YOU LOVED ME FIRST

PENELOPE'S POV My phone blinked with its bright flash. I giggled because I knew it was a text from Charming .Who else can it be anyway? For those who do not know him well okay here goes,Charming is Tony Lamar. A good guy I have been dating since High School. Charming I am sorry Mine, But I have to do this. What is he even talking about? What is he supposed to do? Why is he even sorry about it? I quickly reply his text, What is this all about? You have not wronged me. We have this rule of fast texting and if one takes more than a minute to reply then it a crisis. A crisis meaning one has has to go and check on another at their home to see if they are okay. Also to steal a kiss if possible. That is very normal to us as teenagers. I waited for a minute and there was no reply. My mind kept racing and I become pissed with every second that passed. I could literally feel myself breathing fire. I chose to let go of my ego and text him . After all, he was my lover. Hey,talk to me Charming I sent the text and waited for his reply. Five minutes passed by and I knew that I was ignored. I tried calling Charming and good thing is his phone went through. The only thing that made me feel like someone had spread gasoline on my heart and set fire on it is when he did not pick my calls. I called once again after choosing to be patient just to ensure that I confirm before I start overreacting over this s**t and become that b***h but something even more worse happened. His phone was off. Well this is more than a crisis and it had never happened before. Not in our dating life. Or is this the new way of telling me that he is breaking up with me? Oh no! He can't do that because the last time I checked, he loved me so much. "Where do you think you are going Penelope,"My mama called out from the kitchen as I made my way out. "I have to get something real important ma',"I shouted across the hallway walking as fast as my feeble legs could carry me. "Be back before six lest you will be grounded miss,"She stated and I was sure she had a smirk on her face. "I will mama,"I said and went for my bike in the garage. Tony's house is not far away.The location was at the corner of the street next to the Mums coffee shop. Cycling is really my thing and in a way it calms down my nerve in terms of tension and anger. When I argue with my mama which happens almost all the time now that I am s teenager, I bet you know where to find me and that is cycling in the next street to cool my teenage spirit. My friends tell me that when I turn twenty my mother will be my best friend but I doubt that. I really can't stand her constant yelling. I rang the door bell thrice and waited after I heard some movement from inside. "How dare you..."I began shouting as soon as someone got the door and to my surprise,the door was opened and instead of seeing Charming an orderly woman stood before me with a smile etched on her face. What a f**k! I almost cussed out loud so I held my lips in embarrassment. I shouldn't be quick to judge, maybe she is his Grandmother. "Hello ma'am,can you please inform Tony that I am waiting for him in the garden?"I ask her kindly. She seemed puzzled for a moment before she spoke up. "I don't know Tony because I am new here. Actually, I am moving in and you can feel welcomed to come in and help me,"She said innocently and stepped aside for me to walk into her house. "Sorry ma'am, I wish I could help but right now I am in a rush."I prattled and cycled back home. For the a hundredth time, I tried calling Tony but he was off. After a long period of decision making, I left  him the final voice message. Hello, Mine again here Have been calling you for a while but, You are f*****g off I am not angry I am I am desperate for you to call back There is a grandma over your house saying you moved out Did you move out? Without telling me? I bet you did You so f*****g annoying Why could you do this to me As soon as you get this message call me back I took my guitar and started singing It ain't me cover, at least to keep my calm as I waited for my phone to blink with a message. Three days later "You cannot keep sulking like this,"My mum said when she come to check on me before I slept. Actually, I had not realised that I was hardly out of my room the whole day and this was really a miracle. I was the jumpy type. I only left once to go downstairs in the morning so as to grab junk for I was feeling hungry. I had slept on an empty stomach. "I know mother and I hope I will just get over it . I hate seeing myself like this"I told her. "You better do because you will be going to Moscow University in a week,"She reminded me before she left. I was kind of glad because I will be far away from home and start a new life without Tony. That is if I will manage to completely forget him. Come on Penelope, you will do this. If mama managed to get over dads death then you will move on dear. Life is like a wheel, no matter what, we will always move on. I wonder how cruel he was to leave me like this. We had gone through alot together from the moment I joined highschool to the time I completed my highschool. This was really unlike him to leave me in this pain yet he knew so well that I loved him so much. There was really something that is not adding up. Anyway if he calls to explain,which he has not done in a week and it is killing me, I will surely forgive him. I don't know how to live without me. He was my first in everything. I cannot even be in contact with him if you think that I have not texted him in his social media accohnt. I texted him but in that process I got to learn that he deleted his f*******:,i********: and twitter accounts. A week later Hey? Its me Penelope Can't you have the respect to call me back. I am your girlfriend I miss you. Call me back when you get this message. A month later Hey You don't call back like I ask you too Guess what I don't care anymore As soon as you get this message,know it's over between the two of us. I am not sure if its really over but I really have to love myself more. How can I lose it over a guy who has not checked on me for the past one month. My mom and I had an argument as usual this time it is because she kept scolding me of my tendency to stay in the room all day not understanding that I am undergoing s breakup. I talked back at her and she didn't come to my room. After a couple of hours, I felt sad over the same and decided to be the good girl she wants me to be. "Mama,"I said as soon as I walked to the kitchen,"I am sorry about last week."I said as I sat at the kitchen chair just opposite the mahogany dining table. I was sure I would receive a lengthy pep talk on respect and I was all ready. "I knew you would come around,"The lengthy advice of hers ended finally after telling me on how being obedient will boost our mother daughter relationship. I guess she was right and I chose to invest on our mother daughter relationship before I get to Moscow University. "Can I go to the park for a walk?"I asked her and that meant I was back to my usual self. "Yes, but remember to be back in time lest grounding,"She said strictly with an edge on her tone. "I will,"I tartlex and walker back to the room to change from my pajamas. I changed to a white camisole with reaped jeans. I wore addidas sport shoes as a typical teenager and carried a monkey bag which had few of my essentials like lip gloss. I walked down the street with the idea of going to the park but I found myself walking to Tony's house . I rang the doorbell and prayed for a miracle that Tony would show up. My heart heaved up and down as I waited bit I crossed my fingers. However, that did not happen for I, a blonde girl with a flawless skin stood by the doorway She is very familiar but I don't really remember where I first met her. "I am Aurora Morgan,how can I help you?"She implored with a yellow smile.