CHAPTER 12
YOU ARE MINE
Warning, there are some words that you guys must be aware of. Again, read at your own risk.
CRAIGE’S POV
I Can’t contain my curiosity right now. I didn’t promise though, so i guess kailangan ko nang sundan si yulliyah kung saan nila balak magusap ng auntie nya. I decided to check on the hallway first since yun ang malapit at nasa babang floor lang.
Nakita ko si yulliyah at aunt jaime na naguusap. Im planning to call yulliyah’s name but the name her auntie said makes me froze on my spot.
“Caspian” I already heard that name from her brother’s name last time when i drive her home.
“ What about him? How did you know him anyway? Did you do a background check on me?” so it’s true? That guy has a connection with her?
“ Just please, listen to me first” I’m confused. Why the hell yulliyah is mad at her auntie? I thought they are in good terms? I decided to eavesdropped to their conversation because im f*****g curious what will happen next.
“ What now? Paano mo nalaman yan“
“ Is that true? C-caspian, anak mo siya?” What The f**k!? She already have a son!? How the hell did that happened? f**k im furious as f**k. Kahit sinong lalaki ganito din mararamdaman lalo na kung nasa ganitong sitwasyon. I was f*****g shocked for god’s sake!
“ Mawalang galang na ho pero Ang kapal din naman ng muka nyo para sabihin yan saken. After what i’ve been through because of you really? Caspian is my son yes. My son from the person who raped be 2 years ago. And that was because of you.” f*****g hell. I really didn’t know what the hell am i doing right now. Seriously?! Sa kanya na mismo nanggaling na may anak na nga siya. f**k. I’m f*****g mad and i can’t contain my anger right now.
“ I-I’m sorry, i- I really do, But, l-listen to me first. I did that because of you, and i know magiging safe ang lagay mo sa kanya”
Nakinig pako sa mga paguusapan nila and no words can describe what am i felling right now. Hurt, sadness, madness, hopeless lahat na f**k.
“ HA, NARIRINIG MOBA ANG SINASABI MO AUNTIE?” You will see the rage in her eyes. She’s really mad and this is the first time that i see that in her eyes.
“ I got raped. i can’t do anything at all. I get pregnant. I am just a nobody auntie kasama ko pa si sean dalawa lang kame, n-ni h-hindi k-ko alam p-pano maging isang i-ina.” I froze on my spot after the confessions she said. Got raped? i didn’t know but my body is trembling from what’s happening right now. I didn’t know that. First she had a son, next she got raped way back. Wait, maybe she got pregnant after she got raped? is that it?
“ I planned it, i planned it para magkita kayo p-pero” hindi na natapos ni auntie jamie yung sasabihin niya dahil inunahan na sya ni yulliyah. Wait, what the f**k!? She planned it? How come?! Is that the main reason why yulliyah is so mad at her?
“ K-kayo? D-did you know the person who r-raped me back then and g-got me p-pregnant?” and i swear. Sa pangalang binigkas ng auntie nya dun palang parang gusto ko nalang maglaho. I didn’t know kung ilang beses nako nagmura sa araw nato but f**k i don’t know how to stop my emotions.
“ Craige. He’s the one who accidentally raped you. He is caspian’s father I’m s-so s-sorry yulliyah. I’m s-sorry s-sorry” she said while crying and sobbing at the same time.
Tangina. So the girl that i raped two years ago and the girl that i secretly loved ay iisa?! Nakakagago. I don’t know kung anong mararamdaman, o kung anong gagawin sa mga oras nato. Para akong binagsakan ng langit at lupa sa mga nalalaman ko.
I Have a son? And she’s the mother of my child? Please, correction accidentaly because god knows that i didn’t want to do that and wala sa plano kong manggahasa ng tao. It’s not my f*****g entirely fault that it happened.
There she is, the loved of my life that i’ve been inlove in my 20 f*****g years of my existence. She didn’t know that i’m here. And the look in her eyes? Hurt, sadness, madness, pain, disgust that i don’t want to named. f**k i also didn’t know. I didn’t know that she’s the girl and we have a son. I f*****g don’t know that. She’s crying for f**k’s sake that’s why i want to go with her. But, hindi kopa nahahakbang ang isang paa ko ng magsalita na siya.
“Don’t come near me, you monster, h-hayop k-ka” And from there to here i’m hurt. Why does it sound so hurtful to my ears? I’m not really fond of her attitude right now
“y-yulliyah, c-craige d-didn’t know, nalaman ko lang din na pinapahanap niya pala sa mga tauhan niya yung abbaeng nag-ga-h-hasa nya that t-time” her auntie said which was f*****g true.
But, yulliyah being yulliyah she didn’t do any movement after she heard what her auntie said. She going to levae us here when i utterly said the name that i’ve been keeping in my mind.
“ Caspian” there. Hindi niya natuloy ang pagalis nya nang marinig niya mismo sa bibig ko ang pangalang matagal ng gumugulo sa isip ko.
She hurriedly looked at me and her eyes feels like she’s trowing daggers at me
“ Don’t you dare. He doesn’t need you and mostly, i don’t need you, gago mas pipiliin ko nalang na iba ang kalakihang ama ng anak ko kesa sayo.” I honestly don’t know kung anong sumapi saken after she said that words, but one thing is for sure, i will not f*****g allow other f*****g moron guys to fathered my own son.
“ don’t you f*****g dare, woman. You didn’t really know me don’t you? You didn’t f*****g know what i am capable of” hindi ko gustong sindakin siya o ano man but f**k she pushed me to my limit! And i don’t really liked what was she said that’s bullshit.
Bago pa siya makapagsalita, i hurriedly grab her wrist and walked at the hallway to get her in my car.
We. Are. Going. To.talk.
we are both not emotionally unstable so i don’t know what will happen. Knowing myself, i can’t predict my actions. Mostly when i’m mad. I do what i want to do.
“ remember this, i didn’t really know that you are the girl 2years ago. And honestly? You don’t know anything at all aside from the fact that you said that i raped you. The rest, you didn’t know anything so let me state this to you velasco. You are going to be my fiiancee two years ago, and now you are the mother of my son which i didn’t know so behave yourself before i f*****g do things that you will regret.”
“ hayop ka, demonyo,wala ng mas masahol sa kahayupan mo.”
“ What? Demonyo? Oh love, you really wanna see my demonic side don’t you? Just say it properly and i will gladly do what you want. Remember this, you are mine from the start so don’t you dare say that to my handsome face again that you would rather choose other man, because if you do? I swear love, you wil dislike what will i do”