30 WILLOW “You ready?” Rob asked. We stood side by side, naked on the porch of the lodge. No one was around for miles. My pulse raced with excitement. I was going to shift. Into a wolf! Finally. But right now, I was going to test out my paws. “Ready. Okay, so what do I do?” I asked for the fifteenth time, turning my head to look up at him. He smiled at me. Smiled. Soft, gentle, for once he looked at ease. As if the weight of the world was off his shoulders. As if here, now, with me was his world. “You don’t do anything. You just let it happen. Remember how it felt to be a wolf. Bring your awareness to that energy and let go.” I closed my eyes and drew a breath and tried. All I remembered, though, was my panic. Not understanding what had happened. What I was. Not until Rob had comm