TAMING THE UNFAITHFUL BILLIONAIRE

16. LET US HAVE FUN! LET US LIVE LIFE!!!

CHERYL’S POV

I cried myself to sleep. My sister gave me a pep talk that this will be over soon and I hoped that what she was saying would be true. I didn’t want to feel like this. I felt bad and I didn’t like it. I wanted my life to go back to the way it was before.

Rose come later and woke me up. It was around 10:00pm in the night. She had cooked supper and she wanted me to eat something. She didn’t want me to sleep on an empty stomach.

I forced myself to eat but I did not eat much. I didn’t have appetite. I was feeling bad and I was not in a mood to function normally. I was not my normal self.

After eating, I recalled what happened between Jason and me and so cried once again. I wanted to sleep but I recalled that I still have the locked movie and almost all his pictures stuck in the walls of my room.

In anger, I got out of the bed. I started pulling down all the photos that I had of him in my room. I grabbed them and trashed them. All this made me feel tired and weary. I can’t believe that I had wasted all my life thinking about something that is not true. Gael is not the man I thought he was and also, this movies are just scripts, written by someone. It makes the world look good and perfect but in real sense, the world is cruel. The people in it are even worse.

I recalled I had the locked movie in my flash disc. I took my blue flash disc and smashed it in the wall. It broke to tiny pieces. I think Rose heard me screaming when she threw the flash and that is why she come to check on me in my room.

“Calm down,” She instructed. I was huffing and puffing when she come in.

“Mum will be home soon, I don’t want her to know that you are not okay,” Rose advised me and I knew for sure that she was right. My mother is so stressed to bring us something to eat and I didn’t want her to stress her even more now that I am heartbroken because of my carelessness.

“Okay, I am calm,” I told her and she nodded.

“Everything will be fine,” She assured me before she walked out of the room.

As soon as she left, all the memories of finding Jason with the two girls filled my mind and I was sad. I know that stalking him would hurt me more but I could not control the urge to stalk him.

There he was, looking handsome. He was handsome, that I can’t lie. He had posted an i********: story with a bunch of girls. I confirmed his location and I found out that he was in Las Vegas. He didn’t lie when he said that he was going to leave town with his friends.

The sad and shameful part is that, he is having fun over there while I am right here losing my mind.

More fresh tears stared streaming from my eyes. I didn’t want to cry out loud because my mother was home by now and I didn’t want to stress her.

I tried sleeping but I couldn’t sleep. Therefore, I took out my pink diary and my colored glitter pens that I had been hiding under my bed.

I needed to write something and maybe, I would feel better after that.

Dear Diary,

It is long since we talked

Actually, so many things have happened to me before we last talked and now

First, I broke my virginity to the wrong person

Jason, Jason Styles, aka Gael used me and dumped me

All this makes me sad

I wish that I had the power to make all this pain go away

I don’t want to be the type of person who feels like this

I hope for better days but right now

Right now I see an impenetrate able darkness in front of me

I am struggling to be sane

But I am losing it

I am losing my mind

I don’t know the only way out

But I am searching

I am still searching…

Yours,

Cheryl.

After writing this, I felt empty. My heart felt really empty. I cried once again before I placed the diary away and went back to bed. I tossed an turn but in the end, I was able to sleep.

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THE NEXT MORNING

My alarm shrieked at around 7:15am in the morning. I woke up and stifled a yawn. I got off my bed and went to the mirror to check myself out. I had dark circles under my swollen eyes.

Seeing my eyes like that made me feel bad. I don’t know what I did to deserve what is happening to me right now. All this pain I am feeling just because of one simple mistake.

I had to go to school. The last thing I wanted is for my mum to be alarmed about all this. I had to gather some courage and survive my day in school.

I hit the bathroom and after that, I applied some lotion to my body. I didn’t think much about what to wear. I was back to being the hoddie and jeans type of girl.

I grabbed my bag before I descended downstairs.

Rose had packed some food for me. I picked it and rushed out. We didn’t want for my mother to find out that I had been crying. We had an excuse that I was rushing to revise before I sit or my cat later in the day.

I was about to take a bus to school when Nate call me. What the heck is he doing in my neighborhood? I gasped.

He was on his car when he called me and he asked me to join him. I didn’t want to argue, besides, I wanted to talk to him about something. Therefore, I happily went and sat on the co-driver’s seat, just beside him.

“I am sorry about yesterday.” He apologized for no apparent reason.

“I don’t know why you are apologizing,” I told him.

“I am the one with the mistake, I am the one who should apologize to you,” I added.

“I don’t want to lose you Cheryl,” He mumbled.

“I don’t want to lose you too Nathan, I love you Nate,” I mean, what other choice do I have. He is the only one who is left to stick by my side. Jason dumped me.

“Really?” He asked me as we parked in the school parking lot.

“Yes, I love you and I truly care about you,”

“I love you too Cheryl,” He said this and wanted to lean in to kiss me but I stopped him.

“Is everything alright?” He asked me.

“I have to tell you this Nathan, I don’t want to lie to you,” I started off.

“Tell me what?” He asked.

“I wanted to ask you or forgiveness. I kissed Jason before we did kiss. I am sorry for kissing someone else,” I said the truth, but not all of it.

“I am happy that you are honest with me, besides, the fault is mine, I should have kissed you earlier,” He told me this and I knew that he had forgiven me.

“Nathan, I want us to be different now. Let us have s*x tonight, let us try some drugs, let us be like normal teenagers, and let us party till dawn. In short, let us have fun. We only live once. Are you with me on this?” My finger were crossed as I asked him of this.