The Lotus And The Billionaire

Chapter 58: The Alvarez Malice

I didn’t think refusing an Alvarez would feel so satisfying. Seeing their faces contort into displeasure really fed my ego big time. Surely, I felt like I did my part well.

Messing with my husband already gives me a tad of satisfaction, sure. But pissing an Alvarez I haven’t been with just feels different. It’s as if I’ve done something heroic…

Alvarez and I came out of the manor, laughing as the car’s stereo played mellow music. We weren’t actually kicked out, but we chose to leave on our own. Staying inside the premises might turn out to be a disastrous move.

“Did you see their faces?”

I laughed as I kicked my heels off my feet. “I did! The looks on their faces were priceless!”

“Right?! And Red? He looked flabbergasted!”

“Oh, f**k. I just know everything was caught on camera.”

Alvarez and I somehow ended up laughing as he drove to god knows where. The entire ride felt so short as we laughed about everything that happened back at that party. It’s just…it was excruciating. But even so, it felt good.

They intimidated me, but with Gray beside me all the time, I somehow felt powerful. And sooner, that feeling made me into someone that’s just as greedy and spiteful as him.

“Felt just about right, hmm?” Alvarez asked as he parked at a place I didn’t know.

“Mm-hmm. Sure did.”

Another giggle escaped from my lips as I turned to look at the sky. Everything was beginning to dawn on me while I reminisced about what happened back there at the party.

Alvarez…sounded like a child as he uttered those words earlier. It felt like he was speaking out loud for the very first time as if those were what the younger him has been keeping to himself for a very long time now.

I’d say it was him from a decade ago…

And now that he has finally said those shitty words to the entire family, he’s going to be even more hated. I can already picture it happening, especially with the way they looked at him.

Us, rather.

I’m fine with being hated, and I know that my husband right here feels the same way. He was never not despised by the people around him, anyway.

That’s just…the malice that has been carried within the Alvarez clan for I don’t know how long anymore.

Perhaps I have just forgotten about it, especially after being away from them since I turned ten. A lot of things happened as I had to move out for a while with my parents, and when I came back, I never got the chance to come back to the Alvarez manor anymore.

I shifted my gaze to Alvarez and found him staring at me. He seemed like he was contemplating something, so I just looked at him and waited for him to tell me.

“Diaz, will you…” he trailed off, hesitant.

“Go on.” I smiled, urging him.

He sighed and shook his head. “Will you— Ah, no. Will there be a time that you will look at me the way they did?”

I tilted my head to the side, unable to understand what he was trying to say. He seemed to have realized that I was confused, but it seemed like he couldn’t find the correct words to say anymore.

That’s why…I tried to remember how the Alvarezes looked at him. And that was when I was able to take the hint. Perhaps, deep down, he still gets bothered by what they say…

A sigh escaped from my lips. “There won’t be…as long as you don’t hurt me.”

He nodded. “I never intended to do that.”

You did.

From the very first time the two of us spoke to each other, you already intended to hurt me. Perhaps not in the way you think I’m talking about, but in a way that would definitely break me from the inside.

Alvarez has no idea. I, on the other hand, am sick of pretending that I don’t know about it. I was never truthful, but he’s slowly starting to be an open book to me.

That…makes me feel so guilty.

I never thought I would feel this sort of compassion towards him, and I certainly didn’t think that I would ever feel this way towards a man I believed would bring the worst out of me.

Well, perhaps he did…

Either way, it doesn’t matter anymore. Regardless of what may happen, I don’t think I’ll ever admit it. I may have accepted it, but I have no plans to let anyone know.

This will pass.

I hope it does.

“Do you want to go out?” Alvarez asked all of a sudden.

I nodded. “But I don’t think that would be a good idea.”

“Why?” he asked, raising a brow at me.

“It’s too cold outside. I’d freeze if I tried to go out there.”

He looked outside and then looked back at me. That was when he remembered what I was wearing. This was the one he made me wear!

A sigh escaped from his lips as he went outside to get his emergency bag. He’s probably going to make me wear the clothes he kept there for himself because I don’t recall putting anything of my size in his bags, and neither have I carried an emergency bag.

I sat and waited for Alvarez, and when he came back, he handed me a shirt and sweatpants of my size along with his sweater. I blinked twice as I stared at the clothes, wondering where they came from.

“I prepared those in case something like this happens. Knowing you, you’d only bring a change of clothes if it’s mandatory.”

“To be honest, I’m quite surprised.” I flashed a sheepish smile as I took the clothes from his hand.

Alvarez was just as lazy as I am, and I never thought he would go out of his way to rearrange his fully prepared emergency bag just so he could add some of mine. He could have just told me to pack another bag and stuff it somewhere in the car…

“I don’t want too many bags in my car, Diaz. I already know what you’re thinking.”

I rolled my eyes and waited for him to turn around. “Alright, thanks. You can go outside now.”

“Why?” he asked as he sat properly.

“What? Are you going to watch me change?”

“Oh, right…” he trailed off. “But if you’re fine with it…”

“Oh, shut up!” I complained and threw the sweater at his face, but he just laughed at me.

Alvarez laughed and removed the sweater from his face. “I was just concerned! Maybe you’d feel less cold if, well, you know…”

I glared at him while trying to suppress a laugh. This man, seriously! I thought he would be a lot more depressed, especially after what happened earlier. But I guess he really doesn’t care about the Alvarezes enough to feel down.

I shook my head in dismay and sat back in the passenger seat. To be honest, I’m actually in the mood to do it, as well. But I…kind of want to hear him ask for consent again. I don’t know, maybe it just feels good to be respected in that way.

“Diaz,” he called.

“Hmm?”

He looked at me, eyes filled with lust. “Can I?”

And that was the only thing I was waiting for.

I smiled and offered him my hand so that he could do whatever he wanted. Alvarez still doesn’t forget to be gentle with his gestures despite the desire he feels towards me.

As he helped me move to the backseat, his hands softly undressing me, I couldn’t help but stare at his face. He really is a looker, isn’t he? With those piercing eyes, soft lips…

Ah, even his stubble seems attractive to me. Perhaps I have gone mad. Yes, that’s definitely it…

Or maybe I’m not. He’s just that…good-looking.

Alvarez smiled at me as he began to kiss me, slowly at first. As his hands roamed across my body, his kisses turned more aggressive. His kisses felt rough, yet somehow sweet, even as his tongue made its way inside my mouth.

We’re in a car that’s too cramped for us to be doing the deed, yet I somehow felt comfortable. Perhaps it’s because I’m in his arms in a place where it’s only us.

This is dangerous, though. The situation we're in shouldn’t have allowed the two of us to do this in this kind of place…

Even so, I found myself kissing him back like there was no tomorrow. I was giving in to his touch and they seemed like they had no plans to leave my body.

“Don’t hold your moans back, mi amor. Please, I want to hear you…” he pleaded as he removed the hand that was covering my mouth.

I still tried to hold back by biting my lower lip, afraid that it would show how much I wanted this. I didn’t want my desires to simply fly out of the cage I put them in. How was I supposed to hold back if he was like this?

“Ah! Gray!” I screamed his name when he inserted a finger inside me without warning.

He smiled and went down on me, placing my legs above his shoulder as he kissed my folds. I swear I gasped so loud as I watched him eat me out as if I was his favorite dessert…

Alvarez…looked like he was enjoying it so much that it just made me feel more aroused! My moans seemed louder than they normally are, and I couldn’t help but grip the car seat and his hair tightly.

“Relax, darling…”

“How am I—Ah! Hngh! How are you expecting me to relax—Ngh!”

I felt Alvarez chuckle near my entrance, and it just made me wetter than I already am! My eyes rolled back as I screamed his name out, begging him to go slower.

I didn’t want him to slow down, honestly speaking…

“Gray!”

I felt him groaning against my clit, and that triggered it. I arched my back so hard as I felt that wave of pleasure rushing as if trying to overwhelm me. And I allowed it. Damn it.

“You’re a little too sensitive today,” he remarked as he licked his lips, smiling.

I shook my head and tried to sit properly while he was still in between my legs. “And whose fault is that?”

“Mine, perhaps?” he teased, his hands making their way to my cheeks.

I nuzzled my face into his palm, feeling the warmth. Alvarez caressed my cheek with his thumb and planted a kiss on my forehead.

“Can I put it in?” he asked, his tip ready to enter me already.

I nodded and wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him closer. He already knew that I wanted a kiss, so he planted kisses all over my face while slowly entering me.

Normally, I would give him a signal to be rough with me, and he would immediately do so. But now, I just wanted to take my time and appreciate how he really lived up to his vow not to do anything that would displease me.

As he kissed me, all while moving at a pace that wouldn’t make me uncomfortable, he chuckled. I pulled away and looked at him with confusion, but he only shook his head and nuzzled his face to my neck.

“It feels different today…”

I chuckled and nodded. “Yes, it does.”

Today, my climax felt…truly sweet. And it might be a little too strange to say, but it somehow felt innocent. It was bliss, and I would do anything to experience it again. With Alvarez, that is.

Perhaps it’s because this is the first time I’m doing it with him after admitting that to myself. And for the first time in my entire lifetime, I felt genuinely scared…cowardly, rather.

I didn’t think it was possible…but here I am, anyway.

This…will be the one thing that would take me down.