The Cheating Millionaire

Chapter 16 throwing out the hurt and anger

SUMMERS POV

The morning went by fast, I was so happy to see Ryan again and Lisa was just as happy to see him. He surely had good timing showing up, it clearly made a while difference to Lisa which I was happy about. Ryan's gifts arrived at 11am a massive big Teddy my height and a outfit for Skylar and gift voucher for lush with a new mum hamper for me. I rang and booked for Skylar to be registered on Friday. My dad went to collect the shopping I ordered the night before.

And now me, Lisa, Ryan and my dad at stood in the garden. My dad already set up the paint in the water balloons for us on the sly there's a few big buckets full of them ready.

"Okay why did you drag us out here?" Lisa asks me.

"Well I remembered my dad doing this when I was upset, when I was younger with water. I throw it at the wall and scream out my frustrations. Now we got these filled with paint let's get throwing them" I say.

I pick one up and throw it at the wall "THAT'S FOR ALL THE TIME I REFUSED TO CRY OVER SEAN WHILE PREGNANT FEARING THE BABY WOULD GET UPSET TO." I shouted as the red paint splattered the fence.

Lisa threw one next "THAT'S BECAUSE SIMON DUMPED ME FOR A w***e" Lisa shouted and Green paint splattered right next to mine.

My dad threw one next "THAT'S BECAUSE I HATE SEEING MY SUMMER CRY" my dad shouted and yellow paint splattered over my red paint.

Ryan threw one "THATS BECAUSE BOTH MY GIRLS ARE HEARTBROKEN" Ryan shouted and pink paint splattered next to Lisas.

I threw enougher one "THAT'S BECAUSE SEAN CHEATED ON ME" I screamed in frustration as yellow paint splattered. Damn this wall is already looking colourful I think to myself, then I threw enougher one "THAT'S BECAUSE I FAILED TO KEEP SKYLAR IN MY WOMB LONGER" I screamed as pink paint splattered, then I threw enougher one "THAT'S BECAUSE I WALKED OUT CRYING ON MY LIL PRINCESS I SHOULD OF BEEN STRONGER" I shouted as yellow splattered and all the paint was starting to emerge together, then I threw enougher one "THAT'S BECAUSE MY LIL PRINCESS DOESN'T HAVE A PROPER FAMILY UNIT" I shouted as enougher yellow splattered across the fence.

Then I see Lisa has thrown ones as she shouts "THAT'S BECAUSE I DIDNT DESERVE TO GET DUMPED VIA TEXT" Lisa shouted.

Then I see Ryan has thrown one "THAT'S BECAUSE I COULDN'T GET HERE SOONER" Ryan shouted as a red balloon splattered.

I see a splat straight after and my dad shouts "THAT'S BECAUSE I DIDNT PUNCH SEAN WHEN I HAD A Chance"

I throw enougher one "FOR LIFE THROWING ME THIS EMONTIAL ROLLER-COASTER, I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS" I scream, before just continuing to keep pick more up throwing them at the wall as tears slipping down my face and I don't need anymore words.

Lisa keeps throwing them at the wall to screaming stuff out but I block out what she says and just keep throwing my own ones. I see my dad and Ryan throw some at times as well.

When there all gone I start laughing.

"What's funny?" Lisa asks look at the wall how colourful it is now, there oncw stood a gloomy looking wall sad like us but now it's brighten up by explosives looking colours shining brightly looking good" I say

"That felt good" Lisa says smiling at me.

"I know, I don't feel so angry now! I kept the anger in for months trying control my feelings worried it would effect Skylar before she was born" I say

"My queen, your brave and strong, my pumpkin you are also strong your both be just fine. Now let's go get a hot chocolate I'm freezing" Ryan says.

As we all turn around we see my mum and Sean looking out the kitchen window at us all.

"I bet your mum will make me clean up" my dad says

"Probably" I reply while laughing.

"Who wants Chinese for Dinner?" Lisa asks

"Oh pumpkins I'm all in" Ryan says

"Sounds good to me" I say walking into the kitchen.

"Love it seems you don't have to cook tonight" my dad says

"How come?" my mum asks.

"Because they all decided on Chinese for dinner." my dad says.

"You did a good job on decorating the wall" Sean says.

I look at him and see he is looking directly at me with amusement in his eyes.

"Yeah it's did my queen and pumpkin a world of good" Ryan says turning the kettle on.

"Where's Skylar?" I ask

"In the front room asleep" my mum says.

"Okay thanks" I simply reply walking towards the front room.

SEAN'S POV

"You messed up big time" ryan says to me.

"I know that already, and Im doing everything I can to fix it" I say looking at him.

"Kenny, sandy, pumpkin could I please have a minute with Sean he can help me with the drinks" Ryan says.

"Sure" says Kenny taking Sandys hand to walk out the kitchen

"I will help Summer" says Lisa as she follows Kenny and Sandy.

I go get the milk out the fridge. "Okay let's have it" I say to Ryan.

"You maybe a little older than me, but don't doubt I will beat your ass if you ever hurt my queen again is that understood" Ryan says in a low serious voice.

"I don't plan on hurting her ever again, I want us to be a family with Skylar to correct my mistakes. I swear I've regretted it everyday since, I can't live without them both, please help me show Summer I've changed and still love her I need her back." I say.

"You don't deserve her! It's your mess you have to fix it yourself and if she does take you back you better treat her well. If you don't I won't hesitate to take them with me and look after them myself" Ryan says.

"You ain't taking my family anywhere!" I say getting pissed off.

"Then treat them well, I maybe be gay but I'd marry Summer and claim them myself to make sure there looked after and treated well. Summer is my best friend your my brother and I never expected you to treat her like you did! If I had known id of made sure you stayed away from her!" Ryan says

"I know but I will make sure she doesn't get hurt ever again" I say

"Okay in that case help me take these drinks in" Ryan says smiling once again at me. I knew he would give me the third degree, Summer and Ryan have been best for friends forever. If Ryan wasn't gay I'm pretty sure I'd of never had a chance with Summer to start with.

"My Queen, lil sis, secondary ma and pa I come baring gifts" Ryan says walking into the front room.

"Please tell me it's the drinks and not Sean" my charming lol sis says.

"Oi, your ment to love me dear sister" I say

"I do, but I'd much prefer my drink right now" she says laughing.

We spent the next few hours eating and watched back to back episodes of only fools and horses. Ryan saw to Skylars feed before leaving with Lisa to go see my parents.

Me and summer had showers before bathing Skylar. It's our first attempt alone after being shown. I'm running the bath while Skylar is preparing a bottle and clothes for afterwards.

"Summer do you think the water is just right?" I ask

Summer walks over dipping her elbow into the baby bath, "yeah that's fine" summer says.

"You know infacare smells really nice, makes me want to switch my own bubble bath." I say

"I agree it smells lush" Summer says getting Skylar undressed.

"Do you want to put Skylar in the bath or wash her body?" summer asks

"I don't mind what would you like to do?" I ask.

"Okay I wash you put Skylar in the bath and hold her that way your the horrid parent to make her cry because it's bath time" summer says.

"Okay I don't mind being the big bad wolf if it means little lady is clean", I say while taking Skylar. Except I didn't even reach the baby bath before Skylar did a wee wee and pood all down my top and arm, "hmm maybe I should of opted for washing you" I say to Skylar. Summer is laughing as if it's the funniest thing she has seen her whole life, her eyes are shining like they use to briefly for a moment of joy. "I'm glad you think it's funny" I say to summer.

"Good girl my lil princess" Summer says while still laughing at me. She then quickly wipes the poop off me with some tissue.

"There you go that will do until after we have bathed Skylar" summer says through laughter still.

"Thanks, let's hope that's all of it out and none goes in the bath" I say while placing Skylar into the baby bath. Instantly she starts crying the second she is in the bath just like we predicted she would. Summer quickly washed Skylar and then I quickly got Skylar out into the towel Summer was holding up. We worked together to quickly get Skylar dried and dressed.

"I will feed lil princess in bed while you get changed" Summer says while smiling that the smile made her eyes twinkle with amusement.

I quickly went and got changed into my pj's and joined Summer and lil lady, as I walked into the bedroom Summer was yawning.

"You must be tired you had no naps today" I say.

"A little are you not tired? You didn't nap either" Summer asks.

"A little tired to but nothing to major, want me to wind lil lady?" I say.

"Yeah okay" Summer says handing me Skylar.

I start to wind Skylar "hey how about you go on and get some sleep. I can see to Skylar." I say.

"Are you sure?" Summer asks.

Before I could reply Skylar puked all down my pj top.

"Looks like you hate daddy's clothes tonight lil princess" Summer says cleaning up Skylar face with the bib.

"I agree, my clothing seems to being under attacked from both ends in such a short amount of time." I say.

SUMMERS POV

"Here pass Skylar here" I say laughing.

"Huh? I thought I was winding Skylar" Sean says

"You can I figured you would want to changed?" I say.

"It's okay we are good" Sean says.

"You really want to stay in that top smelling of baby sick?" I ask.

Sean then lays Skylar across his legs and quickly takes the pj top of throwing it over near the door, before picking Skylar up and laying her across his chest with Skylar neck resting on his neck to continue winding her.

" I may as well not wear a top that way the clean up will be much easier" Sean says laughing.

I couldn't help but stare and admire the site in front of me. Big muscular Sean with a body I've always drooled over. His abs and and firm six pack giving him that macho man look suddenly looks more gentler, and cute while cuddling up to our tiny lil princess while winding her. It's so cute that I couldnt help but just love the moment before me.

"So you still love me and admire my body" Sean suddenly says breaking me away from my thoughts and I quickly look away.

"I was admiring our daughter" I simply reply while laying down closing my eyes.

"If you say so, but Summer I love you to as well as thinking your hot as hell" Sean says.

"Well you missed your chance, there's no going back so you may as well change the topic." I say.

"I still think there is a chance though because I still love you and you still love me" Sean whispers

"Ah but you forget I also hate you" I say.

"I hate myself to so I can live with you hating me also" Sean says.

"Ha, but I don't trust you to be faithful once a cheater always a cheater! And your a cheater." I say.

"No, I learned the hard way, that nothing is more important than you, your love and my love for you out love for each other. And now it's even worse knowing I didn't just screw your heart over I messed up being a dad from the start also, I missed out on your pregnancy and providing a proper family unit for you both. I will never mess up ever again if you gave me one more chance "Sean pleads.

I don't say anything, I just don't know what to say, and I can see how much he has been trying these days. But that's only a few days who's to say he won't go find someone to go sleeping around again with in a few months time, I can't risk that again.

I feel Sean gently move leaning over me slightly while placing Skylar onto the next to me crib. Then before I know it sean pulls me into his embrace.

"What are you doing?" I ask.

"You sleep better when your cuddle up to me" Sean states while running his fingertips gently up and down my back.

I can't help but think he is right and I instantly feel relaxed whenever Sean holds me like this I think to myself. But I also hate that Sean still has this effect on me.

"But this isn't" I go to say

Sean cuts me off saying "shh just rest and sleep we can argue it out later."

"But Sean we shouldn't be" I start to say again but Sean then cuts me off again saying, "shh unless you want me to kiss you to keep you from arguing with me."

I know that threat is real he use to do it loads before when we were together. I decided to just be quite and try to sleep a little before Skylar's next feed. Except I found myself unable to sleep and deep in thoughts about past times together with Sean, and how the future would work out with co-parenting. I hadn't even realised I'd been playing with Seans chest hairs like I use to in habit I was so lost in thoughts.

"Summer what's wrong?" Sean asks placing his hand on mine.

"Huh, what do you mean?" I ask.

"Your restless I know because your playing with my chest hairs so I wondered what's keeping you from sleeping?" Sean asks.

"Oh, sorry I didn't realise I was doing that. I guess it's a old habit." I say.

"Don't be sorry, my body is all yours to do what you like with, but what's going on in your mind?" Sean asks while tucking a lose strand of my hair behind my ear.

"No you don't belong to me, and nothing I just couldn't sleep so just thinking of anything and everything really. Why are you not asleep?" I ask trying to change the subject.

"Because your restless hand was distracting my thoughts, and yes weather you want me or not I still belong to you within my mind. You can't change that" Sean says.

"I can't change what you think that's true, just like you can't change what I think and right now I simply don't see you as mine." I say.

"I know and I don't want to argue with you or upset you so I won't say anymore, just know if you can't sleep and feel like talking I will stay awake with you" Sean says.

"I don't want to argue either not at this time of night so let's just agree that we both have our own thoughts and feelings." I say.

"Okay" Sean says kissing my forehead.

It wasn't much longer when I fell asleep.

The rest of the night we took turns seeing to Skylar I took the first turn and Sean took the one afterwards.