My Two Boyfriends

My secret crush

   "Hi, Aunt Kelly... I'm back..!" A cheerful voice reached my ears and I looked back.

After six years, finally, he comes back. He is my buddy, best childhood friend and my secret crush!

Yes, I love him so much... But he has never seen me as a girl... In his eyes, I'm only a boy... Or say, tomboy! I dress up like boys. I fold my hair into my cap. It's hard to believe that I'm a girl. No one knows how my body looks without clothes. I wrap my body like a wrapped box. I don't think my body looks like that of girls who make all boys go crazy.

      And my other side was I beat the s**t out of anyone who tried to bully me or said to become meaningful to me. They stay away from me. And girls become too friendly to me. Because they get two benefits from me. One was that their boyfriend won't flirt with me. And second, they used me to beat those who cheated on them. (their boyfriend of course)

     'Big sis' they always called me. I was always alone and peaceful in my life. But now I'm in a mess because my crush is back. I had big sister Rose and brother Nathan. They won't get alone and always fight, but for me they equally love me. Nathan literally forgot that I'm his sister, he taught me his brother. Well, it's a little hurt knowing that he also denies that I'm a girl. Other hands, Rose knows my feelings for Prince. But she kept her mouth shut because of my request. She always scolds me to act like a girl. 

     How can I act like a girl when I see my sister more beautiful than me? And my brother was a handsome guy in our high school. I feel insecure about how I look. I don't want their friends to laugh at them for having shameful sisters like me. They had a more respectful life than me in school.

   And Nathan had too many girlfriends that he just f**k. He doesn't have a serious relationship with any girls yet. He always said he never met the right girl to fall. So he wasting time with a stupid girl who jumping on his d**k. He and his friends randomly picked girls for s*x. But Nathan never brought any girls to home. He always does it in his car( yes, he got a car from mom last birthday, he shows off everyone) or girls house or friends house. That's why my Mom thoughts he is a good boy(but he is not)

     Anyway, back to my Prince. He is back and I don't want to face him. Not because he found I had crashed on him. My reason is simply that he never comes alone. Yes, he is with his girlfriend. And I'm not sure how do I handle it when I see him with another girl.

     That's why I ran into my room as I saw him walk inside the house. Maybe he is with his girlfriend now in my living room. Showing off their love. He sure forgot about me. Because he never sees me or never looks in my direction. ( it's hurt badly)

     I left him with my brother and went back to my room. I sat back at my study table to focus on my study. But suddenly my door got knocked on three times. I was surprised. 'It's our signature to show who is outside.'

 Does he still remember this?   

      I got up and open the door. Then I see him standing with a devilish smile on his sexy lips. It's him 'Prince'

      "Hey, c**k…" He jumped on me like a monkey. He always does.

      "Oh boy… Are you trying to kill me?" Because of his sudden action, we both fall on the ground and his hug choking me, I can't breathe. I hit his back just like I did when we were children.

      "You deserve it, dummy! Why the heck you never come to meet me in my house huh?" He leaves me jumping on his feet and he forces me to stand up.

      "Uff…" I heat my head in his hard chest. Why is his chest so hard? Did he use the gym too much back there? And he became too tall. I need to look up to see his face.

      "And now that I'm here… To meet you and Nathan… You just ran up to your room? Did you leave me down stories huh? You forgot about me don't you?" He threw questions back and forth to me. He shook me holding my shoulders. Because of that, my head is spinning badly.

      "Ah… Stop now, Prince… Or I'll punk on you…" I said I was trying to stabilize myself.

     He stopped shaking me. It takes me some time to focus on his handsome face. His green eyes sparkled in excitement.

     I feel relief seen him his old self. Suddenly he hugs me again, but this time his arms not crushing me at all. His hug was warm and gentle.

     "I miss u… Dummy!!" He muttered in a low tone.

     "Me too, Bear…" I hug him back resting my head on his chest listening to his heartbeats. (I miss his Bear hug!)

    "You still called me that name?" He chuckles at my words.

    Yes, I give this name to him then he hides my small body behind his big body when mom wants to scold me. Timepass but he is still a big guy for me.

    "Do I need to call you Prince because you are now a big guy?" I pulled back from him to see his face.

     "Hell No! Call me Bear… It suits your mouth." He pulled me back to his hug.

      "Ugh, can you let me go now? I smell your perfume enough…" I said try to pull back. I love to stay in his arms if he is my boyfriend. But my bad luck is that he never even sees me, girl when he hugs me. I don't want him to feel my heartbeat running in the tournament.

     "No. Just stay like this little more. Let me sure that my best friend is close to me." He muttered holding me more close.

     See, he always takes advantage of the 'Best Friend' tag to do whatever he wants. I thought maybe he was changed when he came. But seeing his childlessness, it's proved that he never changes a bit. And somehow I'm not happy with this. Because he does not see my love for him at all if he continues this best friend tag between us. It's not that I was totally sad, I was happy to meet my friend too. But what will you do when your friend turns into your crush? It's not easy for me to pretend that I don't care. 

    After hugging me for more than twenty minutes he realized me and walked to make a quick trip to my room. Well, I like to keep clean my room. And he does not like cleaning at all. His room was the most horrible place to stay. I was the one who kept him and my room clean when we were kids. Maybe he learns some manners there… No, he has not learned at all.

     He picks up our photo on my study table and puts back the changing angel, he messes up my book and project papers and my bedsheets when he finally falls on bed. Laying on the bed he stared at the ceiling quietly. I see a sweet smile on his sexy lips. 

     God! He became a more sexy, and attractive guy. I need to distract myself. So I turned to my study table. But before I got there Prince grab my hand and pulled me back to bed. 

     "Ah…" I close my eyes in fear. But I land on my hard chest and I hear a soft chuckle from him. I open my eyes and look at Prince's face. He kept staring at me.

     "Wow… Your eyes look more beautiful…" He muttered.

     His eyes look down at my lips. I can't help but feel a blush run to my cheeks. I try to get up but he pushes me down in bed and lays down beside me. Looking up.

     "You never change those stars? Did De still sparked?" He pointed to stars on my ceiling. He brought them to me when I wanted to see stars on Rainy days. Because of Rain, it's impossible to see stars in dark clouds. So Prince brought me this stared galaxy and stick to chilling when I need I see stares every night.

      "Yep! Nothing changes here, Bear…" As I say I set up on the bed.

      "Maybe not…" He muttered and sat beside me.

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