The King's Return

44| I KNOW THAT LOGAN WANTS US

AMIRA'S POV

OMG! What have I done? Yo también te amo Logan? Really? What was I thinking? I was the one who practically asked Logan to take things slowly because it would take time for me to trust him again and now... I just told him I loved him too.

What is he going to think of me? 'Why should it matter? He's our mate.'

"Oh. So now you're back? You've been ignoring me for weeks. What makes you think you can talk to me now?"

'I'm your wolf Amira; of course I'm going to talk to you when I want to and I am going to ignore you if I feel like it.'

"You think I don't know you were sulking because of Logan? You are a stupid wolf."

'Why would I do that? I know Logan wants us... Oh, I meant to say that I know that Leo wants me."

Of course, I don't have a sassy comeback for that. I know she is right; I could feel Leo when I was with Logan. He wants us. It was even more evident when he wanted to mask us; I could feel that Logan was fighting with him for control.

I don't know about Logan because I still don't know if I trust him after everything but I can bet my life that if it were up to Leo, Logan and I would be mated by now. Maybe I would be carrying his child.

I know what that means though. Logan made it clear that the day I accept his mark and completely mate with him would be the day I accept my position as the Royal Luna, the werewolf Alpha Queen, and I know I am not ready for the responsibility.

To be his wife, I will have to pay a huge price. After everything that has happened, I don't even know if he is worth it anymore. I know if Kiera hadn't come back to his life, the seed of doubt wouldn't have been planted.

I can't take away what I saw that day from my mind either. A part of me wants to believe in the Logan I saw when I first came to the castle but then what happened that day can't be erased.

At this moment, I wish I knew what I should do. If Maya was here, she would know what to do. She would make me realise things that I haven't realised yet with this whole situation.

"Why are you even asking me that? It's obvious that His Majesty loves you and wants to be with you; otherwise, why would he be here? Do you think he has nothing to do in Manchester?"

I found myself laughing at that because it felt like she was there with me and saying that. That was true though. Why was Logan here exactly? He did say that his father could've handled the business. He didn't have to come personally.

Did he really come here just for me?

The only person who could give me an answer to this question is the man himself. I know all I could do is just ask him and he would tell me the truth. I know he would do that, I don’t know how but I just know he would answer me truthfully. The problem is that I don’t want to.

I don’t know if I’m ready for the truth. I promised that I would give him a chance but I’m also thinking for myself. With everything that has happened and with what I witnessed at home with my parents’ relationship, trusting Logan is going to be a difficult thing.

“I trust that you did talk to him.” I look at my sister-in-law as she enters my room. She smiles down at me before joining me on the bed.

She lies down next to me and looks at me. I haven’t spent much time with her but I know that look she was giving me. She wanted to know if I talked to Logan and everything else that happened.

I haven’t really told her how much I love her. She’s like a sister I’ve never had. Ever since she came into my life, she’s been so supportive and I don’t think she realises just how much of an influence she is on me.

I’ve seen how much she loves my brother and how happy she makes him. When I was in school, the kids there would always talk about how mean sisters-in-law could be and mine is the complete opposite.

“I love you.” I found myself saying. She didn’t look away or change her facial expression. I decided to continue.

“I really mean it. You’ve been so nice to me since the very first day I saw you. I remember when I used to talk to you on the phone or my brother would talk about you and tell me how much you wanted to meet me, I knew you were a nice person but I just didn’t know how things would be when we finally met.

“You love my brother so much and I can see it. To be honest, I didn’t expect a lot from you. I spent very little time with my brother as a child but I love him so much.

“His happiness has always been my greatest joy and when I saw how happy he was with you, I knew you were the reason. You complete him.

“I know that I know very little about love but it’s hard to ignore the connection you share with my brother.

“Like I said, his happiness is my greatest joy and you giving him that was enough for me. I really couldn’t ask you for anything because you were already doing what I would’ve asked of you.

“But then you extended that love to me, even when I was wary of you at first, you didn’t hesitate to reach out to me and make me open to you.

“That made me love you. Except for my mother and Maya, there’s no single woman I have made that special connection with. You are not just a sister-in-law to me, you are my sister and I am very grateful to my brother for bringing you into my life.”

I didn’t even realise I was crying until I felt her hands wiping the tears that were flowing into the pillows.

I felt my hands move on their own to wipe her tears as well. She then hugged me and I hugged her back.

“You know, I loved you the very first moment your brother told me about you. I think it was the first day we met. He wouldn’t stop talking about this most beautiful girl he’d ever met in his entire life.

“He told me that his little sister was the most beautiful gift his parents ever gave to him. I remember he told me that I would like you because you were just perfect.

“He said there was no other way to describe you except ‘perfect’. I wasn’t even jealous when he said that. All I wanted was to meet this person my mate loved so much that he didn’t mind sharing it with me.

“He even apologised to me for that. He said, ‘I love you, mi amore. I truly do, but I also want you to understand that my little sister will always be my first love. Just as I would lay down my life to protect you, I would do the same thing for her. You are my mate, the Moon Goddess gave me you as my life partner. You are mine to love, support and protect and so is my little sister.’

“He’s always been feeling guilty for walking out on you. He has always felt that he should’ve taken you with him when he left home and I could see every day how much it hurt him that you were not with him.

“Whenever he would call you and couldn’t reach you, he would get worried and think of a lot of possibilities. He told me how your father is and ever since then, I realised that just as much as he loved you, I loved you as well.

“Maybe not the way he loved you but in my own way. I would worry too if he couldn’t reach you. I think my mistake was that I never asked him to take me to Spain with him so that I could meet you and we could be assured of your safety.

“I always felt that he should be the one to ask me to move back to his home country with him.”

“You don’t have to feel guilty about that. I’m sure my brother told you of the reason why she left home and I think that if you had suggested that he went back, he would’ve thought you didn’t understand his pain.

“Besides, it’s in the past now. Why should we worry about it? I’m glad I finally got to meet you in person.” I smiled at her. “My sister.”

She smiled at me and hugged me again. She pulled away in a few seconds and looked at me again. “I’m really happy that you see me as your sister and not just your sister-in-law because that’s the same way I feel too. I love you too, Hermanita.”

I wanted to point out that her accent was getting better when I realised that I had told Logan I loved him too earlier. She must’ve seen the shock in my face because she pulled me up and we sat on the bed.

“Now tell your sister what happened today with the king.”

“I just realised something I was trying to avoid.”

“And that is?”

“I told Logan something by mistake when I was with him earlier.”

“By mistake? Is it that bad?” She looked at me and then her face broke into shock. “You told him you loved him by mistake? What did he say?”

“That’s the thing, he didn’t say anything. All I can remember is that I was in his arms because I had hugged him and then we were talking. He told me he loved me and my foolish self told him that I loved him too. He didn’t say anything, he just kept hugging me until he got a call and that was my escape.”

“You must have said that because it felt so natural. You felt comfortable with him. The words wouldn’t have come out if you didn’t love him or you didn’t feel comfortable or at home with him.”

“But the problem is that I told him that I wanted to take things slow, to rebuild that trust in our relationship. What is he going to think of me now?”

“What did you say exactly?”

“Yo también te amo Logan.”

“Then what are you worried about? Maybe he didn’t even understand what you meant.” I wanted to scream at that.

“That would’ve been true if he didn’t speak Spanish. Español is second nature to Logan. You would never gossip about Logan en Español.”

I wonder what he is thinking right now. He was ready to wait for me until I was ready but I don’t know about that right now.

I’m sure he must be thinking that everything is okay now and no grovelling is needed.

“Then I guess you are right to be worried about his thoughts but I think this whole thing is still salvageable. You can tell him that you were just caught up in the moment and didn’t really realise what you were saying. Tell him you really love him though, just that you want to take things slow with him. Wait, you do love him, right?”

“What? Of course I love him. I love him with all my heart and I think I’ve always loved him. I might have my reservations about being with him but I love him.”

“Then you will tell him that if he asks you. If he doesn’t ask, you can pretend it never happened unless he starts thinking everything is fine between the two of you.

“Trust me, everything will work out.”