Lillie
Getting up the courage and getting out at once is what I should do. I've been in the bathroom for almost an hour, more or less, or that's what I came to see on my watch. She told me to take a shower to feel more comfortable and relaxed, but neither that nor anything calms my nerves.
I'm a coward.
I was supposed to have already decided to give myself to him, but I'm still very afraid. It's because of many things, not only because of the fact that I will lose my virginity, but also because I will give myself to a man for the first time, something that means much more to me. Not only that, but also how I'm starting to feel about him.
I always waited for the right man, who maybe would become my husband, if it ever happened, but that idea evaporated little by little when I saw the s
