Chapter FiveConfusion really doesn’t even begin to cover it. How I was feeling, that is.
I really, really didn’t want Keifer to go, but I couldn’t imagine any way to get him to stay. He was uncomfortable, I was uncomfortable; I thought I was giving him an easy out, but instead I felt like a giant asshole. I’ll be honest with myself, though, and admit that Keifer’s reaction hurt. First, him coming out dressed. We had always had lazy mornings. He would wear my robe, and we’d eat together, and we’d talk. He marched out with his shirt tucked in – like maybe he was ashamed of what we were doing? I couldn’t really figure it out.
Really, I thought there was something between us. Relationship-like, not just f**k buddy. I know I didn’t handle Ersan well, but I couldn’t stand the thought of tellin
