the start of the horrible
Meranda K. Dandilion/Cently was cleaning out her attic and when she was close to finishing, she had found her old diary's that she wrote as a kid up until she was 19 years old. When she finished, she took all 3 of them to the kitchen so she could pour a glass of whine for herself and her husband (me Iggy Centley.) And then she took her diary's to the couch and she started reading. An hour went by when I saw her facial expression change. I knew by the look on her face that she was gonna cry. I went to go sit next to her. I wrapped my arms around her and I kissed her lips softly. I asked her what was wrong. She hesitated for a few moments, and then she told me that she wanted me to read her diary. At first I didn't want to, but then she asked me to read it out loud and then I realized it's just like reading a book together, which we did a lot. But I agreed to her request. I started to read from where she wanted me to. April 5th 1963 dear diary.
Today is the hardest day of my life! My family and I lost my big brother Gregory. We found out he was murdered. Right now, it's really hard to see the paper because I'm crying so badly. I cant even think because my mom is crying and it's that screaming cry. My sisters are also crying the same way, same as my dad. He was screaming at someone over the phone too. My brother was only 10 years old. Why would someone hurt him? I don't know what's going on now, but I just heard a loud knock at the door. I'll update more when I get back.... Oh my god, the police are here and I'm terrified....Well, I'm back in my room now, and, I'm overthinking everything. I'm younger than him, but I still think it's my fault. Because I said that i wasn't feeling well enough to go play outside. XOXO until next time Meranda. I looked at my wife and said: babygirl why didn't you tell me? Meri: I don't know. Maybe I didn't want to deal with it on my own. So I felt if I didn't talk to anyone about it, then I would forget about it. Me: baby I would have helped you through that. Meri: at the time I met you I didn't know that anyone would, And it wasn't always front and center in my brain. She started to cry and I just held her and told her that she was gonna be okay. I read the next entry in the diary.
July 16th 1971 dear diary:
Today is my birthday and my first day of high school at my new school, Greenwood high. Update later gotta get ready...Just got to school and gave my mom a kiss. New Orlenes is a beautiful state, especially this time of year. The school was pretty big but I didn't have trouble finding anything. OK, update later... OK. So at lunch time, it was a bit hard to find a place to sit. I'm sitting alone. My teachers and principals are really, really nice and helpful. There's this boy staring at me and he's so adorable. The eyes he's giving me ughhh I cant breathe. From the look of it, he looks like he's going to walk over here at any moment. Well, he did come over here. He asked me my name and I told him. I asked him his name and he told me. Neal Chipley. But before anything else happened, a mean girl came over and kissed him in front of me! I didn't know how to feel so I just continued writing to you. Well, it's off to our final classes before coming home... I'm now home..but before I got picked up from school, I met a boy named Iggy C. ( I looked up to Meri and smiled.) He was super cute. I got attached quickly. I told my mom about him. She said something exciting but expected. (That's amazing baby, if you start going out with the kid just tell me, not your father.) which is understandable because my dad would legitimately flip out on my mom and I. When my sister Cristina got her boyfriend (husband now), My dad flipped a gasket on the entire house. I don't know how to even start a relationship, seeming like I've never been in one and I'm a virgin. I have just finished my dinner and my homework. I got my pjs on and I'm off to sleep xoxo Merianda.
I looked at Meri, and smiled and blushed and kissed her. I said: I had no idea you liked me before all the stuff that happened. She just smiled and said: read on baby, you might not like these next ones.
July 18th 1971 dear diary
So I met this guy named Brian Uley. And boy is he cute... He's 5.11 and he's 16 years old, only a year younger than me, and he's got reddish hair and freckles and brown eyes and a baby face. I think I like him. I don't know why, but I do. (I looked at Meri and ground my teeth and kept reading) on another note I'm scared of telling my crushes that I like them. xoxo Merianda.
For some reason, I knew who she was talking about. I put the diary down and I picked up my wife and I kissed her. I took her upstairs and we went to sleep so we could continue in the morning.
July 21st 1971 dear diary
So my mom and I went shopping for food and my school supplies and clothes for school. I told my mom about my crush on Brian and Iggy. (I felt giddy when I read that part but I also knew what was going to happen next and i was dreading it. ) I chose Brian and the next day at school I gathered up all my strength to ask him out. He said yes! I'm so excited. I was excited up until I tried to talk to Iggy about it. He wouldn't talk to me. (that part made me feel bad.) He wouldn't talk to me, he wouldn't look at me. At first, I didn't realize what I was doing wrong. I went home and I cried and cried and cried for hours. My mom couldn't get me to eat anything tonight. I felt like I had just lost my best friend. Im off to sleep...XOXO Meri.
I stopped reading for the rest of the day. I just held her and we both cried and talked about that day and then we went to sleep.