My Tutor Boyfriend

It was summer vacation when I first met him. He was my tutor way back then; Mom says I have a very low grade on my English class that's why he scheduled me a tutorial class with her friends' highly recommended tutor. --- Nasa Rion de Café na ako ngayon, my tutor is 5 minutes late. Nangangati pa naman ang mga paa kong pumunta sa mall dahil nags-shopping ang mga kaibigan ko. Ugh! In our squad ako lang yung may tutorial class, for sure they're backstabbing me already right now and laughing of me! Pitying me, dahil may class ako ngayon. My phone beeped. It’s a notification from one of my friends, it’s a photo of them on the arcade at nagpapakasaya while I'm here sitting at a reserved table for Angelo Mercedez, naghihintay kung anong oras siyang dadating cause he's already late for almost 10 minutes! My ghad, so unprofessional of him. Binusy ko nalang ang sarili ko sa pag s-scroll ng IG account ko, iniiwas ang sariling maburyo dahil kung tuloyan na talaga akong maburyo rito at hindi pa rin dumadating yung tutor ko aalis na talaga ako. Naputol ang pag-iisip ko ng kung ano-ano when suddenly a nerd guy sits infront of me. Halatang ka-edad ko lang ito kaya for sure he's not the tutor. Mom didn't say na may kasama pala ako sa tutorial class, I thought it would be me alone and the tutor himself. Tsk. I raise my brow when he layed his eyes on me. "Kasama ba kita sa tutor class?" Paninigurado kong tanong. Tumango lamang ito at ngumiti making me see his up and down braces. Ugh, nerd. Ilang segundo pa ay may dumating na namang isang lalaki, mukhang kasing edad lang din namin ito't umupo siya sa tabi nung nerd na lalaki. "You know what this is so unprofessional of this uh" I forgot his name, what's his name again? I look to the name tag na naka paskil sa table namin "ahm Angelo Mercedez is super late, this is so unprofessional." The guy with a circle shaped glasses responded to what I said habang yung isa naman ay nakatingin lang sa akin, oh he's a good-looking man. "Baka na traffic lang" sabi nito't inayos ang kanyang salamin sa mata. "It’s not my problem anymore, alam niya namang sobrang traffic dito sa pinas. Tss excuses." I rolled my eyes. "I'm sorry, I'm late," said a girl na kakarating lang. "Sir sorry na late po ako" she said apologizing and looking at the guy who's good-looking. O.M.G! I mouthed. Umayos ng upo si nerd samantalang gulat naman akong napatingin sa huli. "It’s okay, let's start. It would be unprofessional for me if we'll not start our class schedule" he said and gave a look at me. "Uh, okay Sir" said the girl and sit beside me. Sa buong klase at pagtututor niya ay hindi ako mapakali. Mygosh, I think I just burst someone’s bubbles. While the class is still ongoing hindi ko maiwasan ang pinag gagawang paglalandi ng katabi ko sa tutor namin. Ugh, what a total slut. "Sir, mag bet tayo para ma inspired naman kaming mag-aral" she said maartely, sabihin mo para ma-inspired kang mas lumandi pa. "Ok sure" pagsang-ayon nito sa suhestyon ng malanding babae. "Next meeting, we will be having a quiz and-" The girl interrupted "Sir pag mas mataas score ko you'll buy us pizza!" I rolled my eyes at what she just said. "Uh that's too unflashy, Sir if ako ang makakuha ng mas mataas na score I would like to change the venue of our tutorial class” the girl beside me rolled her eyes as if I care. "Why, don't you like it here Miss Evangelista?" Our tutor asked. "I don't, there's too much of people here I can't concentrate" I rolled my eyes. Nilibot ni Sir ang kanyang paningin, sumang ayon rin sa akin si Nerd guy. "But if we'll change the venue asan naman tayo?" He asked and tila nag-isip ng sagot sa sariling tanong niya. "It’s okay in our home" I suggested. The two classmates of mine in this tutorial class look at me. What? Ayaw niyo yun? Makakapasok kayo sa bahay namin, ang swerte niyo naman. "Uh, we'll see Miss Evangelista if you'll get the highest score," he said. "Bye Sir" paalam ng dalawa. "Take care ka po" the girl added before going.tss. "Aren't you going to, Miss Evangelista" Ugh, surname bases suck. "I just want to apologize for what I said earlier Sir, but I was just being honest." I straightly said what was in my thoughts. He looks surprised, you must cause you're just talking with Kirra Evangelista. I stood up and get my stuff before going, nag paalam ako rito "Bye Sir, take care" ---- "Yeeees! I got 82 over 100, I'm the highest!" shouted ni Ate girl sa tabi ko. I only got 79 while nerds get only 75. Ugh. Sir ordered us a pizza; I feel sad about the outcome of my quiz. Gosh! I studied for almost how many days for this weekend to come tapos di ako ang naging highest what a s**t! Baka may kodego yang malanding yan ha? "Miss Evangelista and Mr. Junoy also made a good job, maybe let's just have an outdoor class next week" nagkabuhay ako sa sinabi nito habang wala namang paki si nerd. "Really?" "What? That's not fair!" The girl blurted; I rolled my eyes over her. Hindi ako kumain ng pizzang inorder nila instead I ordered myself Yema cake and a cup of black americano coffee. Did I just say that I am a type of person na ma-pride at prangka? I looked to out tutor, he's laughing with the two. Automatic na napa roll ako sa mga mata ko ng makitang nilalandi na naman siya nitong babaeng kaklase ko Ugh! but on the other side he's actually my type too bad he’s, our teacher. That night he called me while I was studying, hindi ko na inisip kung san niya nakuha ang number ko dahil obvious namang sa mommy ko. "I just wanted to tell you not to be disappointed with your score" "Whatever Sir, I'll be better next time" I heard him chuckle on the other side "okay, okay. Do you have any questions then?" Nagtagal ang tawag namin dahil sa mga tanong ko. On the next week excited ako dahil outdoor yung class namin, kami lang dalawa dahil may importanteng lakad ang si Ateng girl at nagkasakit naman si nerd. I don't know but I just find myself na nagpapaganda like I am just going to a tutorial class. Ugh! Sige na nga may crush ako sa tutor ko but it’s just a crush, paghanga I guess it’s just normal like? "Sir!" I greeted them when I saw him. "You look different today" he said. Napangiti ako dahil napansin niya ang kakaiba sa akin. "Maybe it’s because I always go to our class in my school uniform, naninibago ka lang yata.. sir" I don't know habang tumatagal ay parang nawawala yung formal approach ko sa kanya as my tutor, well his just 2 years older than me and he's just a college student so maybe I could talk to him casually but still with respect? Nang papauwi na kami ay napadaan kami sa isang park, nakita ko ang isang bench and sat there. "Sir, let's sit here for a bit please?" He seriously looks at me "we must keep on going, ihahatid na kita sa inyo" he said and continued to walk. K, fine. I mouthed. I was happy cause it feels like I'm on date but I guess he doesn't feel the same. Ugh, Kirra ano ba tong pinag-iisip mo? You looked like a disperate b***h. Tss. "Hindi na, I can handle" ani ko ng maabutan ko siya't makasabay na sa paglalakad nito. "No, delikado na't baka mapano kapa" "Sana all may pake" I almost whispered. "What do you mean?" Huminto ito't hinarap ako. Narinig niya pala ang sinabi ko. Huminto rin ako, hindi naman siguro masamang mag sinungaling eh, no? "Sir, I took a lot of time to get dressed and put some make up for you. Sir..." s**t tila umatras ang dila ko. "S-sir, I like you" nilakasan ko ang loob kong tapatan ang mga tingin niya. I saw how his adam’s apple moves. "I didn't ignore you" he stopped tila nangangapa ng mga salitang maaari niyang sabihin para sa isang batang katulad ko, giving his best para hindi ako ma offend. "Hindi mo kailangang maglagay ng make-up or dress up to look pretty. If you think I look great because I'm already a college student, then you’re wrong once you go to college, I'm sure that you will meet someone who's greater than me." He said. I thought today will be the day that he'll see me as a woman and not a student, nagkamali ako. Gusto kong mapansin niya ako but he always ignores me, and I thought being honest would be nice, nagkamali ako. Pero ako si Kirra at hindi ako madaling sumuko. Mas binutihan ko pa ang studies ko, hindi lang sa kanya but also sa school din dahil gusto kong mag college kung saan siya nag-aaral. Mataas ang standard ng school nila, pinipiga bawat nag e-entrance exam doon kaya I should do all my best. Nag-aral ako ng nag-aral, hindi na sina Marian ang palaging kasama ko. They are bad influence on me, puro lang gala at shopping ang inaatupag ng mga ito. I try and do all my best until the time has come. I took the entrance exam to where he is studying, hindi ko sinabi sa kanya dahil gusto kong surpresahin siya. One day on our tutor class, binigay ko sa kanya yung admission paper ko which means nakapasa ako sa exam. He was so happy for me; I go to his school but unfortunately hindi magkatugma yung schedule nmin. We became close, as the day goes by ay hindi ko na kinailangan pa ng tutor so we becames friends pinagsantabi ko na yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya, we became as a drink buddies. Halos kada araw ay magkasama kami, umiinom at nakikipag-usap about sa mga crush namin. Yes, I like him pero tanggap ko ng hindi kami bagay dahil wala naman siyang nararamdaman para sa akin. Others always thought na mag-jowa kami but we're not. Magkaibigan lang talaga kami, we enjoyed each other’s company. We have the same likes and trips kaya mas nagkasundo kami, he's my tutor before and turns out to be my close friend. We're in a causal relationship right now, no more surname bases and no more Sir to respect. "Guess what?" I almost scream because of excitement. "What?" He asked before placing the glass of beer on the table. Kinikilig ako. "Elijah asked me out” Elijah is my crush, and he asks me for a date tomorrow. "Whoaaa, sana all!" Angelo was happy for me, so I guess it’s a go-go. After that day I met Elijah and we go out on a date, we play the arcade, watch movies and eat a lot, and drank. *hik focc I'm drunk. "Hey, kaya mo pa?" He asked. Ughh! s**t napadami yata yung inom ko. I touched my forehead and hinilot ito, damn beer! "I'll walk you home, asan ba ang inyo?" "No, I'm fine" I said pero makulit talaga siyang ihatid ako pauwi pero makulit din akong hindi na dahil kaya ko naman. "Hindi na *hik* okay lang tologo akow" hehehe before he could utter another word to say someone grabbed my arms harshly. Ouch! "Hey! Masakit" I said, oh? It’s Angelo my friend! "Uh, Angelo hahaha" "I'll walk her home, umuwi kana" maawtoridad nitong sagot tapos ng lumingon ako sa direksyon ni Elijah ay tumatakbo na ito palayo' Uh? What happens to him? He pulled me on the way to my apartment, yes, I'm living on my own in an apartment now kasi malayo yung bahay namin sa university. Mom wants me to buy a unit but I really don't need it kung noon magpapaili talaga ako but you people change, hindi na ako yung spoil brat na Kirra dati. "You're drunk" he said habang nauunang maglakad sa akin. Hays, ang gwapo talaga nitong kaibigan ko. Matangkad, maputi, sobrang neat manamit and matured. He's so good looking. I stopped walking and point my finger sa ilalim ng baba ko, kunyare nag iisip. "Because I drink, that's why I'm drunk?" "Tss, hindi mo ba nakikitang binabastos ka na ng lalaking yun?" He said with a loud voice. Uh, I know. I totally know! "Hmmm" nahihilo na ako, gusto kong sumuka. He faced me but still a single meter far from me, I can perfectly see his handsome face from where I am standing. Yung mga mata niya, ilong at ang mga lips nito, I could say he's so perfect yun nga lang kaibigan lang ang tingin sa akin kaya what the f*ck nalang! "I heard him, kahapon, sa cr ng club." Para itong bakang namumula sa galit, ahw so cute Angelo, so cute. "Pinag- pupustahan ka lang niya kasama ang mga kaibigan niya!" I chuckled because of his cuteness. "Why are you laughing?" Galit na bebe Angelo ko hihihi. "Nah, like you care" pasimple kong ani, and walk again. "I... I care for you" he almost whispers. I stopped making another step and look at him. His smoky eyes met mine which makes me feel a shiver. "Let's go out Kirra” ... is he asking for a date? Sh*t! "What do you mean?" "Let's go out on a date" I’m literally shocked here. The next day we go out, he asks me to be his girl and I said yes am I too fast? like dude, he is my type and I really like him since then but just like an ordinary couple we also fight, and we have this major fight where he ghosts me just because I act good in front of his friends. ---- I keep calling him but his not answering, I texted him for a couple of time at wala akong nakuhang reply kahit isa. He's online yet sine-seen niya lang ako. Sa pagkaka-alam ko ay wala naman akong nagawang mali? Wala talaga akong naalalang maling ginawa ko. After three days ng hindi niya pagpapakita sa akin ay naglakas loob na akong puntahan siya I prepare myself sa mga maaaring mangyari. And then there naabutan ko siya sa bahay nila. I can't believe him, nakaya niya akong tiisin ng ganun katagal? "Why aren't you answering my messages and call Angelo?" "So-sorry I'm just busy" huh, busy? "Busy? What a fcking excuse is that? Kahit busy naman ako eh nakakayanan ko paring maglaan ng oras para sayo ah? Ah single text won't harm Angelo; a single call won't harm!" I paused, i wipe the tear that fell from my eye. "Naisip mo rin ba ako? Sobra akong nag-aalala sayo tapos ikaw nandito't chill-chill lang? Ang selfish mo!" I bursted, hindi ko na kayang sarilinin to! He's such an asshole. "Kung may mali man akong nagawa pwede naman nating pag usapan diba? Pero pano? Pano natin mapag-uusapan if you're not letting me talk to you?" I didn't give him time to utter some words, pagod na ako. "We're done" I saidat umalis matapos sabihin iyon. I can evem hear him calling my name pleading, but I never turn my back, I don't want to be fragile now alm kong sobrang rupok kopag tungkol sa kanya. Nasan na ba yung matapang na Kirra dati. Nasan naba yun? I went home on my apartment crying. Sh*t ka Angelo! Pinilit kong makatulog pero hindi ako dinadalaw ng antok. I look on my phone ng mag vibrate ulit ito at umilaw. Kinuha ko ito nakita ang ilang missed calls at mensahe na galing kay Angelo. Kirra please, let's talk. I will be waiting here outside, hindi ako aalis ng hindi ka nakakausap. I read his message. I look outside at bumuhos ang malakas na ulan. "s**t!" I cursed. And ran para kumuha ng payong at nagmadaling lumabas, bwesit Kirra nagpapakarupok ka na naman dahil sa lalaki. Lumabas ako ng apartment at nakita siyang patalikod na naka-upo sa tapat ng gate, pinayungan ko ito ng tuluyan akong makalabas ng gate. He looked at me with his pleading eyes. Basang bada na diya at ako naman ay unti-unti naring nababaa dahil sa sobrang lakas ng ulan. "Angelo, umuwi ka na" I said calmly. "No, Kirra please. I'm sorry. I made a mistake, sorry. Kirra please" he pleaded whike holding my other hand. I never see him this disperate, sa aming dalawa ako lang naman yung nagsisikap para maging matatag to, sa aming dalawa ako lang naman yung nagmahal ng lubos. But I think everything that are too much are really not good for someone’s sake, dahil kung sobra ang binigay mng pagmamahal sa isang tao, sobra rin ang sakit ang kapalit nito. "Kirra I'm just jealous, gusto ko sa akin ka lang mabait, gusto ko sa akin ka lang mabait, gusto ko sa akin ka lang sweet, gusto ko sa akin kalang. I'm sorry Kirra I love you so much, please don't leave me" he said almost kneeling. "Angelo, gusto ko lang namang maging mabait sa mga kaibigan mo. I just want them to know na karapat dapt ako sayo" "Exactly, you don’t have to act like that cause you're perfect for me Kirra. Very perfect" "Angelo" I call his name. "Kirra sorry" tila nabasag ang simentong pilit kong binabakod sa puso ko ng makita ang mga luhang pumapatak gaking sa kanyang mga mata. Bw*s*t ang rupok ko talaga pag dating sa lalaking to. I nod and gave him a half smile. He hugged me at tuluyan na nga akong nabasa. "I love you Kirra, I promise I won't do it again. I love you" he said wholeheartedly looking straight to my eyes. "I love you too Angelo" rupok mo bess.