For five years he showed nothing but coldness to Abby, especially when around strangers. He couldn't openly suggest in words or action his real relationship with her because he was afraid.
He was always worried someone was watching him.
He became so cold and detached in the public view that even his own wife couldn't feel nor notice his real feelings.
'I might have taken this cold, heartless facade too far.' he remarked bitterly to himself.
He didn't mind the rain or the cold air, not even the storm. His mind only worried about holding his tears away from showing while he was outside. He doesn't even trust the rain to conceal his tears, he couldn't let anyone see how much he loved Abby.
It's not safe to assume that Sebastian's mother would not do what she had written in that lett
