Chasing My Hybrid Mate

Coming Clean

Three: Coming Clean

Molly

I open my eyes and see the same sight that has greeted me for what seems like forever. I look down at my hands deep in thought. Everything is coming back to me and I can’t help but the feeling of being lost comes over me. I look back up and am staring at myself. The mirror is right in front of me. I can see the despair in my eyes. I don’t want to go any further…… I don’t want to remember what my father has turned me into. My mom…… My beautiful mother who always told me how special I am. Now I’m thinking that she might have been wrong. I think I have become the monster that everyone wants to track down and kill.

I grit my teeth thinking of my favorite story my mother always used to read to me, “Alice in Wonderland”. Makes me wonder how crazy my life actually got after that last memory I have of my father. “Well, I mind as well see how far the rabbit hole goes, I guess.” I mumble out loud as I hear my mothers voice float through my mind once more. “Remember”. Aright, damnit I’m going. I think to myself as I reach for the door knob without looking and opening it to a bright flash of white light. I watch as Emerson and I had just finished having s*x once again. This time in my bed at home. We are still intertwined on the bed when I tell him we really need to talk. He reluctantly agrees but wants to shower first. I agree with him as long as it’s done separately.

I’m sitting at the little table that has two chairs when Emerson comes out of the bathroom. I look at him and point for him to sit down. “I need you to promise to listen to my story until the end. Not to get upset or angry until everything is out, okay?” He nods his head at me and I decided to start while looking at my hands. I take a quick breath. “Okay, here goes nothing.” Raising my eyes to his. “Emerson, I’m not human. I’m a hybrid human vampire mix.” I see the shocked expression on his face. I continue to tell him what happened to me from when my father, Oscar, found me and my mother to when I got home a week ago. When I finish my tale, He sits there for a while processing what I have told him. “Emerson?” He looks at me as he is pacing in front of my bedroom window.

He holds up one finger to me. Telling me to give him a moment. He turns back around to the window. “You said you'd been taking sent neutralizing pills and spray. How do you still smell human to me?” He turns around, looking at me. I’m still sitting at the table wringing my hands. “The pills only neutralize my vampire smell from what I’m told. I don’t exactly know how it works. The spray neutralizes every smell which you really don’t notice since we are at school with everyone else’s scents are around us. The spray also affects your sense of smell without you realizing it. It will take about a month for the pills effects to get out of my system.” He stares at me for a long time. “Why are you telling me about this, Molly? Are you going to help us or are you still playing games?”

I felt my heart-breaking thinking that he feels this is all fake. I look at him sadly. “No Emerson. I may have been made to at the beginning to get close to you but it backfired. I’m in love with you, Emerson. I want to help because I know this is wrong. My mother raised me better than to hurt innocent people.” He nods his head. “I need to use your phone. I have to call my father.” I hand him a minute phone that is untraceable. He looks at me questionably. “The landline and my cell phone are bugged. I always have a couple of minute phones for just this purpose.”

I open my eyes and this time I’m sitting on the floor when I get a pain ripping through my skull. I grab my head with both hands as memories of being in the Alpha office come back to me. Seeing the girl, I always picked on walking into the office and calling Emerson her mate. Him saying no. How he always told me that, no matter what, he would always stick by my side and that he loved me no matter what happened. Then it’s like the frame changed in my head and all of a sudden, I’m alone with Emerson in the same office. I’m crying because he is leaving me to be with his mate. I feel like my whole being is being ripped apart. Instead of leaving like I should have, I had s*x with him again…… I don’t understand why I would do something like that knowing he doesn’t want me.

I fall back onto the floor withering in pain as more memories come flooding in. The Alpha’s look on his face because of what I had done to Emerson and Avia’s relationship. I don’t understand why he is mad at me when Emerson has been mine for three years. Him handing me a book about Mates and what they mean. Finding out my best friend is a witch that has been spying on me, reporting back to my father everything I said and did.

I lay there as the memories finally subside. I manage to sit up and wipe my face off. It comes back covered with blood. I wipe my hands off on my pants and take a deep breath. Wow, that was some ride I hope to never endure again. Thinking about what happened there at the end of the flood of memories regarding that book. I remember that book so vividly. I was never taught about mates and what they are to wolves or vampires. I’ve heard the word but always ignored it. Looking through that book and reading it made me very sad. That one’s mate is a gift from the Moon Goddess and the ties that bind them are unbreakable. If you reject the other, they are both destined to die for the Goddess’s will is inevitable and unbreakable. I remember how upset I was because that just reaffirmed that I will never be able to keep the male I fell in love with.

I felt a flutter in my heart as a memory comes to me that I also have a mate. Due to me being a Vampire, our mates are known as Soul-Mates. For some reason though, I have the feeling that my mate has hurt me and I don’t know why. I close my eyes, wanting the memory to surface. I don’t want to walk through any more doors. I just want to remember without leaving this spot. I concentrate of that feeling of that flutter and zero in on it.

It has now been a month since we have been back to school. I am still keeping up with the act of being a grade a b***h with Karly. What has changed is that Avia slipped me her phone number. I don’t know how to take that. I have not called her or messaged her as of yet. Just knowing that if something happens, I can give her a call if I don’t want to call the Alpha. I also think this is a kind of truce between us. It is during our lunch hour. I have lost that witch one more time, thank Goddess. The hallways are empty. I am in my locker when I start smelling an amazing scent of fresh rain and grass. You know the smell right after a rainstorm in the middle of a meadow. At the same time, I stepped back and someone runs into me, knocking my books out of my hands. I automatically bend over to pick up my books and hear. “Oh, hell no!” My heart sinks to the bottom of my stomach. I know that voice.

I snap my eyes open as I remember how I met my Soul-Mate for the first time. Only, I have known him for years and I have hurt him over and over again not knowing what I was doing. I am so damaged that I can’t help but to damage everyone that is around me. First it was my mother. I was born, which made my father hunt her down and hurt her. Then I hurt Emerson by doing what I was ordered to do to keep my own mother alive. Poor Avia, who has never hurt a fly, got it the worst by me having s*x with her Fated Mate. Just for me to hurt my own mate because he has seen me having s*x often with his own best friend. Oh Goddess, I don’t want to wake up and live my life anymore. It’s not worth it. Just let me die now. The last thing I think about is River as I black out. My Soul-Mate.