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Not knowing what to do, I went to my cabin. It was odd not being followed by warriors or having them standing outside in the cold, guarding me, ready to protect me, but it was also freeing.
For the first time in months, I was truly alone.
Doing my best to keep the thoughts of Kane interrogating not-my-mother, and of my real mother being in danger somewhere else, I made myself some gentle calming tea and hopped in the old claw foot tub. I heated the water with my fire until it was scalding hot, almost boiling, but it didn’t hurt me. In fact, it only soothed me.
Fire was part of me, and I was part of the fire.
Following Sheila’s teachings, I emptied my mind of everything, except my shields, and meditated.
I didn’t know how long I stayed like that, resting. Frozen. Just trying to exis
