as the face of the stranger lying on his bed crept up and sleepily rubbed the sleepiness away. He almost forgot to breathe. The guy opened up his eyes and looked at Shawn. The latter widened his eyes. But afterwards, he smiled at Shawn.

“Oh, yeah… Hi, bro?” The guy uttered in his bedroom voice. He even giggled as if their position wasn’t awkward. “Oh, by the way, I think you should change. Or do you want me to continue what we’re doing last night?” the guy added as he looked at Shawn’s bottom.

He automatically looked below his belly. He froze when he realized that he was on his birthday suit and kneeling naked in front of the stranger. The worst part is his shaft is being sensitive and has erected mightily, bragging its dominance in the bed. Damn it!

Shawn immediately moved away and pulled the blanket from the guy. Suddenly, after he had secured his bottom, his eyes widened again as the guy’s erected shaft became visible. The blanket was removed from his lower body as Shawn pulled it from him.

“Fvck!” Shawn protested. “Why are you inside my room? How did you get here?!”

The guy shrugged his shoulders and was still relaxed after seeing Shawn burst in anger. “You told me to drive you home to this place, so I did. Didn’t you remember?”

“W-what did you just say?” Shawn froze in his position when a memory suddenly flashed on his mind…

The moment Shawn collapsed to the ground, a stranger came in and caught him in mid-air. His eyes were glued to his pair of dark brown eyes. He was tempted to touch his skin but suddenly he passed out. At the time he woke up again, he heard himself talking and telling about his personal information. He was too engrossed at the fact someone was asking him for his name and his address so that he’ll get home safely. He was aware that he didn’t know the stranger’s name, nor was he a familiar person to Shawn. He just felt so weak and dizzy at that moment that he just wanted to get home as soon as possible.

After such a long ride, Shawn was too dizzy. All the lights he could see were dancing in his sight. All of his food intakes were rumbling inside his stomach. He would attempt to stop himself from throwing up but his dizziness doubled his uneasiness. His head would instantly fall on the guy’s shoulder but he was never stopped for that mistake. Shawn was too busy thinking about his drunkenness. He could still see the familiar street where his place was at. The guy attended to him and helped him walk inside his house.

Shawn was still instructing the guy where his room was until they got there. When he was laid to bed and saw the guy about to exit his room, he suddenly stood up and walked towards him.

“Who told you to open that door, huh?” Shawn asked in his dreamy and husky voice.

The stranger froze in his place as his hand stopped in mid-air.

Shawn couldn’t take it anymore. The sensation building up inside of him became too vivid. He roughly held the stranger’s shoulder and made him turn to him. As soon as he saw how his adam’s apple moved, his bulge ached at the sight and instantly grabbed the stranger by his neck and pulled towards him. He closed the gap between their faces and kissed him hungrily as if it was Neil whom he was kissing…

Shawn harshly closed his eyes at that memory. Damn it! How could I be so weak? Just because I’m broken-hearted, I’ll just sleep with random guys I meet in a bar? Fvck it!

“Do you remember now?” the guy asked as he used the other pillow to cover his nakedness. He was still relaxed as though he was not bothered by the fact that he and Shawn did that thing without any inhibitions.

“Look… there must be some kind of mistake…” Shawn started. “This is a mistake. O-or… I don’t believe this just happened between you and me…”

“Hey! That literally hurts, you know that?” the guy said as he grimaced. He stood up, still covering his manhood with a pillow, and was about to approach Shawn. “Do you want me to recap all that happened last night?”

“No!” Shawn abruptly refused. “No. You should go get changed and get the hell out of here. Fvck!” he cursed as he saw how the stranger removed the pillow and bravely showed his erected shaft. He immediately looked away and balled his fist. He wanted to scold himself while he felt his own bulge reacted to that view earlier.

He heard the stranger laugh at his reaction. “You know what? That face will be a lot cuter when I see you moan. Hmm… you’re not a bad top yourself!” he seductively complimented while biting his lower lip.

With that, Shawn couldn’t stop himself from imagining how they spent the night while he’s on top of this stranger. He was even amused at him. But, as he thought of it, not all good-looking guys like the one in front of him could be as optimistic in sleeping with guys as he is.

So, this guy is into guys, too?

Shawn shook his head again. No. He should stop himself from overthinking about this insanity. He should not let this happen. The guy might get the wrong idea. He looked at the stranger again with his stern and serious look. “I want you to get out of here now.”

“Huh?”

“I said now!” Shawn snapped. He saw how the stranger flinched at his loud voice.

The stranger grimaced. “That’s disappointing. We’re not even in a relationship but I’m being dumped right away.”

“Just stop talking and put some clothes on!”

The blonde guy just laughed at him as he picked up his pants, brief and shirt on the floor. That was when Shawn completely saw the whole picture of his room. His clothes were all over the place. He gulped at the sight. Was he that wild last night that it had to be like this when he woke up?

The stranger has removed the pillow that covered his manhood. Shawn was shocked again. “Well… do you have to look while I put my clothes on?” he asked.

Shawn didn’t bother to answer and just turned around and let the guy put on some clothes.

“You don’t wanna know my name, perhaps?”

“Do I look like I like knowing your name?” Shawn rhetorically asked while looking at the ceiling, spent his time while waiting for the guy to cover all his nakedness.

He heard the guy laugh. “So, stern. Okay, it’s fine if you’re not interested in my name. You’ll soon be one day…” After a second, the guy told him that he’s finished covering his body.

Shawn turned to the guy again. “Get out and never ever bother me, you understand? You, stop pestering me!” he vehemently said with authority.

The guy shrugged and made a very serious face as he looked at Shawn. “Wish will be granted. But I still believe we’ll meet again and make another paradise…” He winked at him and exited the door.

That alone left Shawn contemplating. He sighed as soon as he heard the footsteps away from the door. He hand-combed his hair and exasperatedly sighed. What has gotten into him? Why did he mistake that guy from Neil?

That thought never left his mind as he let the water shower down his back. His hands were flat on the wall of his shower room. He wanted to remove all that lingers in his body including that stranger’s traces. But, no matter how he tries to erase them in his body, the thought of his sweet and expert lips still lingers in his mind.

He wanted to punch himself for being an i***t. He promised himself not to touch anyone after Neil. Although he accepted a long time ago that Neil chose to be with Russel, his feeling was still there. He could never betray his emotions towards him, anyway. He could not even lie to himself. The fact that he’s still into Neil, it’s taking its toll on him as years pass by. No matter how he reminds himself of forgetting him, he still couldn’t. He’s still aching to that day he knows it’s all over.

That pain made him stop looking at other guys. He just wants Neil all for himself. Sleeping with someone other than Neil was something he couldn’t take. He wanted to erase that night he became so weak with someone.

As Shawn stood up straight in front of the flowing shower, a decision was made inside his mind. He decided to forget that night he spent with a stranger. He decided to put it out of his and move on, even if it’s too difficult to forget such a wild night he was with that blonde guy.