The past - life of Briana
Year -2002
BRIANA HEMSWORTH
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I sit in the front row ,holding on to my mother's hand so tight that I'm afraid to let her go
I never imagined that one day we will be facing this
When your father smile is limited to the picture they have hung in front of you
Its not one of those happy celebrations but it's a day to mourn someone who gave you their best part
My father
But he will forever be alive in our hearts
I smile as the priest calls out my name taking a deep breathe inspite of the nervousness inside me
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Walking towards the podium I give a big smile at my mother who is sitting in front of the crowd
Giving me a nod to go ahead
Past few days haven't been well
We never even expected, any of these
We weren't prepared to face this loss
But i guess life is all about the things you aren't expecting
I remember ,wishing my father a good morning before i left for school
But when i returned home, he was announced dead
The cardiac arrest was not something we expected,his busy life
Not giving much necessary attention to his health took his life away
But he lived his life, to the fullest
Every day working on his dreams more than himself.
"Good morning to everybody present here. my family and I cannot thank you all enough for being here
Your presence, really matters to us
In the times like this
Today when I look back , it feels like everything is a dream that will soon be over.
But this is life.
I remember talking to my father ,his plans about our Hemsworth Company and how eager he was to know my plans for college
The subjects I'll choose , the college I'll pick
My prom ,my graduation
He was very excited for me more than I can ever be ,he was a man who wanted to live his best life at the same time provide the best possible life for his family
I could have never asked for a better father
But it's very unfortunate that , …( my voice cracks as I shut my eyes tight not wanting to cry in front of the huge crowd as I stick my head down )
That he isn't here with us
But ….( blinking the small tear, I finally
Find the strength to speak further as I lick my dry lips )
He will forever live in our hearts
And we all will celebrate his memories "
Finishing my words i take a step back as I take one more glance at him
He had a most beautiful smile
All the guests start walking towards my mom
Giving her, there condolences
And excusing myself from the crowd ,I take a walk towards the small garden behind the church
My father always wanted me to be a strong women who was capable to make her own choices
He always told me , your my strength
And he was mine
But he isn't anymore
I'm seventeen, still in school but I know everything about his business
Because he made sure I attended all the general meeting, meet his partners
He was proud to take me around to various countries ,show me how his business worked
But then it was all a trip
Few days off from my school
But now, those are the memories I'll cherish for my life
" Bri ?"
I turn around as I hear a familiar voice
"Vincent?" My eyes go wide as I see him
Vincent Steinberg
Steinberg's are our family friends
Me and Vincent grew up together for almost my entire childhood ,until couple of years ago as he decided to leave to college
After that we lost our connection
Vincent was always like a brother I wish I had who was a constant support to my family but ,the night before he left he paid me a last visit
And…..he stole my first kiss
After that I thought about us ,where we weren't just friends
Maybe we can date but …….he was gone
The kiss was two years ago
After the kiss we never met or saw each other
Somewhere when I remember my childhood I'll never forget how much I loved him
But…life happened
He was absent for all the thanksgiving ,Christmas, new years eve
Which our families celebrated together
"You are here " my voice cracks as I rush towards him
Throwing myself into his arms
He holds me tight, as he embraces me
His hands ,caress my head as I break down into tears in his arms
"Its okay Briana
I'm very sorry about the loss " he whispers as he plants a soft kiss on my head
Without uttering a word, I just hold him
Tight
It feels like ages since we saw each other
And somewhere I feel awful when I always think about the kiss we shared
Like I remember every single detail about that night
But we weren't meant to be together
He knows it too that's why he didn't try to reach me atleast once in this two years
"Thanks for coming
It really mean a lot "
I wipe my tears as I take a step back
"Don't be silly
I'll always be there for you Briana "
Vincent takes a step forward as his hands come over my shoulders like he wants to tell me something
"Briana?"
I hear Raphael's voice in distance
Raphael, my boyfriend
"Yes " I ask arching my brow
"Guests are waiting for you
Let's go " he speaks , as he waves at Vincent
Saying a hi
"Okay
Just a minute " I sigh ,as I turn back towards Vincent
"I need to go "
Vincent nods , as I speak
"I'll see you around " I squeeze his hands
And he gives me another nod
As I turn around to leave
"I'm happy you came " I add quickly
"Me too " Vincent gives me a half smile , as Raphael comes over and takes my hand along with his , leading me back
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"Are you okay ?"
I hear Raphael's voice as he stops at his step
Asking me , worriedly
"I'll be " I give him a smile
As I go on toes and kiss his lips
"I'm here with you okay?"
"Your not alone baby
I'm with you " he adds, as he pulls me into a hug
"I know " I add , as I rest my head against his chest
I'm happy atleast I have a loving boyfriend and my mother who means the world to me
I don't wish much
All I wish is to have my father's blessing and a happy ,simple life with my love and my mother
"I love you " I smile
Finally,a smile from within me
Which isn't forced
"You will never know
How much I love you baby " Raphael gives me a stern look ,as he squeezes my face
As he kisses my lips
"Make me know " I add between our kisses
"Yeah ?" He arches a brow as he gives me a teasing smile
And i feel my cheeks going red as he pulls me closer
His hands starts to trail behind my back
We have been dating from past one year and I could have never asked for a better boyfriend than Raphael
He is very passionate ,caring and he is just is perfect for me
And he loves me very deeply that he is never going to hurt me even by a eye blink
He always puts me first than his own needs
He is very selfless and somewhere even if I had given a choice
If Vincent wanted me , after that kiss
Still i would have chosen Raphael
Because what we share is eternal
Our attraction was instant ………..