"What if this is the last time we lie like this?
Uncertainty is keeping Ellery Luker awake at night and robbing him of his appetite. It’s been five days since the love of his life and partner of twenty-five years, Jools, went to the doctor. Five days since the biopsy. Five days of going crazy with worry and what ifs?
What if Jools suffer from the same disease that stole Ellery’s mother when he was just eleven? What if all Ellery’s worst fears come true?
What if ...?"
Team Luker By Nell Iris 2018 Jools is snoring again. With a sigh, I prop myself on my elbow and look down on his dear face. His jaw is slack, his mouth hangs open, his right cheek is crisscrossed with pillow creases, and his longer-than-usual beard is messy. A deep inhale produces a loud noise and I can’t help smiling, remembering all the playful arguments on the topic. “I do not snore, Ellery Luker,” he always says—indignant and stubbornly refusing to believe me, even though I’ve recorded him on my phone and played it for him—as though he’d know that better than me who’s slept next to him for almost twenty-five years. In this moment, I don’t care, though. It’s not like I was sleeping anyway. I haven’t slept for days, just a fitful hour here or there. His eyes move rapidly behind cl