Prologue
“This is not going to work,” Fitch whispered against my lips. He leaned me against the concrete wall with his hands trapping me in between while we shared intense kisses.
I pulled his face and kissed him deeply. My heart is racing and there’s this exhilarating thrill rushing through my veins every moment that I spend with him. The undeniable attraction that I feel towards him is just too strong to stop even though I know that this will never work.
He’s a knight. He’s not allowed to fall in love. He’s not allowed to have a family.
But he is the one I wanted.
“Zafria, I am not the one for you,” he whispered again but he was showing no effort on pushing me away. “We can’t be together…” he kissed me lightly on the lips before holding my face. “I won’t be able to give you the family that you wanted.”
I wanted to have a family of my own. I want to live a normal life. I want to be with the person that I love. I know that he’s only being true to me right now and I appreciate his honesty and straightforwardness more than anything. From the beginning, he already made it clear to me that he couldn’t offer me more. And that I cannot ask for more because he would not be able to give me what I desire to have.
I shook my head and stared into his deep blue eyes. He has always been the most handsome thing I have ever seen in the face of the earth. That night at the banquet, I might have been annoyed at him at first but I could never deny how handsome he is.
The thickness of his brows and his shiny, shoulder-length blonde hair make all the other princes in several kingdoms pale in comparison. He looked more of royalty than the rest of them.
I swallowed hard and got lost in his eyes. It doesn’t matter anymore. None of those meant anything anymore. I want Fitch Allen more than anyone in the kingdom. And I am certain that with all of the emotions I am keeping deep inside me, I am not going to regret this decision of mine.
“I don’t care,” I breathed against his sinful, sinful mouth. “I don’t care about all that, Allen…”
His thick brows furrowed while his stare turned sharper and darker. “I don’t believe you,” he hissed. “You have always told me what you wanted.” He’s right. He knows my dreams and aspirations. It’s not a secret.
But now, I am throwing all of them away just to be with him. It’s not what I expected to happen but that does not mean that I am sad about this—about us.
I licked my lips and smiled weakly while I wrapped my arms around his neck. “Things change, my knight. The way I decide is not an exception to that.”
“I don’t want you to regret anything, Zaf,” he replied in an equally soft voice. He caressed my face gently with his thumb and it automatically makes me melt into his touch.
My heart is racing fast. It feels like it’s about to crash anytime soon with the way he touches me. He never touched me like this before.
I swallowed a huge lump forming in my throat and shook my head. “I am not going to regret anything,” I told him in all certainty before pulling his face closer to mine again—giving him the sincerest and most passionate kiss I could ever offer.
