SLOWLY, Tina gained back her senses. The passiveness inside her head drew back and she became aware of innumerable thoughts , darting like confined birds , too quick for her to grasp. Unsteadily, she got up to her feet. The little baby was still there, lying sumptuously on the bed , sleeping peacefully. The baby she had lost in her teenage years. A slippery kind of fear washed down her spine , paralyzing her mind . A part of her mind had been hoping that it would not be so; but it was so. An uncontrollable stream of tears wet her face, twisting and squeezing themselves from the very core of her being . But she could not hold back, she could not let herself love him again. She had to let them both go , she could not allow herself go through the pains and suffering again . Wiping her face,