I hated waking up alone. It had been almost impossible to walk away from Marlene, and the reality hadn’t sunk in by the time I managed to get to sleep.
Now that I was awake, and I was facing the reality of my first day without her, I felt like a piece of me was missing, and I hated it.
Nothing had ever made me feel like this before; nobody had ever made me feel like this before. She wasn’t supposed to mean anything to me, but she was all I could think of and all I wanted, and I didn’t know what I was going to do without her.
I couldn’t even bring myself to get out of bed, and my thoughts kept on wandering to increasingly desperate ways that I might be able to be with her.
There were ways to change humans - they were dangerous, and they hadn’t been done for a very long time, but at the
