White Silk & I Belong to You

Chapter One-2

Jordan where are you now that I need you?

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We are waiting for Budapest with little to do until we arrive except admire what passes by the window at exhilarating speeds.

At night, I’m drawn into sleep by the very pictures I’ve tried to ignore all day. It does no good to deny them; I love them. They are my secret life. How interesting the chronicle would be if I were making a documentary of Shelly and her twisted state of being—not this Orient Express.

The day begins again. I’m restless. Going through my morning routine with the film crew, we finish quickly with plans to shoot again in the late afternoon as we approach our day’s destination. The territory outside the train is grim and abandoned. Viewing this much remote splendor makes me feel hollow from the inside out, though I cannot take my eyes from the stream of images that hastens by. It sometimes feels as though I am standing still and the world is flying. I believe that I’m by myself in my reveries, and only sense belatedly that someone’s close by—just off my right shoulder.

“Mademoiselle,” his voice touches me with an air of benign favor as though reaching to me from the unseen ethers.

“Sir?” I turn my head to see the handsome gentleman from Amie’s compartment. My blush begins at my throat, though he doesn’t seem to notice.

“May I sit?” he gestures toward the seat facing me in the parlor car. We are alone except for three men playing cards.

“Certainly.”

“I am Jorges Hanan.”

His presence puts me at ease and makes me tremble at the same time. Surely, he knows how my p***y dampens just staring into the dark secrets of his eyes.

“Michelle Monroe.”

“How delightful.” He smiles again as though my name has meaning. “You’re on the film crew.” He knows this for a fact and he seems impressed.

“They are my crew, my production company,” I clarify his information as though it’s important that he know my stature.

“Indeed? And how beautiful you are.”

My blush broadens. I could listen to his voice all day, while wondering what thoughts there are behind his curious expression.

“And you, are you traveling with anyone?” I ask.

“I am indeed alone, Mademoiselle Monroe.”

Humm. I wonder why the lie—or was what I witnessed just casual s*x for both Amie and this Jorges? I wonder if he saw me watching?

“You’re from the States. Do you have lovers there?”

“One, yes, but why would you ask?”

The more direct he is, the more I’m quivering. The warmth in me spreads—a delicious, bright white warmth that begins to burn the more it breeds, the more this stranger has his odd effect on my desire. I feel the way I felt as I watched him making love to Amie. Is this how he seduced her? With force and charm?

“I ask so that I understand you. But, in fact, your other lovers don’t matter now, do they?”

“No,” I’m whispering breathlessly, while my heart trips on and my entire body flushes with need.

“Yes,” he nods because he knows, “your lovers wouldn’t matter. I’ve watched you. You’re a woman of passion.” When has he watched me? “You look for men to help you reach the depths—and perhaps your current lover does. But too often, you live without what you really desire, just as you are living dispassionately now. You are afraid of men who can give you what you really want.”

My body wants to tackle him, or at the very least drag him by his red silk tie to my compartment; but my brain begs off—at least while it dispenses with my objections to this astounding appraisal. “Are you always so bold with women?”

“Only ones whose passions speak so loudly.”

“And you expect what?”

“I don’t expect, I know we’ll move to your compartment where I will… in the vernacular of your misbegotten language… rape you.” My cunt spasms with such speech. “Rape meaning abduction and ravishment of your body.”

“Abduct?”

“If only for a few minutes, you will be under my power.”

My head grows drowsy. Is there something in the air, some perfume that acts like a drug? It’s in his eyes, I think. In the way he moves, purposefully, the starched shirt and the immaculate substance of command.

I’m not even sure he scares me. He has so scrupulously zeroed in to my current frame of s****l mind that I should suspect him of being the devil. I should fear him, but I don’t.

He leans forward in his seat, and my face heats more as I turn my head to avoid his glance; yet, he brings it back as he takes one of my hands in his. I stare at his crotch wondering if this unplanned meeting has made him as aroused as I am. While his pants are curiously tented, I can’t tell if his erection is stiffening inside them. Still, I have no doubt he’ll be ready for me when he begins his rape. Now, he remains coolly detached in a way that reminds me of Jordan: intent, focused, but with a hard edge of rapturous control I cannot fight against.

“You assume a great deal from me, a complete stranger.”

He chuckles under his breath. “We’re hardly strangers, Mademoiselle. Time spent for introduction collapses in the face of shared desires. I know things about you just as you know things about me.” He pauses while I measure my response. I begin another objection, but he places a finger over my lips. “Open your blouse for me.”

My eyes are fixed on Jorges, while my heart pounds rapidly, beating even in my throat and temples, soon to overpower everything else.

He gazes around when I don’t act, “There’s no one here to see but me.”

The three men playing cards are all too focused on their game to let their eyes stray to me. We’re separate from the world, two on a train bound for Bucharest and Istanbul, staring with glazed and fixed expressions waiting for me to act.

I watch myself, as though I were floating above, against the coved and guilded ceiling of the parlor car. My hands tremble, but they don’t balk, as I slowly slip the white pearl buttons of my silk shirt through their tiny buttonholes. Beneath the blouse, a black lace bra cups my breasts, pulling them into a cleavage with my white flesh jiggling above the lace.

“See? You’re amazingly compliant even when you’re scared.” His eyes take in the feast though it’s not enough. “And your n*****s, pull them out.”

I listen for the door behind me to open, but there is no sound. The three men play on, intent and silent with their shuffling cards, while the train chugs into oblivion. Reaching inside the bra, I draw out my pink n*****s, which at their very tips are nearly purple from the chill I feel. Exposed to air they appear to blush just as my face has responded since this conversation began.

“Have you ever marked them?” he asks.

“Marked?”

“Has a whip or reed baton been applied to the skin.”

“No.” I shudder while at the same time imagining streaks of red cut into the expanse of translucent cream.

“You see it now, don’t you?”

I lick my lips nervously, answering without speaking.

“Put your breasts away, I’ll tease them later.”

Though I breathe relieved, thinking that he’s finished with this public display, Jorges has other things in mind. I can’t help but ask, “Is this how you seduced Amie?”

He c***s his head quizzically. He didn’t expect the question. “No. She is not like you, though she can be as submissive.”

Submissive. The word strikes me strangely. Although I’ve applied it to myself, I’ve never had a man suggest this to me. Obviously, he’s right.

“Raise your skirt, Mademoiselle Monroe.”

My heart leaps forward one more time as his eyes come to rest on my crotch. Parting my legs, I inch the hem of my knee-length skirt up my thighs. The gray flannel is quite tight about my hips and the material begins to bunch at my waist. I worry what he’ll suggest next. When I’ve gone as far as I can manage, I wait for his approval or another command. The erratic pulse in my chest beats on recklessly. What will he ask that I won’t do?

“Higher,” he says.

I gulp, nervously perusing my surroundings one more time, then hike the skirt another few inches, so it’s nearly off my hips and enough so Jorges can see the silk of my black panties at the crotch.

“Spread wider, Mademoiselle.”

This takes my skirt another inch or two so that my cleft is completely bared.

Reaching into his pocket, Jorges pulls out a shiny silver pocketknife, which opens to reveal its razor sharp blade. Moving on my panties, he adroitly slips the blade under the edge of the silk as I hold my breath. Have I lost my mind? The cool metal grazes my clit as sensuously as two lips might—though to tease is not its aim. A quick move of his hand, he jerks the sharp end through the crotch and then again at the side. With his free hand, he plucks the silk away.

My flesh is on fire, even my tiny pubic hairs tingle in anticipation. I’m tempted to squirm, to press my crotch into the chair beneath my ass; though I don’t, since this display is for Jorges, not me. My p***y is his to relish. It begs fingers to wander along the partially parted pathway to the center. I sway slightly as my inner muscles spasm, thinking that might entice him more, but of course he can’t see.

I get more than I ask for, as Jorges scares me with his knife, running the blade against that sensitive pink labia, gently.

“Ah, please,” I murmur quietly.

“No words,” he orders. Then he backs off saying, “Go to your compartment and wait for me.”

Rising proves difficult to do in a ladylike fashion. Then, as though to mock me more, two of my crew of three enters the car just as I’m on my feet, straightening my skirt. They begin to badger me with questions.

“We’re stopping in forty-five minutes…”

Will Jorges have time to rape me before we reach the station in Budapest?

His word—rape—intrigues me. It has meaning filled with horror, but I feel no horror now, only excited wonder. Having dismissed my crew, I continue toward my compartment as though obsessed. Certainly, I’m not in my right mind. Certainly, I should flee this man. But I cannot. He promises the darkness of Jordan with the added mystery of this foreign location and the urgency of the locomotive driving the moment.

I wait pantiless in my compartment, at first thinking he’ll follow me immediately, then, when he doesn’t appear for nearly ten minutes, wondering if he’ll follow me at all. We’ll be stopping in thirty-five minutes; my crew will be knocking on my door in twenty. How much of a rape can he enact in that time?

I stand, stare out the window, listen to the angry pulse of the train rumble under me and up through my feet, up the inside of my legs to my ticklish naked crotch. I’m desperate for a hand to finger the engorged flesh, but I refuse to touch myself.

Although I expect his advance, he comes on me unaware. The sound of the door opening and the feel of his body attacking mine seem superimposed on each other, as if they happen all at once. Jorges’ power surrounds me as his arms encircle my body, and like Amie, he captures my hands together in his fist behind my back. Instinct makes me struggle, but not enough to break the bonds he’s strung around my brain and body. I relent as the struggle implodes in me, as fire flows in rivers of sensation throughout my lower body and above as well. I’m bent over, my head thrown to the seat, while my ass becomes his target for abuse, the skirt bunched like a tourniquet around my waist.

From the corner of my eyes, I see Jorges pulling his leather belt from his pants.

“Leather,” he says caressing the words with his lips.

Ah, yes, leather! He presses it to my nose, where the aroma brings back memories of stables, tack and leather boots. As he wraps my hands in three concentric loops, I can still smell its potent reminder and my body responds. My crotch burns hotter turning into a liquid bath of seeking pleasure. The fact that he handles me brutally—as if this were rape—makes him a conquering warrior. Though I reveal my passion and my consent as my two, rear cheeks wave naughtily for him. Though the pose is awkward, I like being this lewd. It fits the fantasy.