I Knew I'd Love You

Runaway

i want to run away

when it's getting harder,

and becomes more unbearable.

i want to run away

every morning i open my eyes,

i feel like a sinner,

whose waiting for its death sentence.

i wish for a long, long, and long night,

so i don't have to face another day.

my heart is thumping so hard,

my fingertips become so cold,

my breath slowly become shallow,

anxiousness is eating me out,

afraid of what's waiting me tomorrow.

try to close my eyes tight,

then deep down in my heart,

i wish i don't have to open it ever again.

i am freaking scared,

even the tiniest sound around me,

makes me jumpy all over places.

"what a selfish person,"

"how ungrateful you are,"

no one's ever told me that,

but strangely,

those words keeps resonating in my head.

what a pathetic person.

i can hear the sounds of a spoon dropping to the floor,

i can hear the sounds of that little boy running freely and happily very well,

but weirdly,

i cannot the sounds from myself.

why?

what is wrong with me?

i want to run away,

far away,

to the vast land where i can be alone.