Behind the Scenes

E: Trust

Jake Carter

Two Weeks Ago

I sat in the dark room filled with people and music as I downed my third shot of whiskey. I gave up hope of seeing her for a while now. I knew it was a slim chance when Kim started coming by the house to pick up and drop off Zach. She wouldn't pick up my phone call or answer my messages. She was my wife. How are we supposed to live like this?

She laughed at something Sara said and I missed seeing that smile.

"Another shot?" The bartender asked.

"Umm," I rubbed my face and sighed. It was my night to watch Zach so I knew she was coming out. I asked Jason to come over and supervise so I could come out and see her after so long. I have no idea where she was staying and I wanted to allow her space.

Kimberly looked over at the bar and I hid my face. The bartender looked over at the table and then looked down at me.

"Are you hiding?" He wondered.

"Yeah," I sighed. "My wife."

"Kimberly?" he almost sounded spooked as if he couldn't believe it or he was getting ready to hit me.

"No, that's my sister." I shook my head before looking at him. "I shouldn't be surprised you know her name but how do you know Kim?"

He stretched his hand to me and I took it. "Alex. We ar-" I stopped him from going any further.

"I know who you are. I'm Jake." I smiled. Kimberly couldn't stop talking about him. I've never seen her like this before. She was whom I prayed she'd grow up to be. In a short few weeks, she matured.

He smiled as he looked over at her again. "She likes to check up on me."

"Yeah, I know the feeling." Since Elizabeth hasn't been home, Kim stops by whenever she can, making sure Zach was okay and that I haven't started drinking again.

I stared down at the empty shot glass and picked it up. Alex immediately filled it and then left the almost empty bottle beside me on the counter.

"I know," he muttered before he left.

He must be referring to the divorce talk I've been hearing for the past two days. For months now Elizabeth has been acting weird, and then she sprung the underwear on me and left. I thought it was just something she had to think about and clear her head. But then Kimberly accidently mentioned the divorce a few nights back and I came here tonight to see her and talk. But just looking at her made me want to just go home and sleep. I missed her.

I filled my glass and took another shot before slipping on my jacket.

"Leaving already?"

I didn't turn but slid the bottle of liquor to her.

"I'm not into drinking that much anymore." Kim refused. I turned to her with my tired eyes and shook my head. "What are you doing here?"

"I came to see her." I sighed

"Then come over."

I shook my head and refused. "She doesn't want to see me. I don't want to push her into doing anything."

"I didn't mean to say anything about the divorce." She apologized once more.

"If she want's a divorce then... she knows where to find me."

"You know she wouldn't do that. She needs you as much as you need her."

"Well we don't have a prenup so..."

"I know the only reason you're talking like this is because you drank tonight."

"Yeah," I sighed rubbing my face. "Don't tell her I was here."

"Are you driving back?" She worried.

"I took a cab." I kissed her forehead before heading out into the night.

Jake Carter

Present Day

I turned over in bed as I groaned from the sudden hit of light. I wasn't planning on waking up early today. Kimberly moved in two days ago and has been a tremendous help with Zach but a complete pain in my ass. I have no idea where she learned to cook but she would make something for me to eat before she allowed me to drink.

"Sorry," She mumbled.

I thought I was still asleep. The sound of her voice was something I thought I would never hear again. I almost looked forward to a divorce just to be in the same room with her longer than ten minutes. I sat up and rubbed my eyes before opening it.

"I really need a few things for today." she smiled as if she didn't break my heart and rip me open. I sat on the bed in silence as I watched her add a few things into a plastic bag. "Why are you still sleeping anyways?"

She was speaking to me?

"Where have you been?" I groaned.

"What?"

"You're still my wife," I responded. I stood up and walked to the washroom as I felt tears rolling down. How could I love a woman so hard that I wanted to kiss her and argue with her at the same time? I washed my face as I tried to calm down. I didn't know how to bring her back in and not push her away. I was lost and frustrated. I didn't know what I was going to do without her. Zach was starting to ask questions that I didn't know how to answer but then he would come back from spending days with her and he wouldn't ask the same questions anymore. I didn't know what she told him.

How was I in the position of losing my family after something so stupid?

"I needed time to think." she responded.

"And you came to divorce." I couldn't stop the tears at this point. I was hurting and I didn't know how to get better from this point. I love her. I will always love her.

"What?"

"Is that all you can say? What?" I slammed my hand on the wall, my frustration building. All I wanted to do was to take her to bed. Her hair was pilled up on top of her head and her jeans hung to her hips perfectly. Her white shirt emphasized her cleavage because she tucked it into the jeans under her jean jacket. She was the mother of my child and my wife. I wouldn't survive this.

"Who told you that?" She rephrased, still confident. I was the only one falling apart.

"Was it a secret? Where you just going to spring it on me?"

"No, I was going to talk to you about it."

"Okay then talk."

She remained quiet as she stared at me through her beautiful eyes.

"Talk." I roared, causing her to jump.

"What-" she froze.

I was on the verge of breaking until Kimberly entered the room. "Why are y'all arguing?"

"Did you tell him we're getting a divorce?" Elizabeth asked.

She sighed. "I accidently said something."

"It doesn't even matter. You've already taken everything." I mumbled honestly. If she left me nothing else mattered.

"I'm not taking anything. It's a happy day. I'm happy." Elizabeth smiled walking over to me. When her fingers touched my cheek, my eyes closed instinctively.

"I love you." I muttered before realizing it.

She breathed. "You said you haven't done anything and I'll believe you."

My eye opened and more tears rolled down my face. I knew it must have taken a lot for her to believe me and I was beyond grateful.

"Why have you guys been fighting?" Kim asked.

"She found an underwear in my office." I muttered.

The room was silent as I stared down at my wife, thanking God she was still in my arms.

"Was it green?" Kim mumbled.

We turned our head to stare at her. Before we could speak, she continued.

"Okay so Shawn showed up that night and he wouldn't leave. I have no idea how we ended up in your office but we did and things got out of hand." She explained. "I went to look for it the next morning but I couldn't find it and then Jason showed up and everything just went wild."

I shook my head at her but before I could react, Elizabeth's lips were on mine in a rush. Her legs were wrapped around my waist and her body was moving frantically.

"You didn't cheat on me," she cried completely in tears and relief.

"How could I cheat on perfection?" I muttered against her lips, happy I was allowed to do this again.

"I should have trusted you from the beginning." she muttered.

"Baby, I didn't even believe I didn't do it." I told her honestly. I had no way of getting out of it even if I knew I didn't do it. I just prayed everything would work out. "I know how much it would hurt you to be cheated on again. I would never want to see you in such pain."

"But I put you through it."

"And you ended up forgiving me even when it didn't look good." I told her.

"Guys I'm really sorry this happened. I can't believe this was all been my fault. I'm just an absolute mess." Kim cried. She's been completely miserable since the break up with Alex a few days ago.

"Kim, you asked me so many times what was up. If I told you this would have ended. It happened, we can't undo it. I just want to move on. It's a happy day."

Kim smiled and I kissed Elizabeth thankfully. Making Kim feel worse right now was not a good idea. Lately she's looked like a mess and she wasn't herself. That was one of the reasons I was so happy having her here. She wasn't some happy person telling me to get my s**t together. She was in just as much, if not more, pain than I was, but she still cared enough to be here for me.

"Do you want me to talk to Alex for you?" I asked.

"You know him?" Elizabeth asked.

"They met a while back. It's fine. I don't think it matters." Her face dropped and her eyes glazed as she spoke. "I'm going to get Zach ready to leave."

"I need to take a shower." I realized.

"Can I take it with you?" she whispered quietly. I carried her into the washroom without another word and into the tub. She stripped out of her clothes as I watched in awe and appreciation.

"I love you," she whispered when I rubbed her cheek and stared down at her.

"And I you." I promised.

We bathed each other like we used to every weekend, kissing and massaging each other's skin. Her moaned filled the washroom after I took her out of the shower and ate her on the counter. I missed her sweet juices and her cries. Her wet hair fell against the glass, her legs over my shoulders and her fingers in my hair. I took care of her, making it clear that I missed her. When I slid my way into her, her back arched and her mouth opened. She stared at me in wonder and love.

The look on her face grew hungrier and I picked up my sped. She said nothing, just moaned and whimpered my name. I finished her off in bed as I gripped her neck and pleasured her from behind.

When we finally got dressed, we sat in the chair near the bed and stared at each other. "Years later and you still know how to please me." she bit her lip and smiled.

"It will only get better." I promised.

She smiled and closed her eyes. "I want another baby." She mumbled. My mouth opened but I couldn't hide my smile.

"How are you going to have a baby when I need you to run my new charity?" I asked.

"What?" She mumbled. I smiled, loving that word all over again.

"That's why I've been so secretive and why I've been working late. I made a charity for the corporation. It's funded, structured, and supported. All it needs is a cause, a mission, and a leader. It's my gift to you baby." I kissed her fingers.

Tears ran down her face as if she didn't know what to say. Before I knew it, she was unbuckling my belt and pulling out my weapon.

It was hard the minute she touched it. She pulled her underwear to the side and eased her way over me. She felt like heaven. Her skirt followed her movement as she rode me on the chair, her eyes on mine. It was so quick and unexpected. She missed the feel of me just as much as I missed her walls.

"This is for me," she whispered on my lips before consuming them briefly. She closed her eyes and licked her lips in enjoyment. "Thank you." She whispered.

"Everything I do is for you." I informed her as I groaned in both pain and pleasure. I was still sore from a few minutes ago and the way she was riding and bending it made me want to take over. I was about to stand when she held me down, increasing her pace to keep me planted.

"Like I said, this is for me." she kissed my lips and rounded her hips just the way I like it. "I still want that baby," she taunted. I held her hips steady as I forced myself repeatedly into her. She froze and gasped for air, gripping my shoulders. This was all I needed to be happy, her and my children.