ZARA Tom wanted to stay the night with me , but I told him I had to catch a very early flight and it was not convenient , so he left with the promise that I would think well about us and give him an answer when I return from London next week. So basically I stayed up the rest of the night thinking about what to do about this situation , I feel that everything in my head is a total disorder , that I cannot get my brain in sync with my heart , because they both yell at me to do completely different things; For example , last night I really wanted to let Tom stay the night with me , turn off the alarm , and tell Dominic that I was really sorry but I wasn't going to be able to accompany him to London. Fortunately , my rational side won the battle and I managed to gather enough stre