you are mine

There's still ten minutes left for the break to end but still Aaron is not showing up. he doesn't show up the entire break where we usually used to meet, yeah this is a secret spot we discovered to spent our time together!! so i left 2 mins before the bell rang. stepping into my class with his thoughts... 'Ahhhh..!!' I yelled cause something hit my shoulder so hard. then Mary came to me and asked whether am ok or its hurting much while rubbing the shoulder where I got hit. 'mary it's ok it'll get better it doesn't hurt much!' I said to her even though it hurts. then Ryan came towards me and scolded 'why can't you see around and walk?? always thinking about something!!' I was really triggered by his words and the thoughts about Aaron just added on my anger .I glanced at him and asked ' what the hell are you talking? I just got hurt by something ,you as my bestfriend don't even care about that and all you do is hurting me with your words !!' with my sad expression all over my face which I tried to mask it off in front of everyone. though I didn't cry Ryan seems to be concerned about my words because he knows me well. he might have guessed that something isn't right with me, he also knows I don't get worked up with these kind of words and situation.then I moved to my seat and was just looking at the blank board. Ryan came to me and gave me water to drink but I said I don't want because I don't feel thirsty. he then asked ' are you ok?' with a concerned voice. ' yeah am good! go and play with your friends and hurt everyone! ' I said. I know it's harsh but still I can't help it. he hurted me with the ball while he was playing with his friends, he didn't bother to say sorry instead he further hurted me with his words.even now he isn't ready to ask a sorry for what he had done and he's just asking me if am ok as if he's concerned and worried about me.. the bell rang! 'i want to talk to you. wait near the stationery shop after the school ' he said and moved to his seat which is few benches beside me. Aaron entered the class calmly and he didn't even have an eye on me. physics sir entered the class after Aaron though my eyes are laid on Aaron and my thoughts were all about him. after a few minutes I decided not to think about him and listen the class. the class was about rotatory motions, at first the class seemed to be interesting then I felt difficult to listen the class. then again I started to think about why he didn't show up at our usual place. he hasn't failed to meet me every time we planned. even if he can't make up he would inform me in advance, this is the first time he didn't even say anything and he seemed to be not worried about me waiting there. if this was a normal meet up I wouldn't be concerned this much. we had an argument last night, both us were pissed and words were getting harsh between us and i didn't think that it would be appropriate for us to discuss or argue it over text messages, so i suggested to meet up and discuss it in person. he also agreed to it . he didn't even say good night last night and i didn't care about it at that time, but it's bothering me now. the little things like good night, his absence, his ignorance added up and it seems bigger which I can't ignore or slide away. then my heart believed that there might be some reason for him for not showing up. he might have encountered a problem or work on his way to meet me. at the same time my brain says even if he had unavoidable circumstances atleast he should've noticed me or made an eye contact to say that he's sorry for standing me up, after entering the class. but he didn't even see me or look in my direction rather he seemed pretty happy despite our fight last night. the remaining class went over with lots of reasons and questions of what is wrong with him and with me. then I calmed myself saying ' whatever it might be let's clear it after the class'.this is our last class, I can't able to hold my questions for long cause it's just running in my head and i can't able to think straight. few minutes later the bell rang and the class ends everyone packing their things fast and hurrying to their home!! while I was just staring at Aaron and Anusha. yes I planned to clear all my worries and doubts after the class, but when I was about to call him Anusha interrupted me and asked ' I want to talk to Aaron. could you please wait untill I finish!'. 'yeah. it's ok' I replied genuinely. I don't have any idea what she and Aaron are talking cause i moved to my place to pack my things. moreover I just don't want him to get the idea that i don't have anything to do rather than dealing with him!! she took a lot of time and there's no one in the class except the three of us and am just staring at them and waiting for them to finish!! Anusha winked at him and he just blushed!!! holy crap!!! I just don't know what the hell is going on. I rushed to them and directly faced Aaron and said " I need to talk to you. can I know how long are you two going to chit chat? because I have plans and if it's going to take more than 5 minutes, we can talk later". Then Aaron explained that they weren't chit chatting but they were discussing something about maths quiz. then he paused for a moment and turned towards Anusha and said " we could discuss it later we still have time for that" "ok then! let's discuss it later, am also running late for my extra classes. bye sweety!" she said and left the class.