The Legend of Azhakkstadd

CHAPTER LI : THE TRUTH

-Kuzma-

            We were all silently sitting inside the classroom after the Ordo king left for something. I surely understand what he said right from the very start. I personally think that it can help us. In fact, I don’t know a lot about myself either. I only knew those things that I’ve tried and I’ve known.

            But aside from that, I know nothing more. I wanted to know myself too. I wanted to know my strengths to make it stronger, and I wanted to know my weaknesses to overcome it. I wanted to know my fears so that I can face them. I wanted to know my full capabilities.

            I’ve known myself since I started to gain consciousness upon myself and upon the world around me. I always lived knowing what I only know about this world. I’m getting curious. I wanted to know more ahahaha our discussion for today really made me use my mind intensely, which I usually don’t ahahaha.

            What if I’m something or someone else aside from being a Trueno who’s been chosen to defend our world. What does the future holds for me? I wonder what things that I still don’t know of. What if the world we’re living the way it is, is really what it is… or what if those things we believe aren’t what we should believe?

            Oh my gosh, I’m getting severe ahahaha the Ordo king just told us to know more about ourselves yet I kept on thinking about our whole world. Screw this mind.

            I looked at everyone who are still sitting on their chair. It seems like none of us wanted to took, not to move. I think they’re also doing what I’m doing. I focused myself again and closed my eyes slowly. There is only way to fully understand myself. That is, of course to think ahahahaha.

            I took a deep breath to calm myself more and to feel much comfort as I sat properly. I laid myself back in such pleasure as I ensured that I'd be more relaxed so that I can think properly, deeply, and widely.

            I already thought about it. Back in our school, we also went through this process of knowing ourselves as a Trueno. Aside from that, I never had a serious discussion about knowing myself or whatever that relates to it. Not until now, but the difference is, right now, we have to know ourselves more as an Azhakk, as a whole person and so on.

            This is my first time where I have to think further and to discover things further about myself. Not just to understand why I have to train and to be strong but to know why I was born, why did I have to exist, how should I exist, and how do I make my existence significant.

            Before, I have to understand why I have to train and to use my power. I have to know why I have to learn things about me and those around me so I could get along with it. But right now, I have to understand why I have to be strong enough so that I could use myself as an instrument for peace and orderliness.

            I have to know why these things need to be learned and not just to get along with them but to use them to be able to grow or either them to use you for a better change. Right now, it’s not just being the best or the strongest among the students. It’s not about everyone praising you for your exceptional skills.

            It’s all about being strong at the same time, smart and empathic. It’s about being able to think of ways to use you full capabilities to help yourself and others in times of crisis. It’s about thinking for everyone else’s safety. How would I do that? How will I be able to be like that when I grew up always after for the approval of everyone?

            I should have realized that before… I should have realized that it’s not about yourself being on top so that everyone would like you so all you do is to pull everything into your show. It’s about being yourself no matter what people may think about you or whatever people might say about you. Being yourself automatically brings you to your own success and satisfaction.

            “Come here, Kuzma, we need to talk to you” I heard a voice inside my head while I am in a deep thinking “Don’t freak out, it’s me, the Ordo king” he added… he really sounded like the Ordo king, but how is he doing that? “Telepathy” he answered in my mind. That was shocking ahahaha

            I quickly stood up and slowly walked towards the door. I made sure that I wasn’t so noisy to disturb everyone with what they are doing. I made sure that my steps are light, yet most of them gave me their attention and looked at me as I walk. “Bring your sister with you” he suddenly spoke that made me stop

            I turned my head towards Kurezma that is also looking at me. I signaled her to stand up and come with me, yet she just gave me a questioning look as an answer. I shrugged as I mouther the words ‘I don’t know’ that made her stand up. I quickly grabbed her and continued walking to get of this room.

            Where are we going anyway? I asked trying to connect with the Ordo king “My office, from the main lobby, go to the center hallway… continue walking until you reach the last door… that’s it” he answered my question quickly…

            “Why is it?” Kurezma asked as we just walked. I let go of her hand and faced her as I started to speak telling her the reason that I don't understand either 

            “I don’t know” I answered her sticking my lower lip out “The Ordo king just called me… I don’t really know” I continued yet I didn’t stop walking

            “Odd” he commented after I spoke and after that, we silently proceeded to the Ordo king’s office. Without a word, we knocked at the door and quickly opened then immediately entered.

            “Where here” I said the moment we opened the door. I got shocked when I saw the Trueno Chieftain sitting along with the Sioga king inside. There were also people that I don’t know.

            “Take a seat” the Ordo king said motioning his hand to the empty seat near his table. We both walked near it. I looked at the people around us before I sat myself.

            “So what’s up? Why did you invite us here? And who are they?” I asked as we both sat down. I looked at the people sitting opposite our side where our chieftain and the Sioga king also sat.

            “They’re from my counselors, and the Ordo’s too” the Sioga king took his time to answer and smiled at me…

            “And I am the Vand Lord, from the Water Territory… if you… If you don’t know” the one in emerald green clothing spoke, he already seated himself next to the Sioga king, so might as well, yea… he is.

            “We just want to ask you… about something” the Ordo king initiated as he also sat himself to his chair getting himself ready for the discussion that we are starting

            “About what?” I asked silently as I suddenly got nervous… I don’t know what I felt… it’s… I don’t know

            “Who are your parents?” he asked all of a sudden with something in his eyes… I don’t know what. I felt Kurezma gasped silently with his question… I suddenly felt uncomfortable…

            “M-my mother is Sindre… she died when I was young—when we were young” I slowly answered, I noticed the Sioga king gasped as if he knew something while the Trueno chieftain just looked so confused “My father… he died when I wasn’t born yet…so I never get to know him”

             “Sindre…?” the Sioga king interrupted as his face turned red, I don’t know why… I just nodded as a response “Did she tell you something about your father?” he asked again

            “I can’t clearly remember… she said that he was a noble… and a loving man who’s… who’s willing to sacrifice everything…” I paused “Everything for the sake of others…” I added

            “Why did she die anyway?” the Trueno chieftain asked as he cut himself in

            “She died several years after giving birth to me… I was like… four or five at that time” Kurezma answered for me, her voice was so weak implying that she’s hurt with that… she really misses our mother…

            “I remember that…” the Trueno chieftain interrupted… yeah, I remember him visiting as he blessed my mother’s soul for a peaceful journey

            “Who’s your father?” the Ordo king asked and turned their attentions to Kurezma… gosh… no… I did not expect to tell her in this situation…

            “Same with my brother… I didn’t get to know him” she answered that made me bow down… I’m sure they’ll turn to me and start to ask me about her father… gosh, I promised mom not to tell everyone about that secret…

            “Who’s her father? Did your mother had someone after your father?” the Ordo king asked me turning their heads to me… I knew it

            “I don’t really know… please don’t ask me” I said… “Why are you asking us about this right now?” I said with a tone of suspicion and looked at the tribe leaders intently with a questioning look on my face

            “Because… because I’m your father… Kuzma…” the Sioga king answered cracking his voice yet he didn’t cry at all… no tears… but what did he just say?

            Everyone in this room gasped after hearing those words. Except the Vand Lord and the Ordo King. Even our chieftain was shocked as if he really has no idea about where this conversation is going.

            “W-what?” I stuttered asking him to clarify himself “What did you say? Are you trying to play tricks on me?” I asked him and shifted gazes towards everyone, yet they all seem clueless at all. I don’t know what they are all thinking. I don’t even know what am I feeling right now. I get so weak when the topic turns into our parents.

            “I’m your father… you are my son” he said as he stood up and walked towards me

            “W-what?... why? What are y…?” I asked again… I don’t know what to say… I just looked at him waiting for him to tell the truth. My face felt so hot and my eyes are starting to get heavy. I don’t know what Kurezma could say about this, I can’t look at her, nor everyone.