Why do I never learn?
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I let someone new in.
I wanted to take a chance.
I wanted to feel something again.
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For a moment there,
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I thought I had it.
I thought it was something new.
I thought it would be different.
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I thought wrong.
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It felt true.
It felt real.
It felt good.
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But that was it.
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Why did I believe it?
Why did I hope for it?
Why did I want it?
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For the first time, I was the one receiving.
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I wasn't the one giving.
I wasn't the one surrendering.
I wasn't the one chasing.
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But now, you've pulled away.
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And I am here, wishing.
And I am here, hoping.
And I am here, hurting.
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You shouldn't have been here.
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I shouldn't have let you.
I shouldn't have allowed it.
I shouldn't have d
