Mafia's Little Rose

THIRTY EIGHT

ROSALIND CABELLO

I feel like I am floating around in a peaceful bubble but someone is trying to pull me away from the bubble I am in. They are also telling me to open my eyes but why do I need to do that? I am feeling content with whatever is happening. I want to sleep for some time because I know the moment I open my eyes, I will see Isadora with Mr. Mikhailov who doesn't even look at my way.

Am I that bad? Can't he love me like the hero of the novels I read? Can't he take care of me like a prince charming? No, nope! He only knows how to yell or how to rudely talk to me. He doesn't care that I feel so bad, so hurtful that sometimes I think about killing myself so that no one has to tolerate me.

Daddy, Aunt, Tiana, and now Mr. Mikhailov too tolerate me because I know for everyone I am just a burden. But I never asked God to make me the way I am. I never asked God to put good people in my life just to make me realize how unfit I am compared to them.