Mark's meeting wrapped up, I walk into his office and he looks at me, I know that he is expecting me to be in his office now. I hold my serious stare on him, while he keeps his glare on me. I look down at my work, and I place my head in my hand on the desk. I refuse to go inside of his office. He doesn't want me to leave this company, so I will do it anyway. Nothing he says or does will stop me this time.
"Gray" I hear his voice, I look at him, standing by my desk with an amused smile on his face "My office, please" My eyes widen, he said 'please' which he never says to me.
"I have work to complete" I tell him.
"This won't take that long" he says, with pleading in his eyes.
"Fine" I sigh, I get up from my seat and I follow him to his office. He stands by his door making sure that I am going into his office. That damn scent is so delicious. I can feel his eyes burn into me as I walk towards his desk. But then I hear the door close, followed by a click as if he has locked the door. I look his way, he is walking towards his desk, and I take a seat as he sits down too.
"I still don't want you to leave" he says "After the kiss, I tried to push you away, preventing that from happening again. I deliberately said those mean words, especially the type of assistant that you are, which is a lie on my side. You are the best assistant that I have ever had" he looks guilty. "I'm really sorry, I hope that you can forgive me for that. I hurt you badly and it killed me inside" he says with sadness in his eyes.
I swallow "It won't happen again, because I'm still leaving" I say. He looks crushed. "I can't be here" I say, my voice airy. Just seeing him crushed by my words, is suffocating me, I don't like to hurt people. So I stand up and he joins me too, but then I notice the glass walls of his office is turning from transparent to opaque, I no longer see what is happening through the glass walls.
Mark walks around his desk towards me and I lean against his desk almost sitting on the edge of it. He moves closer to me, keeping his eyes burning into mine as if he wants to devour me. He leans in and sets both of his hands on both sides of me on the desk, he is inches away from me. My lips are parted, I take in a small breath not knowing what is going to happen.
"What do you really want to do?" he asks me and I can feel his breath on my lips. I lick my lips and swallow, my mouth feels dry. Next thing, his lips are crashed against mine, his hand cups the back of my head, and he doesn't give me a chance to catch my breath. When I try to part my mouth for air, he slips his tongue into my mouth. With my eyes closed, I still find this surreal. He pulls away just enough to look at me, still holding me in place, we both are gasping for air "Is this what you want?" he asks, his voice gruff, and then his lips are on mine again, I place my hands against his chest. He pulls away, his thumb moves over my bottom lip "Is this what you want?" he asks me again, which is barely a whisper.
"I do, but I can't. I will be so consumed by you that I might get hurt again" I breathe.
"I told you that I'm sorry, what can I do to make you stay?" he looks straight into my eyes. I admire his eyes, its like a green forest in those eyes, as if I'm lost in a forest, admiring nature. "Answer me" he says softly.
I shake my head "Nothing" I say and he closes his eyes looking crushed, he leans forward with his forehead against mine, breathing heavily. As he wants to kiss me again, the phone rings making me jump. He places a soft kiss on my forehead and he takes the phone from his desk behind me, not leaving my side.
"Yes" he sounds annoyed. "s**t, I will be right there" he says and he puts the phone down. He looks at me again. "I have another meeting, by the time I'm done with it, you will be on your way home already. I will come over to your house tonight" he says.
"I don't think that is a good idea" I say.
"Why not?" he looks disappointed. As I open my mouth to speak, there is a knock on the door. "Dammit" Mark says through gritted teeth as he pulls away from me further. I stand up straight and he takes a couple of files from his desk" Tonight" he says with a serious look and then he leaves.
I walk out of his office and Jackie sees me coming out, giving me a suspicious look. With a non-fraternization policy in place, there will be suspicions and lets not forget that Mark's office is opaque. s**t. That makes it worse. I'm glad that I managed to stand my ground, but tonight he is coming over and I don't think its a good idea, I want to prevent any heartaches especially if my father has to find out. That is something that I'm not even prepared for. So the only thing to do is not to be home tonight. I will make plans with Sam and go somewhere, away from my house and away from Mark's friend's club. I also plan on not showing up to work tomorrow because I think that its still best that I don't work here anymore.
I have to continue to stand my ground with Mark even though its hard and I want him badly, but this is for the best.