Lost in You (#Book 2)

Chapter 5

We go by my street and Austin stops the car. I’m appalled. The horde of journalists is still posted in front of my building! I don’t know how I’m going to get home. I don’t want to dive in the pack again. “Don’t they ever let go?”

I saw Austin frowning as he answered. “Never…” His voice is weary. Our conversation seems to have deeply hurt him. Maybe after having circled the area four times, the journalists won’t be there anymore. “We’re going to the hotel.” He declared suddenly.

We? Did he just listen to anything I said? Without giving me the time answer, he takes off like a bullet, in front of the cameras. “I’m sorry for all that Rachel.” He grunts between his clenched teeth. His hands grasp the steering wheel so tightly that I can almost see his veins popping under his skin.

His skin, his hands… I would love to feel them on me again. one last time, one last night… God! Am I losing my credibility? Be strong Rach! “I’m not going to the hotel with you Austin.”

“I’ll sleep on the couch. There are too many journalists around you, to leave you alone tonight.” Despite his bad mood I can see that he’s trying to protect me.

“Nothing will happen Austin.” I reassure him but he doesn’t take note. The both of us know very well what happens when we are left alone together. Falling back into is arms, wouldn’t help me clear things up. At best, I’ll feel good in the instant, at worst, wore than before.

Austin sharply turns right and parks in a hurry. He looks into my eyes. His eyes are so deep so intense, that I feel like I could drown in them. “Don’t you understand? You’re my oxygen Rachel! Not a day goes by when I don’t think of you…” his eyes sweep my body up and down with an undisguised desire. “…and everything I’m willing to do, just to feel your body against mine. To see your smile… you give me, what nobody has ever given me before.”

Okay… every single one of my nerve ending is sending visible messages to my body. Messages that my brain is desperately trying to erase! Oh God, what do I do? Austin looks intensely at me. “You make me vulnerable. And I don’t know how to handle that.”

It’s as if he had taken his shield off… My god, he’s sexy! “Maybe there’s nothing to handle, Austin. Maybe humans don’t need handling. Maybe you need to accept that certain things can’t be under your control. Your feelings included.”

Austin took the time to organize everything in his life, and control everything. Ever since his mother died, he promised himself that he would never be destroyed again. But in that case, what’s the point in living? It’s better to take the risk and suffer than live in an ivory tower. “Take me to the hotel.” I said without further defiance.

He looks at me briefly, but I don’t know how to take his look. Did I just lose the match? He jets off again, as I stay glued to my seat, my heart beating fast…

***

I nervously zap through the TV stations, without really paying attention. Austin is taking a shower. I’ve been trying to convince myself not to join him, for the past five minutes. Naturally, he booked a suite in one of the most luxurious hotels in the city.

I sink into the living room couch. Is he really going to sleep in this, while I’m sprawled out on the triple king sized bed? Honestly, it’s incredibly difficult as it is to hold back from curling up against his wet and naked body, let alone him sleep far away from me tonight…

I should avoid lying to myself. One little kiss is all it would take! One little caress from him and I melt into his arms like snow in the sun. For the tenth time in the last five minutes, I ponder on the idea of joining him in the shower. I tap my foot impatiently on the ground, biting a fingernail.

OKAY! Afterall, I’d be stupid not to make the most of a Greek Grace of God in a luxury hotel room. The temptation is too strong. I rise from the couch, feeling bold, when a journalist speaking on TV arouses my attention.

“The business world’s biggest heartthrob Austin William was spotted this afternoon, picking his assistant up from her home.” And there’s a video showing my pallid face as I get into his luxury racing car! My shoulders sag. I angrily switch the television off and go to the window to contemplate the city. Austin… what are you doing to me…!

Through the massive picture window that takes up almost an entire wall, I watch in admiration, the buzzing city below. I gently fold my arms over my chest and wrap them around my shoulders. I jump when two large hands slide around my waist. I freeze, my heart pounding as a shiver runs down my spine.

His contact, his skin, the scent of him make me dizzy, I’m so intensely taken by his presence that I can’t think straight. “I love it when the city is at our feet.” Austin’s warm, soft voice caresses my ears. My heart’s going to burst from the beating so fast. The thought that someone could see us from below makes my belly ache with desire.

I want him so much, longing for his hands to wander all over my body, that the need for it is almost painful. s**t, I’m weak! I can’t help but sigh with pleasure, he’s under my skin. I’m done for. My eyes cloud over, and the city became slightly blurred as I let him suck me into his world. Oh my, I can’t resist him.

“I need you…” I feel his mouth slowly brush over my cheek, up to my ear then he seizes my earlobe. “I want to taste you…” His hands slide up over chest and hug me with such passion that I lose balance. How can I resist…? “You’re mine.”

He presses against me and pushes me against the cold glass of the window. It immediately warms up to our touch. I should tell him no, remind him that I don’t belong to anyone. But it would be lying because whatever I do I’m utterly and irrevocably under his spell.

I was defeated the minute I accepted our date. He grabs my chin and slides a finger into my mouth while his other hand seizes my ass. “I feel your body shivering against mine… yu need it, you’re begging for it.” I let my head fall back against his shoulder as he unbuttons my skirt and lets it fall to the floor.

I close my eyes and focus on what Austin is doing. It’s just him and me now, there’s nothing else in the world that matters. This man is one of the sexiest, most coveted man in the States and it’s me he desires. He told me a little earlier that I drove him crazy. The power I have on him is more exhilarating than any aphrodisiac.

“Austin…” my voice was almost a moan.

“Shh…” His hand seizes my neck, blocking my head, while his hand slides inside my blouse as he reaches up to my breast. He yanks the bra down, freeing my breast as he grabs it, setting every inch of my burning skin, on fire.

I press my palm flat against the window. A few drops of water slip from Austin’s shoulders onto mine and evaporate instantly. I’d never believed in spontaneous combustion, before now… My hot breath steams up the window, while Austin carries on igniting my desire. I feel so complete, so much more alive when I’m vulnerable, and at his mercy.

“Let me show you how much I love you…” he whispers Oh! This hotel suite is enormous, and yet Austin’s charisma seems to fill it up entirely. I feel so vulnerable in his arms, no bigger than a mouse and as light as a feather. I’ve never loved anyone the way I love him. I never get enough of him, and he’s always coming for more. Did I even love at all before knowing Austin?