I have dealt with countless of men in my life at work and in the field. Mom had a long list of ex-lovers when I was growing up. I didn’t know if it was because of my father not taking full responsibility for me and she got depressed and lost all her hope in men or if it’s because she’s still in pursuit of eternal happiness.
Well, she did. She remarried and is now looking so happy with a man almost my age.
I wonder if everything turned out to be this way if my father only was man enough to choose to stand with my mother when he got her pregnant. Would I have been raised in that kind of atmosphere? Would I have not felt so incomplete my whole life? Probably. But is there anything I could do now? Nothing. All I can do is move on and face this man in front of me who is making my heart beat
