The King's Return

37| YOU REALLY MESSED UP

LOGAN'S POV

I wasn't able to enjoy my sister's party because I couldn't keep Amira out of my mind. I don't know how, but a part of me was convinced that wherever she was, she was also thinking about me.

I couldn't help but wonder how she was coping. Did she regret leaving or was she happy that she took that decision? Even if she was really happy, I couldn't blame her.

I pushed her into taking it and there is nothing I can do to change that. Sam has been on my neck. She keeps telling me how all this is my fault, and even though I wish she could just shut up, I know she is doing it so that I can fix my problems with Amira very soon.

I don't even know how I will be able to face my mom. Even though Sam was hurt that she wasn't here for her birthday, I was happy because I didn't know how I was going to look at her and tell her that I pushed my mate away.

I also don't know if Kiera has found out why Amira left. A part of me is hoping she doesn't find out it was partly because of her arrival.

I don't want her to feel guilty. I also don't want her to think I was going to use her. I don't want any of that. Now I'm even more convinced that I am a fool.

I should've stopped the rumours when I had the chance and none of this would've happened. I had promised Amira that I would always make her happy and what I did was the complete opposite.

"You know hiding here will reverse the situation right? You really messed up and I don't want to say that I didn't warn you." 

" What are you doing here Connor? Shouldn't you be in New York?" He is the last person I was expecting to see here and somehow he is here.

"Why? You don't want people who will tell the truth to your face? I did tell you that it was dumb to even think of letting your mate go and you came up with excuses.

"To even think that the person you were giving your mate to is not even interested makes this whole thing even more ridiculous.

" You really messed up and I think it will be even more difficult to win her back than it was to make her fall for you."

"Do you think I don't know any of that? I've been telling myself that everything is my fault since the minute I realised she was gone and that I was the reason she left.

"I don't need you to remind me of that. You are not helping the situation." I know that I messed up and I don't need my friend reminding me of that.

"I didn't say I came here to help. You once reminded me that I should mind my own business and that is what I'm trying to do otherwise I would've killed that bastard the minute he made passes at your mate."

I also want him dead and I'm sure if I see him again, I will do just that. I know I shouldn't have doubted my mate but he is also the reason I believed she wanted to be with him.

If he didn't send her flowers and arrange a spa date for her, I wouldn't even think of something like that. Amira would still be here and everything would be fine.

"I actually came here because Kunal is at Kensington and he wants to visit New York, Amar asked me to take him with me because he is busy.

"All the kids are going and I thought it would be a good idea to take Alex too but that is only if you agree and I'm sure he would want to visit there, after all, he is an American."

I know Alex would love to spend time with his nephews and nieces. I don't know about America though, he has never said anything about visiting there.

Personally, I don't think it will be a bad idea and dad is there. Alex will be able to spend time with him which is something I think he will appreciate.

"I know what you're thinking and I will do anything I can to help. We will visit San Francisco and I will make sure that Alex gets to spend time with his dad."

"Thank you for that. Since there's too many of you, you can stay in my apartment while you're there. I will get someone to clean it for you before you get there."

I spent some time with Connor before I went to talk to Alex. He wasn't that happy about going to New York until I told him that they will be going to San Francisco too.

I asked Brittany to pack his clothes for him while we waited for the other kids to arrive with Aiden and Amar. I don't even know why Aiden left yesterday after the party because Sam stayed behind with Kiera.

"I've never seen Kunal before. Do you think he looks like his father?" I wasn't expecting that question from Alex. I don't even know the answer to that.

"The last time I saw Kunal was when he was still an infant and even then I couldn't decide if he looked like his father or his mother."

"It doesn't matter though, I'm just mad that Keaton and Alessa will see him first. Those two will never let me know peace after that." I totally agree with him. It's just that I didn't think he would mind, he rarely cares about those types of things.

We didn't wait for long, Aiden and Amar arrived with the kids. As soon as they saw me, they came rushing to me and hugged me with their little hands. I was surrounded.

"Uncle! We've missed you so much." One thing I love about Cillian is that he is always ahead of his elder brother and sisters.

He is the last born and of course the most spoiled one in the family. He is three years old and since there is no one younger than him, he is the baby of the family.

I picked him up because I know how much he enjoys that. "I missed you more. I was going to visit you, you know."

"Uncle, we all know you are busy. Mum reminds us every single day." That is true. I just didn't think Sam would tell them that every single day.

"We do understand though, you are a king. You always spend time with us when you're not busy. Grandpa reminds me every time during my alpha training that a leader should have priorities and a family only comes second and not first."

I guess now I know why Alex is way too mature for his age. If I didn't hear this from the horse's mouth, I wouldn't believe Keaton would utter such words.

They kept saying one thing after the other that I even lost track of what they were saying. It was when I heard Crystal laughing at something Tara said that I remembered that those little ones didn't come alone.

"Sorry guys, I totally forgot you're here."

"Well, I know my kids are very talkative and they enjoy the attention you give them so I understand. How are you coping with Alex?"

"Well, I have to thank you and Sam for raising him well. He is wonderful and I don't have to worry about him all the time." I gave him a quick hug and turned to Amar and his wife.

"Well, who do we have here? I think the last time you set your foot in this castle was during my coronation."

"That's true and I always tell Crystal that it's a pity I only came here once because this castle is beautiful."

"It's true. Kunal couldn't wait to see it. I believe you only met my son when he was still in diapers." She turned to him. He was playing with Aaliya, his youngest sister who is about six months old if I remember correctly.

He looked in his mother's direction when he called his name. He looked so much like his father except for the green eyes he inherited from his mother.

"Kunal, this is Logan Morningstar, the Alpha King you've always wanted to meet." She slightly brushed his head as she introduced him to me.

"It's really nice to meet you, Your Majesty." He is the most mature young Alpha I've ever met in my entire life. I was aware of Leo's presence when Kunal came to us but the young boy didn't seem scared.

"I like you. Call me Uncle Logan, how does that sound?"

"I would love that."

"I think I might need advice from you on how to be a good leader. My wolf is trying to challenge you, why do you seem calm?"

"I know it's for my own good, he doesn't mean any harm. My grandfather taught me that a leader must have a backbone and that he must always be able to distinguish between people who are a threat to him and those that are with him.

"I know how powerful you are and I already how to act around when I see you. I was hoping that I don't mess it up and I will like to believe that I didn't."

"You didn't, you handled yourself pretty well and I must say, your grandfather made a wonderful job in training you. You are a leader of a very powerful and largest pack in India, you have to be the best that you can be or else people will take advantage of you."

"Thank you, Your Majesty." When he realised that he made a mistake, he corrected himself. "I mean Uncle Logan."

He left to join the others and I could help but smile when I saw that. He is a six-year-old Alpha which I think is too much but he still has time to play with other kids.

His little brother, Crystal and Amar's second child, kept following him around which I think is cute. Kunal doesn't spend much time with them since he lives in India but they are very close.

I remember when Amar's parents came to take Amar back with them to India. He didn't want to because he already swore an oath to be Aiden's Beta for life which meant his parents had to take things further.

They made a few months old Kunal choose if he wanted to stay back with his parents or become an Alpha to which he chose the latter.

He has been an alpha since then. He started Alpha training before he could even speak. Crystal and Amar were always worried about him even though they knew he would be visiting them during holidays and he always spent Christmas with them.

"He's growing really fast, isn't he?" Aiden's voice pulled me out of my thoughts.

"He really is and I'm glad he is taking his Alpha position seriously. Whenever I think of him, I always wonder how he is coping with everything.

"He is by far the youngest Alpha I've ever met and he is even more mature than most of the adults I've met. Some Alphas out there make me even wonder how they became Alphas."

We talked for a while before we went inside the castle to eat lunch. When we were done, we drove to the private airstrip and Connor and the kids left.

His wife was calling non-stop, she kept asking if they'd left and if she should start making arrangements for their arrival because according to her, this is a big thing since she had never had so many kids in her house except for the ones in their pack.

"I just pray that they don't end up making a mess in her house. My sister-in-law loves kids but she is also a neat freak."

Something that I always hear Connor complain about. I knew she loved cleaning when I first saw her but then I always thought it was her way of coping with her twin sister's death.

"Well, we'll pray with you."