08 October 2005 the day when the earthquake come android change everything in just one second.The biggest reason my parents left our beloved house just for safety reasons and move to an other city just to keep their children safe. about 1year later we have a new member in our house every one was happy. The new member bring many happiness and the new member was me 'zxien'. my parents give me the name because they thought I was the one who's the reason of all the hapiness. I live my life with my mom dad 2 sisters and 1 brother very happily . Everything was going fine until one day the internet blows up with the news that doctors discover a virus name 'covid 19' . the same day I graduated from my middle school and it was time to go to high school and start a new journey. zxien :Naina(to her best friend) do you hear the news about the virus that is currently everywhere on internet Naina:I have but i think that just an nonesen i don't believe in things like that. zxien : whatever it's the last day of our school promise me you are going to be with me forever Naina: promise. but why are you saying that today?is there something in your mind? zxien : nothing i just want to make sure that you will never leave me even if you find someone new... Naina:that can never happen it's been 8 year since we are toghter zxien: yeah it is but i don't wanna lose you in my life Naina: come-on just tell me. did something happen to you? why are you like this today (bell rings) zxien: oh! it's time to leave I will see you soon.bye bye Naina but i was asking you something. zxien: bye bye I'll see you soon Naina: bye. (whisperes) she's definitely out of her mind (every one goes to their house) (at dinner table) zxien's dad: did you guys hear about the virus its getting more serious zxien's mom:there is nothing like this that is just an rumer how can you guys believe on it Sia: I think that's an serious matter zxien don't you think so zxien: I do but no one is going to believe me Natalia: can you guys stop talking about all that stuff I didn't came here to listen all that zxien : ok let's change the topic it just giving me anxiety Sia: ok Natalia tell us about your in law's are you happy with them Natalia: absolutely I am it's been 5 year since my wedding why are guys asking me that now? zxien: we are just making sure that you remember every thing or not (every one start laughing) Sia : we are just teasing you zxien: I miss dude(ranz) so much we all are here but he is there(Canada) all alone Natalia: yes it's been so long seens we all meet him Sia: yes Zxien:I really wana meet him Sia:me to (news starting playing) it is going to be lockdown in our country bcz of COVID and school college and offices are closed no one can go outside the country zxien:huh! we can't go anywhere dad: yes that's what they're saying zxien : but I don't want to just stay in my room for a long time Dad: why don't we go back to our village its a great chance for you guys to see yours Old house zxien: that's an awesome idea Dad: tomorrow we are leaving for village make sure that all of you are done with your packing and wake up early in the morning NEXT MORNING zxien:I think it's the time to wake up now but i don't know what i am going to do there zxien : sia wake up we are getting late Sia: give me one minute more please zxien getting ready and going outside zxien: dad I am ready Dad: where is everyone zxien: they are getting ready zxien sits in the car after some time everyone come and they leave for their old house everyone taking pictures but zxien looking outside the window after a long drive they arrive aunt: welcome everyone zxien: thank you aunt:oh zxien you grow up so well zxien:thank you every one go to their aunt house for some refreshments meanwhile zxien with her cousin (ayla) ayla:it a long time since I meet you zxien:yeah it was but i really miss you guys soo much ayla: you guys are here for a long time if I am not wrong . zxien : yeah we are just like that we spend more than five months there in nature and when we come back it was still lockdown . during the pandemic I slowly start losing my confidence and my anxiety become more serious meanwhile I have to start my high school I use to have online classes at home and one day government announce that school college and offices are going to be open from the beginning of March. march 1 the first day of school i though It was going to be fine and obviously it was until they month of march end because the one thing i was always scared of loosing I lose in that situation the person who promise me that she will never leave me no matter what happens but i think she was lying to me but I lost Naina from my life she betrayed me like 8 years friend ship was nothing to her she started ignoring me because she find a new best friend and i start having more serious mental breakdown and have social anxiety that means I hate my self and think others do the same.I think she's just an lesson to me