I remained on my bed, curled up in a fetal position, unable to feel anything. There was no rage, jealousy, or feelings of low confidence. I was just tired. I was tired of feeling every negative feeling.
I realized that feelings could be exhausting— the negatives in particular because why did I feel like a bag of rocks had been tied around my neck while I got dumped into the deepest parts of the ocean's trench, sinking and unable to move my body? It weighed down on me and there was nothing I wanted more than to get rid of this feeling.
Not even the mental mantra of reminding myself that Eldrion had been under a spell worked. I'd tried to be logical several times in a row but it didn't seem to work.
Naturally, I'd have gone to sleep after an exhaustingly odd day but sleep evaded me, not e
