ALLISON
I tried calling him. I texted, I called and I left thousands of voicemails but he responded to any of them.
After he left the way he did, I realized that I didn't want to lose him. I was scared of losing him more than I have ever been scared in my life. At once, all my insecurities, all my fear, all my pain, all my confusion were gone. I loved Matthew, I loved him so much and that was the hidden truth, the truth I was scared of.
I stared at the phone like it was an alien thing in my hands while I waited for the phone to beep or ring. I wanted anything at that instant, anything from Matthew was going to be fine, as far as he wasn't going to leave me.
But nothing came, it was two whole days already and there was no sign of him, the panic was killing me, the fear of never seeing h
