To the Moon and Back

                                                                          *Samantha’s POV*                Another sleepless night, a groan escapes my lips. Damn its almost 4AM, Again. I take a moment to ponder my Far too familiar predicament. Calculating exactly how long before Tomorrow starts. If I fall asleep right NOW, I’ll get MAYBE a good solid 3 hours of sleep.  I let a deliriously tired laugh slip out but quickly silence myself. Nervously I Glance over, my eyes landing on their still sleeping forms, I sigh in relief seeing them undisturbed. I would sooner cut off my foot with a dull spoon than wake up these children. I put my laptop away anything unfinished will be finished between classes. A smile creeps across my face as I watch these two beautiful souls that I created.  Their peaceful sleeping faces relax me. Watching them sleeping with not a care in the world fills me with so many emotions.  With so much unconditional love. Which leaves my tired brain towards an exhausted rambled train of thought about love. About how something so beautiful can be so depleting. How it is all consuming, it is an oxymoron. Both beautiful and ugly.  Love is strange and its confusing and sometimes it damn near destroys you.  And it almost did. I was left broken, a shell of myself living only for my kids.  They were the air in my lungs that allowed me to fight. I fought like hell to save myself, to fix myself.  Everyone expected me to fail or quit. But here I am, back in school nearing my goals. I am content. I don’t have to fake anything anymore, I’m happy, and thriving. I’m Not exactly where I wanted to be at my age. However, I am Much farther than I thought I’d be when things ended with their dad. I may have been dumb stubborn and reckless, but clearly, I have done something right. Why else Would Goddess Bless Me with the two most perfect children.  I can only hope that one day Goddess may feel it fit to bless me with a True love. A Loyal love that my kids can look up to. A relationship they can see as life goals. I just don’t want to mess them up any more than their dad and I Already have. I want them to see me loved positively, they’ve only ever witnessed the dysfunction that was the relationshit I had with their father. A giant yawn interrupts my train of thought. Peeking out the window towards the sky, I whisper “Goddess if you can hear me Please Send me someone that will love my kids as their own, one that will love me, Unconditionally. Oh, and he must love animals.” with a sigh I decide to finally lay down. But first I must gently and slowly shift the surprisingly heavy forms to allow room for me to lay between them. After placing a kiss on each of my babies’ heads, I snuggle them closer and slip into a deep sleep. I stay awake only long enough to whisper “I love you my babies”                                                                                                                                      *Maxwell's POV*               I couldn’t sleep neither could my human.it took some convincing but he relinquished his control to me. He had given me full reign, so Naturally we are doing what wolves do, Running. Wolves Never feel freer More connected to the earth than when we are running. Our paws Pounding a path through the “Forest” Barking out a laugh as I dash across a road. “forest” more Like a glorified tree lot. “OHHH it’s not that bad Max !!”, interrupted my human half.  ”Yeah, maybe for a human!!” I scoff.   Which of course causes him to laugh incessantly.  His stupid laugh was irritating me, making me growl and run Harder. Since moving to this place everything has changed. I miss the forest.  The feeling of my paws digging into the lush undergrowth while carving out a new path in the otherwise wild land. The calming peace of being in the dense forest “Alright max I admit I miss home; Back there we could run for over an hour before we even smelled a human.” Sighs Jason. “But this is for the best max, just give it a chance. You know that we were going crazy at home we Ne—” He starts to trail off, or I blocked him out not sure which. And to be blunt I don’t really care. Again, my paws hit the pavement s**t where tf am I now… everything smells like human, I grumble. It’s at that odd hour that’s too late for most night owls and still too early for the early birds. So, my likely hood of giving some poor human a life filled with therapy and antipsychotics is very slim. So, I don’t really give a s**t about being seen. I’m annoyed that I am lost.  So, I take my time to observe my surroundings trying to figure out where the hell I am.               It seems it was a fence I had jumped over as I had exited the tree line. Upon noticing the lack of trees, I had decided to stop. The fence I jumped surrounds the field I’m in. Both ends of the fence connect to a large brick building at the far side of the field.  Hmm it looks like I’ve run right into a human school yard. By the layout and size of the playground equipment, it was a tiny human school. Since we are lost, and I have no desire to give any control back to J! I just hope that all the human smells don’t interfere with my attempt to figure out where tf I am. I tilt my head upwards to catch a scent. As soon as I inhale the surrounding air, I’m immediately hit with a scent that shakes me to my soul. I let out a happy howl, and quickly resumed my sniffing. We both knew exactly what this scent meant. Yet Jason had been silent since we first smelled her. This feeling is unmistakable, so why is he so quiet, he’s never quiet!  “Do you smell that?” we question each other in unison. “there you are J; I was getting worried about you.”  “it’s so faint but…” J practically whispers thru our link.  “yes Jason. Even my nose is having problems picking up the trail.”  WE both fall silent no longer interested in words or thoughts.  We had one goal and that was to find out where this intoxicating scent was coming from.  We pace the entire grounds of the school even sniffing each door of the school.  I really hate apologizing especially to Jason because he never lets it go…but here goes nothing. “Jason, I forgive you for moving us here” causing Jason to gasp and I readied myself for his smug ass response.  But instead, he Gasps before continuing. “Max Does this mean our Mate is really near?!?!?!?!?” his voice Equal parts excited and nervous.   “Yes, J We really Got a second Chance I didn’t think I deserved one” I say weakly. I thought for sure I had ruined any chance me and J ever had at happiness. But this is no time to focus on the past. I decide to ignore J and focus on the task at hand. After several more minutes of me blocking Jason, while fruitlessly Sniffing I decide that I needed to talk to my human. Maybe he could think this through more clearly than I can. At this point I am basically in a frenzy my senses all hopelessly trying to pinpoint this absolutely intoxicating and addictive scent. “J! I can’t pick up a scent trail. It’s like he was here but she wasn’t. J it doesn’t make any…” I was cut off by Js condescending laugh. “Good f*****g goddess dude. WE ARE AT A SCHOOL!” he states like that somehow makes this make sense. “Ok and?” I snarl while pacing anxiously trying to catch her scent. “if our mate’s scent is here and she hasn’t been here….” He pauses expecting me to know wtf he is blabbering about. “Goddess your dense Maxwell, Our Mate has kids, and they go here!” A possessive growl erupts from deep in my Chest. I can feel Jason roll his eyes. “Maybe she’s a teacher” I whine. “Possible but Chill dude! She’s human, humans don’t know about mates. Well unless they’ve been mated to a supernatural.  Plus, it’s not like were virgins. Hypocrite” he scoffs.  He was right of course but still the thought of some pathetic human touching what goddess herself destined to be mine angered me.  “Max, promise me you won’t be like that when we find her.” Sighs J.  My ears perk up as I plop down “like what?” I question while tilting my head.  “Like an overly possessive D*ck” he answers “no Promises” I reply.  Before we Leave, we take note of the school name.  the sun will be coming up soon and we Have To get home. So, after one more sniff I Swiftly clear the gate and take off back home. “Once we get home research that school so we can figure out how old our pups are” I demand.  My demand Is met with roaring laughter and even a few snorts. “Did...did you just snort at me J? what is so funny” I snap the last part out because his stupid laughing has grown even more rowdy. “Oh, nothing you called our place home.  And you’re talking about Our Pups, it just funny that Mr. big bad alpha wolf sounds more like a snuggly Pitbull” he manages to finally snort out. “Oh, fu*k off J”