Wings of Darkness

Ch- 1 |Freya|

If you have been in pain,

So much so you can’t breathe.

You have lost some part of you,

A part for survival you need.

FREYA

I tuned out everything Brenna and Hazel talked about. I didn’t want to ignore them, it just happened, my mind itself wandered off to where my heart belongs. I had been in a haze for these past couple of weeks. I can’t share my pain with anyone and that doubled it. I walked through the corridors like a person in coma, I could hear the buzz around, see the people alive around me but I didn’t bother, I couldn’t bother to respond.

It took too much energy to form any coherent words. Yeah, I was losing it but whatever, I refused the pain to leave me since it reminded me of him, even if the last time I saw him was not so pleasant. My mother now alone, since my sister was back with her husband after Luke was born, paid more attention to me. She asked me to what colleges did I apply to and what I wanted to do.

I was clear on that, I have always known what I wanted to do since I was a child. I wanted to be a doctor. I loved how people smiled when they overcame an illness and the look of gratitude they have towards the doctor. I was good at Bio and everything else to be a doctor but my Chem sucked. My guardian angel was suppose to help me, now what was I suppose to do.

I needed to find the smallest, the stupidest reason to be with him, to call him back. But a month passed and nothing happened.

“And then Bennett cancelled on me. I am thinking we should have girls’ night out.” Brenna suggested almost tugging on my arm to get a response out of me.

“Yeah, I don’t think mom would allow that. She hates being left alone at home.” I said with a sad smile.

It was a lie. Mom will definitely allow night stay at Brenna’s and she was more of a solitude loving person. But I cannot fake smile and laugh all night. School hours were enough for this.

“Oh, then see you tomorrow?” Brenna asked her eyes reflecting the concern she felt at my weird silent behaviour but she never nagged me about it.

She had tolerated me after the horrible incident that actually allowed me to get a look at my guardian angel, his perfect violet eyes. I felt grateful for her being so understanding. I smiled and waved the two of them good bye.

No one bothered me much; Evan had left after he got a football scholarship that was a blessing since I was in no condition to handle a boy. I remembered the last time I met Haylien and Alicia.

Two days ago, they had visited me. They often came by and sometimes wandered in shadows protecting me instead of my guardian angel. They were doing what he would have wanted them to do. But there was no danger. Haylien was now the acting King with a condition that once his brother arrives he would give up the throne. Haylien cared for his brother much more than he lead on.

They both asked her to live a normal life. Haylien has went as far as saying to be her normal charming self since he was so sure my guardian angel will return. That he would not be able to resist my kiss. But I was not too sure because I was not convinced in first place why a gorgeous guy like him will love a average girl like me.

And now he was a demon, I don’t think my kiss was going to affect him anymore. He didn’t even remember me and now he was not an angel to lie to an extent to call me beautiful. Well at least the month of silence from him told me enough that he never gave a second thought the mere human who kissed him with desperation.

Because my angel would never spend, could not spend so much time away for me. Was he even coming back? It was too much torture to think that he never will because he was my life. I lost the sense of safety, love and home when he went away. It hurts when all this was snatched from me; it is supposed to hurt when you lose something so important.

How long will it take for me to live normally? I knew deep down inside that the answer was never. I will be ruined without him. I was not this love sick person and I was a fighter and I will pretend to smile and live but I will be broken to the level of becoming irreparable.

I was in no mood to go home. We never had our room date, I was abducted that night and after that for some reason or other we never had a proper date. My mother didn’t even know the boy her daughter was so madly and passionately in love with.

My feet took me to the point, our point where he first showed me the wings and told me about himself. It was an old playground behind the school and no one ever bother to come here. I dejectedly threw my bag and sat down under the shadow of a tree. The slight breeze caused the rusty old swings to squeak creating a sound in afternoon silence. There was little chill in the breeze but the sun was still peeping through.

I loved spring, not too cold, not too hot. I thought about writing in my blue dairy but I was not in the mood. I just leaned back into the tree and letting out a sigh I closed my eyes. I concentrated on birds chirping around, on the sound of light breeze and leaf rustling, on the creaking swing anything but him. I should not have allowed myself to sit idle, that always brought thoughts that were hurting.

So naturally my mind shifted to the day he sat next to me in Chem, my knight in shining armour. He even protected me from the questions of Ms. Tanya. He had asked me that I didn’t like him much and I had given him some diplomatic answer. Now the answer was so obvious, like a universal fact. I felt my lips lift in a slight smile from the memory, the sun light warming up my face.

It felt peaceful but the next instant the warmth was snatched away with someone blocking the light from reaching to me. Irritated that someone trespassed my solace point I opened my eyes. My hands reached to cover my mouth as I gasped out loud in surprise.

A familiar yet a strange set of black eyes stared back into my brown ones. Looking deliciously sexy, Alexander stood there blocking the sunlight.